Can't quit

   I know what it is that these Boys are saying about Me to make Me look bad. I was told by a Guy from Douglas Wyoming where Bill lived for a while, "I heard You were an Asshole, but You're alright.", Troy was the most laidback Fella You can meet too. I wouldn't doubt if My miserable Family was involved in Their little caper. My life would have been different if They would have left Me be. I mentioned My '71 shortbox Ford before, I had the money and a 390 in the crate ready to go in when My Sister asks to borrow $500. out of the $900. I acquired for the motor. She later told Me I was never to see it again and that "Mom" told Her to rip Me off. Funny Parents. I had to let Them have it after years of harassing Me, They would say stuff like the Prison nearby allowed Prisoners to rape Girls in town and the town let it go. Or the one where My Cousin Jim wasn't allowed to eat with the Family, He had to catch Bugs for dinner. I finally told Them that I doubt if I even go to Their funerals. Now They are so nice it's disgusting. I can tell that They find My life amusing. You see, I am from a Family of slightly retarded People. I wouldn't put it past Them to say to Bill Rowley that They would back Him up, They were never there for Their Son. And if They did so You can guarantee that I would happily walk away from Them and never have any contact with any of Them again, the life I lived as a Child was horrific to say the least. But what the hey? I'm Alive and Kicking, whoopy right? This is too much fun, I gotta go, Kelly.

The life of an Idiot!

   Yep, that about sums it up. Who would believe such rubbish? Or is He telling the truth? Only the People directly involved know the hidden truth behind a sinister plan organized by close Friends, a plan in which a Human mind was at prey. My mind was altered on the evening I was introduced to Rush while doing acid. And continually this altering of My mind continued through mysterious and seemingly devious manner. I as a nineteen year old Little Kid never had the urge to seek out any hard drugs. When Mr. Rowley contacted Me about this writing He stated the opposite, He also denied knowing of said Playboy. I left it on the coffee table for for all to read in fact. A Liar and a Scoundrel is what You are Mr. Rowley. I was pulled over once back in the early '80s and I had a warrant out for not paying a ticket. I talked Him into letting Me go after I told Him I'd pay it that night, it was payday. His exact words to Me were, "If You aint honest, You aint shit.", I paid My fine that night. Other then that I about have My truck paid in full, $500. flat and She's Mine. My insurance is usually paid for six months total. It's cheaper and no worries for a spell. So I do show some smarts after all? L I B that's a kicker. Have a great one Folks, I'm Kelly and I'm outa here.

Todays another day

   One thing I have to say is that Beekeepers bust Their Asses My Friends, that is a lot of work when it comes time to bring in the honey. At 53 I can still get out there and bust My ass too. It is quite different compared to construction that's for damn sure, the most dangerous thing is getting stung by a Bee. If You were to screw up and get into a hive without the proper protection You may not fare all too well though, They can be agitated easily. I finally figured out something, if You're a Loser People don't want to help out that fast, sure They'll give a Homeless Guy a dollar but that's about it. Don't get Me wrong, there are those that do care, but it seems I have yet to find the right one. The Underdog is rooted for as People say but I still await My chance at justice, because I really am the Underdog. I don't actually expect any true help I guess, it just feels like the right thing to do. Who knows, maybe someday I'll get the right Person to look at this and see what it is really about and do something about these People. They are so brash that it is an embarrassment to the Country, to the World really. You cannot have this crud like the Simpsons or Family Guy on T.V. this is ridiculous to say the least. The thing is, these People have money and do whatever They want because They can, Our Government doesn't seem to give a shit about any of it. Just give Them some money and They'll turn Their backs on You in an instant. I am still Proud to be an American, We do have a Country unlike any other. I feel that is one reason People want to fight Us so bad, They see Our attitude spreading Worldwide and it scares Them to think of Their Children having this attitude We have and I don't blame Them. I would not want My Kids to turn out like the youth of America, They are too disrespectful for one thing. Not all I know for a fact, but it seems to be spreading. Let's all do Our share to stop this Country from completely falling apart, if it's not too late. Kelly.

Dammit all

   I can't help but want to quit this writing about My plight known as My life, I'm not pulling Your leg when I say it is seriously depressing. "Quit Yur Bitchin'!", "Take it like a man!", "Stop sniveling!", "Cry Baby!", got any to add? I hope ta Hell I at least change the life of one Human Being out there in the World. Hopefully some Kid was interested in trying drugs and My confession open Their eyes to the brutality of  drug abuse. It is called "ABUSE!!!" for a reason People, You'll knock it off if You have sense. Me? I was a naïve Kid that always just hung out watching the scene. Ready for whatever came along. Along came Bill, Mr. Bill as His Pals call Him, I never did. You had to be on Your toes working with Bill Rowley, I can hear the Kid laughing still, You'd be walking down a hallway and this Asshole would jump out and scare the crap out of You. Ticks You off after a few times too. I was taught in Karat'e to walk away until cornered then come out like a Lion, I want to be in that corner with these two People. Thirty plus tears of My life have been spent wasted, this is unacceptable. To deliberately set up some Kid while knowing this Person was a mentally challenged Person in America should bring an outrage in itself, but to continue to goad and Bully this Human. Absurd! Life is precious, and so short, "Slow down, life's too short as it is.". One thing that rally pisses Me off about these two is that They planned out the lies They would tell, "I don't know anything about a Playboy.", I left it lying on the bedroom floor the next day after I split Bills head open for charging Me, I know right where it was. I'm still ticked at Myself for never reading it, curiosity is a bitch. The only real proof is in My previous statement saying how Johnny Carson acted, it's a strange World to Me how People carry on like that. I understood exactly why He froze. In order to understand Me here imagine being like Truman in the movie. Here's this Guy that is completely in the dark about the World, a Teenager, and His Pals set Him up for a serious fall. I had just turned twenty right before I walked into the party in Austin, that is a Kid at an impressionable age. You have a manipulater   involved that is know as a Smooth Operator, Richard is the likeable Guy, I hate life. I am curious about that Gals upside down smile on the mentalist, I sport a similar frown. That tells You straight that that Woman was hurt. T.V.? How rich did They make You Richard? Good God Pal, You wanted Me around You, not Me wanting You around Me and You know You're full of Bull to do what it is that You continue to do and joke about it. No Joking matter to a Man Son. This Child is beyond that stage in life. "It's all just a phase Their going thru.", Man! Good Grapes Pal! Holy Gaucamol'e! "Oh Grow up! Just Grow up!", makes for a powerful saying. Miss Rivers is still with Us too. "Far Out!", and "Out a sight!" were radical enough. Talk about Your wild west, as Children We lived in southern California during the sixties. It's nothing like it was then, aint as civilized. One reason I pulled back away from the cities, Their getting to dangerous, I'll fight for America but I'm not relishing the thought of some Fool blowing Me up. Sorry for ending on such a bitter note, but I've gone on long enough. Have a  good night, Kelly.

I just gotta talk I guess.

   I'm here on Earth on this day of 2013, in the month of July on the day of the 18th. "So what.", is an interesting comeback. It reminds Me of, "It's Your own damn fault.", or else, "You should have been old enough to know better.", "Ignorance is no excuse.", again T.V.s heavy influence. I have a life in which I have been the Boss for decades now, I first ran a framing crew in Austin for John Lucas. John and the crowd of Carpenters around are some pretty badass Fellas when They get to moving and I could lag just behind John in naildriving. He has trohpies to prove His prowess with a Rigaxe, 36 nails in  thirty seconds if I remember right was His time for first place. I never beat Him but I was always a half a nail behind when We went side by side. These would have been twelve penny nails driven into fastened down 2x6. The thing about Lucas is that He has a flair that rubs off on You, makes carpentry into an art form. I have the intelligence, and I don't say lightly when I say barely, it takes in order to over see a bunch of crews on a job, five all together over a span. The toughest part is that when You are an American white Guy running the job everything goes wrong. Then You go to another job for the same company with the same crews and it looks spectacular, the Boss is a Mexican. Hell They don't want You there period. My last job I made a few mistakes but when We were finished We turned out a good product. You have walls as long as a Hotel You don't build in sections, You frame it all and straighten it out before the floor joist go on. The Contractor told Me, "I have never straightened  a wall, They just put the level on it every so often. I told Him He was going to do so on My job and He replied, "Well I'll just go Home.", after I told Him to go home They lined the walls. You have corridors that have to line up or it makes You look silly when Someone walks down the hall later. Job was commented on by the Project Super telling Me how good I had done. It's an easy one to find too, just go north on I-45 out of Houston, turn off at the Meadowlands hospital exit and loop around then go to the Candlewood suites. Our subs Foreman figured the arched pop ups, They look good. I watched Them boys on Their lining hard on the first three floors, I knew the fourth would be top notch too so I never looked at it once. To all You Carpenters out there listen, when You have a floor system with more then a house size and it rains it swells, saw one in Shreveport where it moved the braced wall five or so inches, that would be the one at the horse tracks. One of Ours moved maybe a half to three quarters out of plumb, there is a reason You gap the Plywood. Only fix I can think of is to score it a blades width starting from the outside working in. What I'm blabbing about is that if I aint stoned on pot I'm still sharp enough to "Git R done." and do it fast with professionalism. I really just want to express to You that I am a capable Person still even though I have the ability to have My mind elsewhere most of the time, Nancy is a regular memory that haunts Me everyday without exception. I have had My knees buckle a few times in My life. Saying this I know I have what it takes to live a productive life, I just have to keep plugging away at that far off reward. I feel I'll never get the response I am looking for here, but it's like a song I have named, "Better Try.". I'm still looking for an outlet for My music, I may have been stumbled across that with My Neighbor, Ya never know. Until then I write I guess. Have a good one, Kelly.

Dead Head

   Yup, that one states a lot. I tell You straight out My first acid trip was when I was alone at My apartment when a Woman came by and asked if I wanted to buy some acid. This is exactly at the time I got out of the shower. The next thing I find is an album by Pink Floyd on the turntable. I knew I was playing lead that night. The very next weekend I was alone at My apartment when a Woman came by and asked if I wanted to buy some acid. This  is exactly at the time I got out of the shower. A little mockery there to prove a point. On that evening I found a cassette tape of Rushes 2112 sitting on top of the stereo, I didn't own one. Soon after Bill Rowley, an old Friend of Mine, told Me that "Richard wants You to join a band, He'll teach You to play the Bass.", I was a gullible Kid at nineteen, I thought I was destined to be a star. Soon after that life changes began when I moved to Austin Texas, great city Austin is. Kevin Childers a Kid from Riverton where this all started happened to join up with Me on the journey. As the saying goes, "Just out of the blue.". That is pretty much where I got the great idea of asking this Fella to go along. I didn't really know the Guy He was a Friend of Bills. Once We were established with an apartment, Kevin and this Kid We worked with named Scott Carroll wanted to do acid all the time. Bad move on My part. Did'nt know to just hold it in Your mouth and absorb the acid then spit it out rather than to consume what will destroy Your brain. Nonsense, Period! Strange is what I call a plot such as this. These People were trying to make a drugged out Rock Star is simple to see. Proof? I have none, but His name is Richard Pattison if You want to know Who the ringleader is. And Yes I did walk into a party at the Marriott in Austin, on acid, Dumbass. I made a Fool out of Myself that night as I have on so many occasions. But before I totally lost My senses I met a Gentleman that told Me when I mentioned that We were forming a band, "I have connections.". I said We weren't really formed yet instead of getting a number, Greenhorn for damn sure. If this Young an is happening to be out there or Anyone else I can prove it was Me there because I have a picture at the Folks house with that same shirt on. Long hair, Flip flops, a white tooth earing and a white western dress shirt on, I was fit to kill. The next weekend We were tripping again. Hey when I say I was handed a copy of Playboy with a headline reading, "Stoned Hippy carries along Hallucenagens.", I should have caught the meaning. But I thought this was a story about some Kid. I never read the main story, the one about Myself. Kick Yourself again? Yep. Now Richard is some popular Jack laughing it up. I read every page except that one. When I saw the continuance of it I saw My name and still never got an interest to read it. I was doing some serious acid People. If I were to continue to night I would have to write  for a while to tell You how many acid trips came along after Richards Friend happened along and wound up living in My house. Acid just kept happening along. And I never realized what it is that was going on with My life. As I have told You I jumped on top of Sheila, and three years later walked away from Nancy in a daze. My head jerked back towards the dance floor uncontrollably. True love hurts when You are apart. I just hope that once a Fool always a Fool is the life I live. "Everything happens for a reason.", I live to see what's a around the corner. Watch Your Friends is the Moral of the story, have a wonderful, fantastic, unforgettable evening, Kelly.

One day at a time

   Yep, I drank four beers on Sunday, and sure enough now I want to get more. It aint happenin', that's how I started drinking before after a year and a half sober. I have something of importance to say here about the situation America is in after the trial of Mr. Zimmerman. In the first place I am not a racist, I am a Human Being that hates a piece of dirt that goes out and takes from People, be that Being a Black Crackhead or a White Junky My Friend. If You are actually going out in this World and robbing People You are deserving of what You receive in return. If Trayvon was beating this street wise young Mans head against the ground that in itself proves that the Kid was tough no doubt at all. "Good for nothing Kid!", is a saying I am sure is many years older than Myself. I as a small Child had the honor of seeing the difference between young and old, that is a true honor indeed, seeing how They felt. These Men I was Witness to was when I was three, 1963. They were all old enough to have lived in the old west as They were in Their seventies and eighties, and They were seeing a changing America right in front of Them, the '60s were upon Us. I know in My heart that if These Men were in charge We wouldn't have left the gates open allowing Millions of People to enter here, Who knows Who when it comes to an Enemy at the present hour in America. I predict rough times ahead if We don't stop the madness, common sense is all that is. I would hate to see a lot of the People here in America die needlessly, There's a lot of childish People here, but there is also a large number of good People here that don't deserve to be killed. Yes I will shoot You for doing so no doubt in the World Pal. That My Friend is what is known as a reason to take a life. I've told Cops that I'd run over the Guy shooting at Him. And Folks, stop traffic if You see a Cop getting His ass kicked. A Guy like Me will jump out and help Him out. My Great Uncle was a Highway Patrolman here in Wyoming, just before His retirement some Kid shot Him. The Man lived through it. We are living History in America, let's not fuck it up and lose the whole thing. God Bless America and all of it's great inhabitants that are precious lives amongst Us, and be Damned to those of You whom wish to wreck Her beautiful heart. Have a great life even if Ya have to fight for it, Kelly.

Dip Shit Award

   How in the Hell are Ya? Good I hope. I'm still here, and writing an amazing story for the eyes of the Reader. "A Mans Man.", is a saying I like. If You don't understand the meaning I will elaborate. The meaning is that if You are not a Man, a man is not going to recognize You as being a Man, period. This especially goes out to the youth of America today, I have seen enough Boys here that call Themselves Men when They actually don't have a clue to what a Man truly is. A Man is Mature first off, also He conducts Himself in a Gentlemanly manner at all times. Honest, Faithful, Respectable, Decent, and Normal sum up what it takes to be a Grown Man in the eyes of another. I still have a long way to go before I can consider Myself a Full Grown Adult, but I do know how to carry on an Adult conversation with a Woman. "A mature Adult.", is said quite a lot, look closer at the words, You are in actuality saying Mature twice, in reality You are really saying, I am a Mature Mature Person, for there are no immature Adults, Adult means a Mature Person, thought I'd give You an insight. Other then that I'm just babbling about how silly My life has been and how Crooks took advantage of a slow boy I had to put that in there to keep You on Your toes. C-Ya later, Kelly.

Pride, Honor, Dicipline, Courage and Manliness

   All of the above were displayed yesterday at the reunion. First I didn't really want to go, but told Myself because of Bill Rowley that I was going, courage was never in question. I stayed sober Friday night but drank four beers yesterday, I've conditioned Myself enough now to refrain from continuing further after saying that is enough, but I still wanted to got to the bar and finish what I'd started. I am in pain due to this reunion, Carol was a Cheerleader in school, You never heard anything about Her either, seems She was a little wild in Her youth, I really feel for Her too. A good looking teenager She was, She looks years beyond Her age. I cannot say enough about this scourge on Our Nation, Drugs! Their lethal if You're lucky, most of Us live with the past now. It was Honor to see the People I saw there this weekend. I can tell it touched My life and will be a growing experience for My life to continue forward with. You hear Them say, "You could feel Their eyes upon You.", I sure felt that way yesterday. It was right after Vern Meredith felt like a young Man, I had to copy Him I guess, cause I felt too as a young Man. I could really tell Vern was looking at it as "All Right!", but in reality We both felt like Kids in a Mans World. The difference being is that these feelings We felt are what average People consider Full Grown. The Full Grown feeling is so strong that when You see a Man, or a Woman, with this rare feeling You will understand exactly it is that I am telling You right here and now, and that's neat. I can sit hear and see such a difference in Myself just typing, it truly is an amazing World. Seriously! What in the Hell is actually going on in this Country today? My words on it can only be that if Your religion states that You are to kill others, You are in the wrong religion Sir. I have shown very little common sense in My life but I have more than others, even a Kid like Me knows something isn't right in Denmark Folks. It's a mistake to allow so much freedom of entry into Your land, especially if People hate You. We are living history today. Let's work towards not letting that history destroy Our tomorrows alright? And No Patriot would allow, or want, to disarm this Country when People are here to kill Your People. Home protection is key to the survival of America as a whole. Amen, and Good Night.

Ya Big Dummy!

   That's what Shorty Kranz used to call Me. Yep. Went and done what I said I was gonna do and wound up at the party for the class of '78. No Bill. Carol Saulters was the biggest surprise there. A real good looking Girl in high school, the first words out of Her mouth were that She'd done a lot of drugs, and I mean a lot She said. Carol is a Friend of Mine on Facebook, I never would have guessed this was Her. This hits Ya pretty hard seeing Her too, Drugs are a fuck up and nothing else. Irresponsiblity to the extreme, use Your head Kid and look at Us, We're fucked up People, Change the World and take things as a Grown Adult would and stop the madness. Real. Kelly McGill. Amen.

3450

   I want to start by addressing an issue in America at this present time. A Woman recently lost Her job over admitting to calling Somebody a name? ridiculous at the least! It isn't actually proper to go around calling each other "Dumbasses!, and "Lame brain's!", or even, "Nigger!", and even nicer things. Myself guilty of being an immature Kid at times too, fire Me. I know, a Smart Ass, just another thing that We do in life here a lot. "A little big for Your britches!", is what I thought of today and new I had to write that one. I aint seen that Rowley Kid around, hell I go walking down main on My evening hike. Just stop Me please! You Punk Ass Mother Fucker!!! All You gotta do is say the words and I will do My best to defeat You in battle My ex-friend You in reality are a screwed up individual to go along with Richard in the first place Bill You screwed up a Person, bizarre is what You and Richard devised to do to a life of a twenty year old Child. Kid's, when You look back at life years later You'll see things different no matter Who You are. It'll amaze You. Well enough blabbin' fer a spell, catch You on the phlip phlop, Kelly.

Some Dumbass name for a title, I guess?

   I just sit here and babble. I have no clue on a positive direction. And half the time I just write whatever comes ta mind. Bah! But seriously Folks, this is no joke or game, My real name is Kelly and I actually have had this screwy life, no shit. I had a pretty good feeling tonite , I thought about lifwe after killing this Fool Bill Rowley, He aint worth it, to ruin what's left of a life? No, He needs a serious ass whooping, You do not mess with another persons mind, if You believe in doing so You are in actuality showing just how immature You are. Speaking of Nancy, what a good Woman, I can tell by the look in Her eyes that She is what is known as a normal Adult. I tried My damndest to find Her, Austin is a city but not a large one, I always thought I'd see Her again. Fucked Me up! I put an add in the Austin paper years later it read, "Nancy where are You? I've come to My senses.", and I actually received a reply. She was looking for a Girl Kelly, if that aint a kick in the ass. I dicided to cause Myself some more pain so I went to the Austin library and look at the perasonals from 1982, the one that caught My eye stings, "Need Someone to dance His memory away.". I was so blind that I never thought of looking when it happened, now that one fucks with Me hard People, My heart aches so bad right now it is near unbareable. Many a Human would never live through what I have endured, They would have commited suicide, We all have Our pain, so I don't condem Them. Well, enough is enough so I'm out a here, Kelly.

Down for the count

  Man, I still have to write this crap, what a Son of a Bitch. Well I might as well do My best at it huh? $0.20 cents a foot should grab Somebodies attention, I found an add on Craigslist where a Fella needs a layout Carpenter in Idaho and Colorado, I sure hope He is still looking come next fall, I should have enough saved and with My next bonus I should be able to get the insurance and any license I need to sub-contract again, I've got My fingers crossed. That is an outrageous price, on average Your apartment buildings are around 8000 sq. ft., at $1,600. a floor a Guy can make a real profit. So now You may understand why it is that I don't really want to kill these Assholes, I really can make serious money out there in the World. Being sober and not spending foolishly on drugs I could set Myself up pretty good that way. The main thing is that You have to keep an eye on Yourself, and Me I have to keep both eyes open. I actually do better when I sub because it's My ass out there. Working by the hour I'm more into getting as much done as fast as I can, I've always been that way too. Well, Friday night is coming up faster then You know, Bill You got guts enough to show? You piece of dirt, I can't stand the wait, I came to Wyoming just hoping for a chance to run into You silly ass Boy. See Ya when Pal, sincerely Kelly John McGill.

Habitual Bitcher

      Man what a Clod! Yea that's Me. Unlucky at love, unlucky at life. Kids watch out Who You befriend, it can come back and bite Ya in the ass. Speaking of Asses, how are Ya Richard? Man I do hope that Punk shows up here in Wyoming for the class of '78s reunion, I will admit it will be hard to keep Myself from shooting Him in the face. I really am at the point that I don't give a flying fuck if You believe Me or not, I speak nothing but truth People. I can see it from Your point of view too, if Somebody told Me that Hugh Hefner contacted Them in such a manner I would say They are out of Their mind. But it is a fact, why else would Johnny Carson talk about "The Weirdo."? Man what a life I have lived, it's one reason I go on, just to see what comes along next, really. Hey, I've got a saying for You that I Myself coined, "Paybacks are a Bitch.", I don't remember if I talked about it before or not, but in actuality it goes, "Paybacks are a Mother Fucker.", I was dating Sheila at the time and cleaned it up for Her. Other then that I'm gonna let Ya go with that said, peace on Earth, Kelly.

Shitty day aye?

   Yup, it's a crappy day, just like every day in the life of a lost Fool, but Who really cares? I seem to write about the wind, because I sense nothing is going to happen. We'll see I say. My life? "What a strange trip it's been.", to quote the Grateful Dead, odd? Yea I'd say so. But as honest as a Man can be. A Man? "If You have to ask!", comes to mind. As I have said before I do not claim to be a Grown Adult in My life at the present, but I do know the truth about Grown maturity. I have over the years witnessed My Elders being Children, many times too. "Children of all ages.", "Some People just never grow up.", "That Man's a Kid.", "The Boy's a Man.", "You call Yourself a Man?", "Yes I am a Man.", "Girly.", "That old Girl grew.", "That's a Girl if I've ever seen one.", "Good for nothing Kid.", "You still want to be called one huh?", "I'm an old Man.". I could go on for quite a spell with these quotes but I have to save something for a later date, besides that I'm out a here. C-Ya later bye, Kelly.

Mr. Bill

    Dammit all to Hell anyways. I thought I'd look up Mr. Rowley on Facebook just to see what the Boy posts, He's been in the hospital, pity I didn't put Him there. It wouldn't make a bit of difference to Me though, if He was in a wheelchair I'd kick Him in the teeth, He deserves worse by far. Again I have to say how They were attacking My life in a manner that I will never be the same again, I admit My mind has cleared some but I will never have a mind at ease. I don't think like a natural Human Being, I can't elaborate on this because for one thing You would not understand, all I can really say is that They made Me a Spaced out Kid. That in itself is a killing offense to Me. Go to Wenachie? Ya never know. This is Bullshit Folks, I cry My heart out and They live it up at My expense. And yes I am serious about hurting this Guy even if He were crippled, I know that sounds extreme but He was My best Friend and stabbed Me in the back in a manner that is unforgivable. People say forgive and forget, well You don't have these People screwing with Your God damn life after They tried to totally destroy My mind. An eye for an eye People. Have a good day, Kelly.

hrumph!

   I do hope that You are enjoying this 4th of July today. I want to talk about how this character Bill Rowley truly is tonight. I had mentioned before how He and this Kid Ken Dodson would bring over these Girls, Jailbait My Friends is what They were. I am sure They all thought I was odd for having nothing to do with trying to seduce Them, but I wanted nothing to do with fifteen year olds. It went so far as Me meeting the Mom of the one I was being set up with. I was introduced as J.D. Harrington. J.D. was a few years younger then Myself but I knew Him. They had the Gaul to do such a thing, that just shows You how these People were. A true Friend would never put You into a position like that. Each of these Boys would pair off with a Girl and start making out while We sat at the table, I was also a bit shy so I never tried anything and soon They realized They had to quit. An Oddball? Ya I admit to it. It's just like the first time, and the last, that I saw Sheila, I did not want to be with a little Girl. I had already been through more then these Boys and wanted Women in My life not Children. The difference with Sheila is that I finally realized She was in love, but hey I screwed that up pretty good. I am a Fuck up I'll admit to that, but I still deserve justice. I have to leave now, this is one of those times when I just get so sick of it all I have to quit writing. Have a great summer Folks, Kelly.

July 12, 2013

   Remember that date, it may be My last day on Earth, for that is when I walk into one of the scheduled gatherings for the class of 1978. I don't really care for most of the Folks I went to school with, but I'm sure most of Them grew up a bit by now. Even though there are some I know I won't give a damn if I see Them again. The town of Riverton Wyoming back in the '70s was full of these little Assholes that thought it funny to Bully a Kid like Me, there just damn lucky I never got seriously pissed off. Bill Rowley can tell 'em how I showed Him a kick right out of school that was as fast as Bruce Lee Himself. You always hear how They made Him slow down for the camera, don't believe it, I have that speed, fast is fast. I wonder what's really going on out there when it comes to the Police, I have done everything I can think of to get Their attention, a failure for sure, but hey, that's how My life is. The White Tiger Shaolin Kung Fu teaches You to break coconuts with the palm of Your hand, there are seams along Your noggin, They will separate. I also have a pair of steel toed walking shoes, might just kick Him in the shin. What I really want to do is kick Him in the Knutts and when He bends over have Him meet an uppercut from Hell in the nose, nasty shit there. I do hope that piece of shit is reading this, because Bill You're a Punk and I am going to teach You an important lesson, lesson being You don't fuck Somebodies life up Pal. I should just walk up to Rick Kranz and tell Him how Bill talks about His Wife Janice, Janice has a big nose but She's still a Human Bill she deserves more respect then You give Her, Rick He tells Everybody She's ugly, now that's a damn good way to get You butt kicked hard Son. Jon Pierson told Me about that, My words were something like, 'Janice is a nice Person.', fact. Boy You have to watch what Ya say in this World, People get killed for less. Other then that, You Folks have a great 4th of July, I'll be somewhere in the Mountains this weekend, looking for new fishing spots, Kelly.