blog #90

   I am still waiting for justice to be brought forward People. I really wonder if these Guys I speak of are paying some Politician off, the Government calls it lobbying but We know it as bribery. It's alright for Them to accept money because They are in charge. I said something once I feel These two may be using against Me, I was watching a black Fella do the three card monty and He wanted Me to play. He showed Me where the red card was going to fall too. I could see the cards as He put them down and knew He was lying. I picked the card I was supposed to twice and lost $40. in doing so. I was a little hot and told Him, "A black Man is a black Man and a Nigger is a Nigger!", trying to provoke Him. "Don't insult My intelligence!", comes to mind on this one and the way Bill Rowley tries to lie His way out of what They did to My sorry life. People I again have to say that I am the innocent one here. You want to know how My life has been? As a small child I was in a room with My two younger sisters and a cousin of Ours. This cousin told My sister Penny She was going to beat Her up, My reaction was to grab Her and pull Her out of harms way. In doing so We fell backwards onto the bed. Pennys stomach was streched tight by doing so and She was unhurt when She was punched in the gutt around five times. Ever since then I feel Lois, My oldest siter, hated Me. Lois even told Her Husband Bob that I punched Her in the boob and made it fall off, Bob was gonna kick My ass too. What a sorry existance, I even have to admit. But what do I do? Commit sucide? They win if I do, justice gives Me a reason to survive here. I'll say it again, I could track Them down and kill Them, but to what avail? I would wind up in prison for life and They would never know suffering. Enough said, PUT THESE PEOPLE IN JAIL NOW. Come on already. Kelly McGill.

Quit ur bitchin'!

   I bet some of You want Me to quit complaining about how I was set up for a fall by My old freinds, well get a grip Pal I will end this when They are in the courtroom. There I said what needed to be said. Well I have another old saying I want to share with You today, "There's more to life then just having fun.", well yea, there's Justice, Injustice, Heartache, Crimes, Wars, Infidelity, Hard work, Laziness, Boredom, And Me of course. And I am going to go off today. Bill Rowley I am sure calls Himself a family Man, well Bill You're not a Man You are a Liar, stop lying to Yourself is another old saying You may have heard of. And if that is the reason Nobody wants to press charges on Him I will say here and now, if Mr. Rowley went to prison and lost all of My money I would support His family until He was released, I would even put His Children through college, that's just how I am. I mean, what kind of a role model is a Theif and a Liar Folks? I give Bill the benefit of the doubt here and say that He is probabaly doing a good job with His Kids, but that is no reason to keep Him out of court, seriously there are alot of Fathers in jail already, hellThey out Martha Stewart in jail for a whole lot less. Another thing here, this pertains to the Lawmen out there, if these People keep screwing with My life as They have been, I will go and find Them, I have contimplated taking Mr. Rowley out and waiting for  Richard Pattison to show up at the funeral that's how bad it is for Me. Again I must say, for the purpose of understanding, I refuse to do so, The main reason is that I would rather They suffer in jail for a few years, if I were to kill Them They would never see what hit Them, Remember that the blood will be on Your hands Pal. Look up Simpsons and find the episode, "Marge is missing!", and I can prove I am messed with. Yes I was sleeping in a tent and playing My guitar when a Fella walks into the woods yelling, "Kelly! Kelly! Kelly!", how else would He have known exactly where I was camped and My name if not for Their freind Jon Peirson? These People think They are untouchable, well I feel They are accessable and easy to convict. I would not be going on like this if They had stolen a bike or something, even the money They procured is not that important, THEY TRIED TO TOTALLY DESTROY MY MIND BY USING DRUGS AS A WEAPON PEOPLE, COME ON!!! If it were You, You too would want justification in this matter. I gotta quit for the day, this is as hard as it sounds just to write it Folks. Please let the Lord guide You and make You understand that I need help here to bring down a couple of bad People. Amen to that, and Have a great day, Kelly McGill.

I'll be the Tortoise!

   I am the Totoise, and yes, Richard is the dumb Bunny. Ha! That oughta start the day out right. I just feel like saying something different today, but what? Well We can always just mention the World and it's problems I suppose. Lets start with the way all of these tornadoes happened a while back, scary! My nephew Clint sent a text message telling Me a storm was hitting Them hard in Missouri, when I text'd back He said four already touched down and another was on it's way. I could'nt get to the computer fast enough, after I looked at the weather channel I text'd back saying it looked like the worst had past. The next day on the web it said 88 of them had touched down in a few hundred mile radius there. Whoa, aye? I state this just to say something different, but also to say that I really am tired of this whole thing. I again say that I am the Victim here People and want nothing more than to bring justice to My life. If You actually knew how My mind works since these People tried Their damndest to destroy Me You would be in shock. Let Me explain a little here, I cannot stop thinking in a peculiar way. A little deeper meaning is that before it all started My mind was clear, now I continuoslly think in a way that that I feel borders on insanity. If I were to go into detail alot of You would consider Me insane, but I must say I have a better grip on reality then You may think. Enough said I feel, I gotta go. I'll talk to Ya later, Kelly McGill

Still kickin'

   Ya I'm still here, why not? Got nothing better to do then to bring down some skunks. Ya know I was a Punk Myself back when this all took place. I was so dumb. Man I saw a Cop once, Bill was there, and started squealing like a Pig. We walked all the way across the street and I turned and went back. The officer stopped me and I told Him, "I'm not drunk and You can't do anything to Me.", and yes I was drunk. Another time Pat Lookingbill did a burnout and another Cop showed Him He too could do so, when I saw that officer later I squealed at Him too. When He stopped I asked Him, "You must be knew?", He said He was and I said, "I thought so.", and walked away. I admit I never was too bright. Hell I'm no Angel Folks, and I too have stolen. When I was sitting around after Sheila I was in despair to eat a few times, I could open any door in the apartment complex with My I.D. (old door hardware) and did once. It was the Guy's door across the hall, Elliot Weiss caught Me coming out too. Ya know what I stole, a half empty bottle of vodka, a half full half gallon of milk, and two other items out of His refridgerator that I don't remember. I never once thought about going through His belonings and stealing anything of value, that's the type of crook I am. Many times I have had to go into a grocery store and help Myself to a meal, Kevin Childers can back Me on that. I even put it in a song how I have had to survive, Blacksheep is the title. Well I gotta go now, started a job yesterday, first one in seven months, working at the Cheyenne fronteir days rodeo in a food stand taking cash, a tough enough job too. Until I can sqauk at Ya some more I'm outa here. C-Ya in the funny papers, lol, Kelly.

Kelly McGill

   I have to start here by saying I am sorry for putting this on facebook. You have to understand that I am in a fight for My life. Anybody who has'nt read My story please do, and I must state here that I am not insane. Mr. Rowley keeps contacting Me and saying I don't know what I am saying, and to quit living in the past. Mad? You better gaodamn beleive it. He even says He does'nt even know Freda Mares when I know damn good and well He does. I keep mentioning a Playboy that was handed to Me, People I was awake two and a half days that weekend. They waited  twenty four hours after I was asked to do the acid before They gave Me the dang thing. It is awfully convenient that Bill Rowley nor Richard Pattison were around when I was asked to do acid many times. Again I am not insane just a little messed up, I would be a goner if I would have done the ether I was offered on the same weekend as the Playboy was handed to Me. I do apologize for the rudeness of putting this on My wall, But You have to understand how bad I want justice. I really want to go after these two for Their antics involving My life. Kelly McGill. p.s. I know for a fact They are guilty.

Seriously pissed

   The Gall of these two Punks, I made damn sure Bill Rowley would read this blog. The arrogant Bastard sends Me an email stating He does'nt even know Freda Mares. I asked, "Where's the Playboy?", of course He answers, "What Playboy?". People I seriously am not making this up. I am so fighting mad at this very moment I really want to go to Wenachee Washington and take His Mother Fucking life. Again I cannot do so, besides I would rather see these two sit in jail for a while. I knew what They would say when it came to the Playboy. An article I did read in it pertained to Homosexuality, it was titled, "The laws of love.", this flat out states no Gay People allowed in laymans terms. You have no idea how frustrating it is to try to bring justice to this matter, as I have stated Murder in on My mind right now. That alone should make a Person take a look at it. "Face up to the facts of life!", I have heard and understand the meaning very clearly. Again I say I am the honest Person here and I would take a truth serum to prove it. This Playboy is not to be found in Their archives either, I looked for it before I came to My senses on what They did to My life. So I know Hugh Hefner and His crowd would deny any such Playboy even exist. Tough to prove aint it? I can prove it gauranteed. Well that calmed Me down a bit, just talking about it helps seriously. I hope to God an honest Man is reading this, There seem so few anymore in the Government,(said to anger Someone with enough gutts to help) because I really do want to take these Boys down hard. HEY! I have been victimized and attempts have been made on My life. These are lieing Children that think They can get away with destroying My life for Their benifit. Bill if You are reading this remember, I was the one You sought out to be in a band, and I had never even played an instrument before. Richard is the type of Fella that You would call charismatic, it would be easy for Hefner to accept Him and His flunky freind Bill. I state again I need help from the law People, I need a cop with enough sense to see through Their lies and take Them down for pergury. Thanks for reading this People, Kelly McGill.

Wyoming!

   Damn it feels good to be in Wyoming, I hit Cheyenne yesterday. The mountains are not like where I am used to, but hey, mountains are a lot better then the city sites even if small. No justice yet I see, My phone never rings from the Police, I have no emails saying Richard is going to court, nothing. The rich and the poor again and again. Well what else can We talk about? Myself I am actually nearly consumed by My quest. I have become obsessed with bringing Them to justice. Hey! That's it! I was born to lose! Man why did'nt I think of that? Cool! Now I can live the rest of My Fucked up life knowing the truth. GODDAMMIT I AM THE VICTIM HERE! I WILL PREVAIL! Other then that have a great fucking day, Kelly McGill.

Again and Again and Again with this crap!

   Well the title again states how it is going, not worth a damn. But at least I feel better today then I did yesterday. I have a nice little saying for Ya, "The Man in the mirror.", that should say something to You. It means take a look at Youself, I do all the time and don't really like what I see. I think I have it figured out, not really but I'll say what I feel, I am a dumb Person, really! I have done dumb things. I will never acheive anything because of it, Nobody wants to help out a dumbass. Hey! If a Person is slow that means that Person is mentally retarded People, Come on. I have in My life felt stupid, I cannot explain, You just have to understand that I know what I am saying here. I have a cousin that is really a smart Man, but He is what all of You would call retarded, My Dad even says that He Himself is'nt the sharpest tool in the shed. My Grandfather You could tell was'nt what People would call completely normal, but He was a Man. He had a Full Grown aire about Him, and He felt like a Man. He took a lot of crap from Grandma and smiled the whole time, I really felt sorry for Him. He was the only Person that when I was told of His passing I felt Myself shake, He was one hell of a nice Guy. I miss Him still and it's been a long time since He left Us. Well this is going to be the last blog for a spell, I have to move on from Elko. Applications were submitted and no calls, so I'm outa here. Lucky day if it works, I might have a ride all the way to Cheyenne Wyoming. The old Boy's waiting on some money and then He's going down I-80. But either way I'm heading out. The works in North Dakota, I already have two phone numbers looking for Roustabouts there. Again I state that if there is a Cop out there willing to take on the big shots that left Me hanging give Me a call, My phone # is in one of these letters back a ways. Have a great weekend Folks, and God bless You all, Kelly McGill

Today.

   What am I doing wrong? I seem to be spinning My wheels here. I feel about as bad as I have ever today People. Justice is out of reach for Me I am beginning to think. Depression is a way of life that I would not want Anybody to experience. I hate this Son of a Bitchin' life for a fact. You know I was told something by a Cop once that I feel needs to be repeated, "If You're not honest You're not worth a shit!". How true those words are, Richard Pattison is a Theif and a Coward to do what He and His Freinds did to My life. I really have to end for today, I want so bad just to end this Mother of a life. Have a good day, Kelly.

Still I try.

  Well? Anybody arrested Mr. Pattison yet? I doubt it, I doubt if They ever will. I got yet another reason Hugh might have excepted Them instead of My dumbass, I never signed up for the civil service. Him being ex-military that may mean something to Him. I never knew it was a law, I am the kind of Person People keep in the dark because They see Me as a dumb Person, really. Back in 1978 We were never told at graduation that You must do it. It keeps You from getting some jobs You know. I really have to say here that if They stold from Me that I really want Them in prison, but this is not about money. People They tried to totally destroy My mind and life. If You are not angered by that alone then I really feel You are at a loss on what a grown Human is seriously. That would tick off any Man. I cannot say enough about how I was set up, I was asked if I wanted to do acid yes, but it was a planned attack on My life. Twenty four hours after starting the trip I was handed a Palyboy. That is twenty four hours, not a few hours, It was after around thirty six hours later I was offered ether. I have a real grip on reality People, I see what is going on around Me, I am not a totally lost soul. I have mentioned Full Gown Maturity before, I am still a Child in a Mans World but I see the truth, Somebody has to help Me here, I cry way to often people, and that is not normal.                        GIVE ME JUSTICE NOW!!! Sincerely, Kelly McGill.

# 80 for sure!

   Yea this is the 80th blog. Wow! I am still coming up with things to say though. I know what these Jerks are saying,"Kelly's just jealous, we're well off and He's poor.", No that is not the truth. I know for a fact what jealousy feels like Folks, the first time I thought of Nancy being with Someone else I felt it. I then told Myself I have no reason to be, I left Her and She needs to go on with Her life. I just wish I could do the same. In fact that is exactly what I am trying to do here, If They stole from Me in the manner I know They have done, and I can retreive it from Them, I know I can live a productive life. If not? I really don't see Myself going on much longer. I tell the truth when I say to You that I want to kill Myself, I have a will to live at the present is the only reason I go on. One reason to live is to bring these Boys to justice. I again say that I never purposely went seeking any acid. The word alone should keep Kids from doing it, "Acid!", why not just pour out some acid from a battery and drink it? IT IS ACID CHILDREN, acid destroys things. If I would have thought like that when it all started I would have said, "No!", just as You should. "The mind is a terrible thing to waste!", is an important saying to say the least. I will continue My quest for justice later. But until I see You again, KEEP YOUR GODDAMN ASSES OFF OF THE DRUGS KIDS!!! Sincerely, Kelly McGill.

Damn Fool Kid!

   Boy if that last blog was'nt proof that I am what is known as an absolute Fool, I'm at a loss on how to get it through to You. I am curious if an old classmate is looking at this, I emailed Him and told Him to, He is at the Riverton Ranger newspaper in Riverton Wyoming. Hey Bob, falsely reporting the news can shut You down Pal. I was there about six or seven years ago when I read the paper sent to My Parents house, They were in Arizona and I was house sitting. The headlines read Perry Greenhalgh gets 25 years for selling meth. Funny thing is I contacted Perry a couple years later on Classmates, Huh? Everybody I talked to knew something about it too. I guess Their just bored in a small town. I really think I received the only copy in print too, They would'nt send that to all. Game playing little Kids anyhow. You know I had it made another time in My life. I was living at 9110 Jollyville in Austin Texas when the owner told Me I could buy the place for $10,000., I told Him My credit was'nt any good. The sad thing is He said He'd finance it. The exact location is directly across the street from where that Maniac flew His plane into the I.R.S. offices, really. I would have been able to sell it for a serious profit. People, I am so sick of this crap, blogging in a manner that shows the retardation of an innocent Kid with no chance in life, but I have to continue. I have been shot at, My luggnuts were loosened, I was attacked by a co-worker with a framing axe(John Peirson was there), and when the Playboy was presented I was given enough acid to destroy Me, I'm glad I refused the ether. I wish They would have just killed Me and took it, Murder is less painful to the Victim in My opinion, I would'nt be in the fix I am at the present. I have to quit here, this sucks, Kelly

Wow!

   What the Hey, I am still here. I am wondering how many People actually beleive Me. Well I lie not Folks, I am the kind of Person that even when I say something and it is wrong I correct Myself right then and there. I refuse to lie period. So far I have told a very bizzare story to say the least, but here's where it gets horrible. I have to say things like I am going to do here in order for Me to be trusted as an honest Person. The story I about to tell You took place almost a full year after I was given the Playboy. I was at My Aunt Lindas house in Colton California and We were all watching a movie. I was engulfed in it and never saw Her and My Uncle Jim go to bed. At the end of the movie I looked over where They had been sitting and was surprised that They were gone. The next thing I did was to look back at the T.V., while doing so I looked down and saw Dawn, Tammys freind lying there in front of Me. This Kid was I think thirteen at the time. I looked down and saw exposed skin above Her hips, I reacted oddly, I bent down and kissed Her there. I was so shocked I jumped straight up and asked for Her forgivness and went to bed. I was confronted about it even, but could say nothing in My defense due to the shock. Hey, I am no Child Moplsester here People. That was in 1981, in 1986 I had yet another weird experience. My Neice and Nephew, Brandon and Charity, were staying at the Parents place while I was there. One day I was keeping an eye on Them, We were sitting in the front room and Charity crawls up on My lap. I beleive She was around six at the time. I have a bad habit of putting My hands on a Girls knee, it dates back to Shawna Clark and continues through Sheila and a Girl in a bar, it is nothing but a strange reaction I say for a fact that there was no sexual interest in My mind what so ever. But I put My hand on Her knee right then, I know for a fact both of Them would say I had a shocked look on My face. Afterwards I turned and looked at Brandon, I know I was bright red due to the embarrassment. I had another type of screwy uncontrolled experience of a different type also, twice I beleive, once in front of My sister Kay. Just sitting there I will bend over at the waist, no joke, and then sit up straight again. Kays reaction was, "I'm sure! I'm really sure!", Hell the look on My face was shock was'nt it Kay? No control? I would say I have a problem in that area. I was at My cousin Jims house in Kearns Utah, while talking to His sister Becky I again wound up looking bad. I know for a fact the look on My face told Her I was trying not to do what I was doing. I kept saying that She was big. A horrible life it is to say the least, and I don't think I needed any drugs to do these things to Me either. I plead to You out there with young Children, DO NOT LET THEM HIT THEIR HEADS AS A SMALL CHILD!!! I REPEAT MYSELF, DO NOT HARM THEIR CHANCES FOR A NORMAL LIFE!!! Yes I took a fall at the age of two, it sure as Hell did'nt help none! I really hate todays blog, but feel it important. May You have a blessed day, Kelly McGill.

Are You mad yet?

   If You are not mad then You have'nt read enough in My opinion. People I speak the truth, I have but one chance in life and I am taking it. It is near immpossible for a Felon, even with a 3rd degree felony, to get a job. Background checks are a bunch of bull in My eyes. Of course if Someone is a Molester or Rapist They should be found out, but less then a half gram of cocaine is different. I text'd My Mom about a week ago, when I was in Reno, I had found a couple of lines of meth. I told Her the truth too, I tossed it in the garbage. I should have sold it being broke, but never even thought about it. I tell You this so You will see just how honest I am. This character Rowley keeps mentioning John Dorral and says it was Me that wanted to do drugs, Bill? I am seeing with a fogged mind, but I am not as stupid as You think. I see now what They were thinking when They attacked My mind, "Nobody's going to beleive Him if He tells on Us.", it is an absolutely wild story I must say so Myself. I have to go back to when I first met these Fools, I started a job as a Janitor for the school district and Bill Rowley was an employee there. Him and His Pal Richard asked Me if I wanted to go to the senior keg party with Them, of course neither of Them had a car. After that I was set up with Bills Girlfreinds sister, Laura Chiles. Bill needed a ride to go out into the country and pick up Darlene is what it boils down to. I moved into My apartment in the old Teton hotel, all of a sudden Bill needs a place to stay, He had a place where His Father managed a motel. It was a dump and Bill found a better place is all. I rarely saw Him around until I rented the place, then all of a sudden He's My best Pal. When I was sitting around depressed with no food, where were My freinds then? Avoiding Me because I had nothing to offer. I have a serious question to ask here, is there Anybody going to do anything? I made up My mind to continue with this funky blog, I hope it is worth My time. These Two and Their freinds are fat and sassy, while I have to beg for spending cash and stand in line to eat, Hell I took the first hot shower this week I have had in a long time. Even while living in Killeen I had to bath in frigid water for two years. mainly because I was out of town constantly and let My gas get shut off. While being a Superintendent for a framing co. I used a solar shower, that is the closest I came to hot water. Well with that said I'm outa here for the day, Bitch to Ya later, Kelly McGill. p.s. Kevin Childers is the punk that helped Them when I was handed the Playboy, that's another one that deserves a serious beating Folks

Today not yesterday is where I am.

   Again with the foul mouth, sorry. But I hate the way it is in the construction feild anymore. Going to My story on what Richard Pattison and His Pals did to Me. I tell You right here and now, if this had happened to Nancy or any Woman I am in love with? You had better beleive I would never rest until They were in the ground People. I have been contacted by Mr, Rowley, this S.O.B. actually thinks He is a smart Fella. He continuoslly denies any of it, Hey, I am not insane , and I do see the truth here. This Guy insists that I was the one wanting to do drugs, Hell I never would have done the crap if not for others asking. If there is Anyone out there that was involved with the Palyboy, and feel I deserve a chance, so do Me a favor. I want Someone to start a petition to get these Boys arrested and taken to trial. A Citizens arrest is in order in My eyes. I seriously feel I am barking up the wrong tree here to tell the truth, but it does help Me feel better just to get it out and tell People. Like the saying goes, You can't hold it inside it will eat You up. It is definitly better just to talk about it. Anybody ever hop a freight train? Me neither! But I think I am going to, the Hell with hitchhiking. I found 166 oilrigs drilling in North Dakota today, all I gotta do is find a tool pusher and I might find a good job. I was told the hands in Wyoming are heading there due to the pay difference. Anyways, You Folks enjoy Your day, Kelly McGill

I'm through!

   To all My Freinds here on Facebook, let Me start by saying I am sorry for yesterday and My ranting, Along with the foul mouth. It won't happen again for sure. And what do Ya mean Serena Williams is more Manly then I? Come on Rusty and Steve! C-Ya.

What next?

   Good God Man! I just found out today I can't even get a job as a construction worker because I don't have a certificate from OSHA. This is an outrage, They'll hire these Goddam Wetbacks without it but not an American citizen. You sorry ass Bitches in charge think it's righteous I'm sure, but I cannot afford to go out and take Their little class at this time so I can't even get a Motherfucking job in My own country? What the Hell huh? I am so sick of the way We are treated in this land. I have seen enough Mexicans run when Someone looking like immigration comes along it is'nt funny. Screw the American blue collar worker aye? It's just the job Nobody wants is one of the biggest lies ever told by Our wonderful Government, tell Me to My face I don't want My job and You'll see what anger is about Pal. I can say some things here about it that would really piss You off, but the fact is I would probabaly get arrested for insiteing. I have been the Framing Superintendant a few times Folks, and You get very little respect from these People. You sure as Hell better watch Your ass around Them too, I've seen it where They purposely try to drop things on You. And shoddy workmanship is what many of Them are about. Well I've said enough to get Myself in trouble with this one, but I sure as Hell am not going to erase any of it. Shit People get away with ruining My life, and I have to suffer to the extent that I am hate every day of My existance. So fuck the Bastards! I really hope I pissed Somebody off today, Kelly McGill.

Where to now.

   I am not a liar, I said I was hired, but I did not get the job. I was told I was needed and to call on wednesday morning, when I called at 6:30 I was told the position was filled. What the F#@k? Give Me a break will Ya! Well it aint looking much better in Elko Nevada either, but I did eat today. Bah! Saturday I had to kill and eat a bull snake, it was'nt bad at all either. I write this to inform People that don't realize, Hey! America has a problem at the present. Some areas are very hard pressed when it comes to work. Again I am told about North Dakota being a boom state, sounds like a plan to Me. I just hope it does'nt take Me three weeks to get there, summer will be about over by the time I make it at the rate I am going for sure. Going back to what this blog is actually about, I am wondering if Anybody, in the Police, has even looked at this. It is depressing to see all My work in attracting the right People fail, I hope to Hell I get the respect I deserve and take these Bastards to jail. I said I turned away from Washington because I was afraid I would kill Bill Rowley, I was fantisizing about using a guitar string to do so. I would much rather see Them rot in jail Myself, killing Them would be to easy. I write this in order for People to understand how angered I am over this, again, put Yourselves in My shoes and think what it would be like with a tortured mind. Angry yet? I have a problem with paying attention, I can be doing an easy job that I have done numerous times before and screw it up, that's how bad it is. Hell! That's what it is. I will again talk to You about this in the future I am sure, and I hope it sets in so You can see what I am talking about. But until then, God Bless You all, and have a wonderful summer. Kelly McGill.