still tryin'

  Well? How on Earth does a Guy bring down the Giants? If it were You as I continually say You'd want justice as well. I guess this is all for not. So I'll go out with class and just say a few things that may just enlighten a few Folks Today. "Needs a Kid.", "Boy's want.", "I'm not a naughty Boy.", "Kiddie shit.", "A wet behind the ears Girl.", "That Man's a Kid.", "That Man's just a Kid.", "That old Gentleman grew.", "The first thing You do is admit to it.", "Men will make You mature.", "You're too young to be called a Man.", and My favorite, one a Gal said in Elko Nevada once, "I am a Lady! I am a Fucking Lady!", some People lie to Themselves all the time. Have a good one, Kelly.

Terrible here

   You really want to here how bad it is? I can actually count how many Lovers I had and it is absurd. For a fact there have been around twenty, no shit. I was'nt really doing all that bad, for Me, in the early eighties, but I went screwy a little after the reality of what happened between Nancy and Myself hit Me. "Stubborn Human pride.", is a main factor. There are times when I just tell Myself that I've been alone at night before, another lonely night won't hurt, lying to Myself I know. I take a good hard look at Myself when I tell You this about My life believe Me. I for one have made a lot of mistakes in My life and I am sure as Hell paying for them. The saddest thing about this whole mess is that I should'nt be alone, that's fucked up. Ya know? I was a bitter Son of a Bitch before I realized what Richard Pattison and Bill Rowley did to My sorry existance, but now I am really hate what is known as My life. I sure as Hell hope this crap is worth it. You Folks enjoy Your weekend, Kelly.

Happy Holidays to You

   I hope the old fat Man brought You what You wanted, or at least You are sitting with loved ones Today. I have something to say about My old Friends. If They were in fact Friends I too would be living the rich life. If a Friend of Mine was set up in such a manner I would most definitely tell Them. I would not set this Person up with enough acid to mess up Their mind and then hand Them this Playboy, and if it told You something and I Myself had read it I would say something to You about it. I would not try to make You mad enough to fight and then take it and make My own life wealthy and say fuck that Guy. Why? Because normal Men and Women don't do such things. And Yes, I can call Myself normal in some aspects of normality. I am not Gay, a Child molester, a Rapist nor a Murderer. Being Love struck is more normal then You may think. I have heard it said before where that when Somebody loses a true love They don't really want Anybody else, foolish yes, but You only have eyes for Her. "It's enough to drive a Man insane.", or "It sours some People.", might make some sense to You, it means something to Me. "Loneliness will drive You insane.", but I have a strong mind, if not I would have totally lost it years ago. Have a great life folks, Kelly.

I'm back

  I have'nt been here for a few days, it sure is nice to be back to work. I do believe this is one of the best Crews I have been on too. It's all new to Me out there, I have done metal studs before but never built a whole house out of them. I have been saying for years that the new wave of construction is going to be metal and concrete. It makes sense the way They say We're tearing down the forests faster than they can regrow. It sure is a lot slower too, it took six Journeymen eight hours to build three walls, I'd fire the whole crew if it were wood. With that said I will leave You by saying Merry Christmas. I hope You enjoy You're day and receive great things. Kelly.

7000 page veiws

   18 away from 7000, Dang! I have a couple words for You here, "Justifiable homicide.", and that is how I feel about this Bill Rowley and Richard Pattison. I know Myself pretty well and know it would be easy for Me to do so after what They have done to My life too. I have to say though that I will not go out of My way to do anything, even though I went to Santa Monica to take Richard if I found Him. Speaking of that, I knew I would'nt find Him. In the first place the odds of running into Him in the L.A. area walking the streets are pretty high. You People need to understand something here, They did screw with My life and They still are Today. I know for a fact that They set it up so I'd do the acid and listen to the music. L.S.D. is a mind altering drug, and that is exactly what Their plot was, to alter My thinking. I cannot say enough how angry this in itself makes Me, and now They are messing with Me on T.V.? Goddam it Man!!! That is fucked up, Kelly.

It's a cruel World

   You know? My life has sucked, seriously. I really don't go around bitching about it to People, except here, because Nobody wants to hear it. But I am at this point in My life that I want to do something about it. I have a plan, and if it goes right I should be able to retire with a decent life. It is something to reach the age of fifty three and see how fast life passes by. I have worked as a Carpenter since '80 and have put nothing away. I have no retirement set up. And I ache all over these days. I really don't care to continue to bust My ass until I am in My sixties, but I know I could if I had to. I am in pretty good shape even though I need to lose around sixty pounds, I walk every night and carpentry is'nt an easy living. I am confident that what I am working on is going to take My life in another direction, I just have to make it work for Me. I really do wish these Bastards had left Me alone in My life. If I had the brain I once had I would have had a better life I know this for sure. I would not be known as a spaced out Kid for one thing. But I understand that it is something that I have to live with. At least I aint smokin' any of that pot crap, that really made Me bad off. One reason I stopped is because it made Me feel like a Kid, really. That's a matter of pride, I might not have much but I do have some. I keep telling Myself that if Nancy was here My pride would be intact and People would be surprised at the Man standing beside Her. As I have said before, I do know the difference between a young Man and a Full Grown Adult. I leave You with this said. I will be back, Kelly.

This done got old

   Yea that's for damn sure, this stuff was old two years ago, but what else can I do? I want these little Kids in the worst way. All I was was a special kind of Human Being to be honest. I dislike even saying things like that, but I have to face up to what I really am. I mean Anybody that would stand there and stare at Sheila and then run back into the room and jump on top of Her, stand there and stare at Nancy and then walk away confused while She cries, along with the numerous times in My past that I have done dumb things, is a retarded Person. People this hurts like Hell, My eyes are watering pretty good here. They are allowed to mess with My life on Television? This seems unreal, but I have seen enough to know for a fact They are doing so. As I said I told Jon Pierson to tell Them to say 'Eeeaah!' and They did. Remember Tyler Perry's show saying "Grandpa Kelly says Eeeaah!"? These People are not normal in the eyes of a Man and that is a fact. "The kind of Girl that makes You feel like a Man.", I've run into a few. I have said it before and I say it here again, I am not known as a Full Grown Man, but I do know the difference between Grown and Children. And now I'm gonna say something in the hopes of pissing some Jerk off that wants to change America and Our beliefs, Merry Christmas. With that said good night, Kelly.

Leave My life alone!

   I had to get on the computer and say something just because of a commercial I just saw, "The Nut Job.", is a brand new movie coming out. I know I can not prove that Richard Pattison is behind this, He's too smart to put His name on anything , but I know He is doing this. "Richard Pattison, Killeen Texas."? "Kelly! Kelly! Kelly!, Ah I wanted the Magilla Gorilla!"? This shit was old a long time ago Folks. I really hate the existence known as My life here, I have attempted suicide as I say. This is the kind of crap that could push a Guy over the edge, seriously. "A Man is a Man.", and thid child named Richard is getting a big kick out of what He does and what He has done. I know He feels He is untouchable, but Richard, I'd touch You Son if I see You again, and I am not speaking of anything nice either. I swear if this continues I will kill one of these People for a fact. TAKE THESE MOTHER FUCKERS DOWN NOW!!! You People reading this do not understand what I say when I tell You how mad I am right now writing this, a murder may very possibly be committed. No Fucking Shit, Kelly John McGill.

Damn My luck

   I am sure a lot of You out there really don't care much for what I have to say, but I can't help but do what ever it takes to bring these Boys down. I am sick of doing this but as I have said I can't just up and quit. I am nearing 7000 page views now, so at least I am being read. Even at that I wonder if it's even worth it. I gotta go, sometimes this is so damn depressing it takes it's toll on a Guy.

Hello again

   Yep, I'm still here. Waitin' for Monday to start the job. It is going to be a good one for sure, I have worked for George before and He is the easiest going Man I have been around. And when I say Man I mean it, I am not one to use the word lightly. I have been around a lot of Today's youth that believe They are Grown, I am sure a lot of You understand when I say this too. I used the words here before, "Face up to the facts of life.", and I face the fact everyday. "If You're not honest You aint shit.", I believe I wrote a while back, those words were told to Me by a motorcycle Cop when I told Him I'd pay the ticket I had left unpaid. I paid it on the way home that day. People cry about the Police, I Myself have seen some Assholes wearing the uniform too. But one in particular I want to talk about. I used to let My tickets go until I wound up in Jail. I was pulled over another time by a motorcycle Cop and He arrested Me. He had to call another Officer to transport Me to Jail though. This Lady Officer was the nicest GAl You'd ever meet. She took Me all the way downtown, went in with Me and watched Me pay My fine, and then gave Me a ride back to My car. That My Friends is a Woman I'd back up. So see, not all those Cops are Pricks. C-Ya later,Kelly.

Kelly?

  Yep, I even wonder about Myself. I do believe I have struck a nerve with this stuff, It was harder then Hell to log in tonight. I feel kind of sorry for Hugh the way I have been ragging on Him. But You know? I don't think He is all that nice of a Person. In the first place He did tell Mylie Cyrus when She was fifteen She could pose nude for Him. If You told one of My Sisters that Mom would have went for blood, and Dad might have wound up in Prison. Life was'nt all that easy for Me, and Mom happened to be P.T.A. President for years. All of the Teachers knew Her well along with the Principal. She went to battle for the Girls a few times. Me? I knew to stay out of trouble with Her around. It says something about Billy Ray Cyrus Ya know, if You told My Daughter that We'd have problems. Any Man would be pissed off, let alone His Wife. That just goes to show You how society has become. Like this duck dynasty Fella getting thrown off of His own show for saying how He feels about Gays. Remember this Folks, it's Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve. Or, Silly Faggot, Dicks are for Chicks. This Country is becoming more and more immoral everyday. Time for a change, Kelly.

I will not be held down

   I mentioned the fact that I quit My job, So what You might say, well I finally found another, again, so what? I used to work for George when I was here last, this time it's a job on a custom home for the owners son I had been bugging Him about working on. The best thing about it is that They have the contract on the Casino enlargement here too. It's about damn time My luck turned, at least in the employment area. It's tough as Hell around here in the winter to find a job so I sure feel lucky. You know? I found out I was being under paid where I was after looking for work recently. The state pay for Carpenters is $20. an hour, I was getting $15. We'll see what Garth pays Me here. That is about all I wanted to say, no sense in griping about these Fuck Ups that screw with Me and bringing Myself down right? I sure do hope that You Folks have a great Christmas. Sincerely, Kelly McGill.

At least I'm honest

   "Boy's will be Boy's.", is the way You explain Youth. Yes I was a Child, and still am in some ways. I was even the Kid that looked at My Sisters through holes in the roof. My Buddy Curt Burns from across the street and Me put models together in the attic, and no We did not sniff the glue. He was infatuated by My older Sister Kay and wanted to get a look, so We did. All in innocence.  Hell, My Dad never taught Me shit or that would have never happened I'm sure. He did tell Me a few things though, like respect Your Elders and never start a fight but always finish them. Other then that He really never told Me much. I leaned most of what I know from watching. Things like, "I'll wipe that smile off Your face.", and, "Don't smile when You say that." are two sayings I remember. Another one is, "I demand respect!", plus, "Respect is earned.". I do not have any respect for this Richard Pattison and His Pal Bill Rowley, They do not deserve any. As a matter of fact I don't respect Anybody that screws with a retarded Person. Kelly.

Honesty does'nt pay

   It seems to Me that because I am an honest Person I lose here. Maybe I should be a Scoundrel and be like Richard? I bet I'd win then. I really cannot understand why these People have not been taken down for what it is that They do to My life on television. I know, "Money talks and Bullshit walks.". Well I don't believe in allowing such an Ass as Richard to win. He among His Pals need to be in Jail and that is a fact of life. Hell Folks, I'm just a slow Kid that They thought it would be fun to screw with.

For My benefit

   The only reason I am typing right now is to cover My ass. Me and My big mouth have gave away patents before, so I am talking about an idea of Mine. Paint the color of concrete , both new and old. If You make a mistake or if You have a spill on concrete You paint over it. Mainly this is for Carpenters, when You pop a line and need to erase it an easy way to do so is to paint it, except usually it is in grey. I have mentioned this to People, one in particular is here in Riverton, Mike Rofskowski. I am claiming this as a poor Man's Patent. I know if You can prove the idea is Yours They will back You up and take it away from the Thief.

Persistance

   I really hate the way this Country is turning out to be. To find a job You have to be perfect in the eyes of most here. I like it the way I've always known it, and the way it should be. I might have finally found a job, even though it may only last for two or three months. I would much rather walk up to a Man on a jobsite and talk to Him than email Him an application on the computer. When You can talk to Him in person He knows what kind of a Person You are, not what Your last Employer tells Him. It does'nt matter if You've got a record, as long as You can make Him understand that You do know what the Hell You are doing You'll get the job. I still have to wait though, He just started a remodel job around the corner from Here and wants to get His crew going in the right direction before hiring Anyone. Being a local made Him interested, I know the city Inspector pretty good here. Cross Your fingers and hope I get the job right? C-Ya later, Kelly.

Still trying

   I really cannot believe that Somebody out there has not at least questioned this Pattison Kid. I tell no lies People. I am serious when I say I am known as a slow Person, and You had better believe Richard and Bill Rowley knew that for a fact. They are allowed to mess with My life on T.V.? Good Grief what is this Land becoming. Kids now days just think everything is humorous, that is the main reason I say a lot of the things I say here. I just hope to Hell some of Them decide to take a Grown look at the World.

Me?

   Do You want to know how I handle the way People are? I was working for the same People I just quit recently. I asked the Fella in charge something and when I started to leave the window I was talking through I heard Him say, "That's the Stupid Hand.". This bothered Me for a few days, until Me and another Hand were working on a roof and I saw Louis's face come over the edge of the roof. I jumped towards Him and stopped Myself in time from kicking Him in the face and sending Him back down the ladder. I did though in fact keep from hurting this Person. I tell You straight when I say that I must have covered six feet when I jumped. The whole aire about Us changed. I never showed up for work the next day because I knew I would go off on Him too. It says something about My abilities as a Carpenter though, I went back to work for this company years later. I know without being told that this same Person is a main reason I can't find a job in Riverton Wyoming at this time, there is work but it's for People that know Louis. I am sure He is bad mouthing Me. The applications I have filled out even in Cheyenne have to have this Guy for a reference, bad choice I'd say. What You have here is a Person that is usually made the Foreman on framing crews due to the fact that I bust My sorry ass and know what it is that it takes to et the job done. I can screw up sure, but I am a master Carpenter Folks. It looks to Me that I am going to have to go somewhere else to find a job. Oh well right. Have a great day Folks, Kelly.

Seriously

   I have one thing to say Today. When a Guy lives alone People wonder about His sorry ass, and it seems that He is helpless when trying to achieve justice in My case. "A Creep.", They may call Him, not here. A 'Creep.' in my opinion is some Jerk that Rapes and Molests, not a broken hearted Fool such as Myself. If I had enough money to afford to live properly I would not be alone. I can still go out, in the Cities, and be paid attention to by the opposite sex. You need to understand, My pride gets in the way of My happiness. I am as blind as a Fool can be too. Kelly McGill deserves a chance Folks, and I am not pulling My own chain either.

"Can Ya blame a Guy?"

   I have to try, and that is all there is to it. I rag on Hugh Hefner to the point of absurdity, I complain that nothing is being done about Richard Pattison with no hope in sight, and I refuse to end a life that is so miserable I can say without a doubt that most People on Earth would kill Themselves. But still I persist. "What does a Man feel like anyhow?" = "Pretty damn good!", "What kind of a Man are You?" = "A good one!", "When did You grow up?", "We all have to grow up sometime.", there are many different things to say and that is just a few. "Why do You ask?", and "If You need to ask nobody's going to tell You.", are a couple more. You see, I am a simple Bastard that knows what it mean to see through the Youth on this Planet, and Kids? If We don't straighten it out soon I feel We'll lose a battle in this Land that We really are'nt ready for. When I say this I am serious about what is really going on in America and the World around Us. I see a War coming to Our Land and We had better Goddamn face up to it. Not only do We have People crying Racist everytime You turn around, We are being infiltrated by Enemies from around the World. World War III? I am at the point that I cannot see anything except that conclusion, and many of You don't realize the truth. I for one am doing some real growing up in My life, I will not be a Drunkard again and it has been some time now since I last smoked any Pot. I hope it sinks in what it is that I am saying here tonight, We do not want to see millions of People ran over and left laying in the streets. God Bless You and have an insight to what lay before Us. Sincerely, Kelly McGill.

Ethics

   I have to admit I am not the greatest Person on Earth, but I am not a back stabber. I have a little story to tell about this Bill Rowley Character. I needed a place to stay for a few weeks and stayed at the apartment that Him and Ken Dodson shared. It takes a pure piece of shit to do what They did. They were infested with Crabs there, Yea I too came up having Them also. They had the nerve to just let Someone use Their bathtub and not even tell Him that They were there. That in My opinion is just mean. This Kid Bill Rowley? What a piece of work, back stabbing at it's best is when He just goes along with His Pal Richard and sets it up so I look like I am buying acid just for the enjoyment of doing it. Yes, I bought the crap, but I never went looking for the junk it came directly to Me. God Damn the whole lot of Them! These People deserve to be in Jail. Kelly.

Screwy Kid

   Yep, I am a screwy Kid. "Nice Guys finish last, so no more Mister nice Guy.", Anybody that knew Me when I was in school would tell You that I was easy to get along with, but Today I hate everything about My sorry life. "Misery enjoys company.", I agree, I want to make Richard and Bill the most miserable People on Earth. If I could put these two in Prison I would rejoice. "Forgive and forget.", not when it comes to the crime They committed. I cannot stay real mad about if They stole from Me, but doing what They did to My life is unforgivable. "A string of broken hearts.", should say something about Boys like Me. I never had a chance when it comes down to it. I was set up with acid and it fucked My life up bad. This Character Richard cam up with an idea to give Me two ounces of dried 'shrooms once. I just happened to have two weeks off due to a lack of work and not having any sense to begin with spent the whole time frying some more. I admit to My short comings, I am not the sharpest tool in the shed. Dino Martinez told Me a few years back that He was curled up in a corner scared of the Demons He was seeing while doing 'shrooms, I saw the exact same thing during those two weeks. I said for a long time after that period that I was really spun out because of that too. This is really the only time that I can say that Richard Pattison actually gave Me any harmful drugs, He was sure to be out of the picture the other times. Enough said for one day, I have to go.

Well?

   Is Anybody even going to question these People? I am serious about wanting to just walk up and kill one of these People.

Bonehead

   You want to know how I was before I was set up with all this L.S.D.? I was the easiest Guy You could find to get along with. It changed My life and that is a fact. Now I am an easy Person to anger. How sad can a Guy be? I was hating life and having to drive from Killeen to Hutto everyday. It was winter time in central Texas, not too cold as far as frigid temps. go, but the water running through My pipes at the trailer was so cold My head hurt after washing My hair. I went without bathing for a while because I did'nt really give a shit what People thought of Me. I stayed downwind from Them because I literally smelled like shit. That is about as sad as it can get. I never even thought about Whore bathing either. I did'nt have gas or lights for over a year there. I was always moving around Texas and Louisiana for work, so when They turned everything off I could'nt care less. You have to understand I was a miserable drunkard at the time. Depression? Just a little. Another thing that sucked was when I finished a Job I was usually caught up with just about everything. Then I would have to wait for two to three months for the next one to start. That was the reason I finally started driving a cab there. $50. a day was My average pay doing that, and I was one of the Drivers that could stay busy. You Folks out there that don't do the construction work, Hey, places like Texas are really getting run over. It is not a game. I left Texas for a few reasons, the main one being I was arrested for suspicion of D.U.I. and refused the test there for losing My license and job. I was buzzing more then I should have, but I had just drove over sixty miles without a drop. I made the mistake of getting pissed at some Driver and passed Them to get pulled over just a few blocks from the house. That will never be a problem for Me again though, a beer sounded good tonight when watching a western where They were drinking, I am through forever and I know it. Sure if I hit the lottery I would buy a bottle of champaine and finish it by Myself, but other then that I stay sober. I gotta go, Kelly.

Yea Yea Yea

   I am wondering about the World Today, Crooks run it.

Change of tactics

   Today I started something new, I started following some Churches and Human rights advocates. When I started following Police entirely My Followers increased. I have to stop following many of the People I am currently following to do so. So I stopped looking at all of the Police not in America to start with. I follow Cops, the F.B.I and Anybody I can think of to get justice. I really do hope this works because I hate My life, and I tell Myself that daily too. I have a will to live that has to be stronger than many, a lot of People would have killed Themselves by now. I'll hang in there for now though because I really do want to see what tomorrow brings. Kelly.

$1.60

   A buck sixty? That is what I paid Today when I never even had to do so. A lot of You out there might have blown it off, not Me because I am an honest person. I was at the local library and had some prints made of a download. I walked out and forgot to pay Them $.20 a page. When I went back to scan them and email them I remembered and paid Them what I owed. The Librarian said She had'nt even noticed. That's just Me. So when I say that Richard Pattison and Bill Rowley are guilty of the fraud They have committed I am to be believed. "Richard Pattison! Killeen Texas!" and "Kelly! Kelly! Kelly! Ah I wanted the MaGilla Gorilla!" pisses Me off Folks. I really doubt if I would be able to control Myself and not kill these People. I am disgusted with the way I have to write and write like this to even get Somebodies attention on this matter, bullshit!

Dammit!

   I am here writing with no where else to turn. I am a mess and it was done to Me. But it seems No one even cares. Oh Well, I am sure They say. He's just a dumbass Kid, so why worry? Well I care Dammit!

6223 page views

   At least I am getting People to read about My sorry trials in life. Still hoping to find a job, Nobody calls You back after You are honest and tell Them You have a record. Hey, I did'nt rape kill or molest a Child, I am just another unlucky Bastard on the face of the Earth that did something called drugs. Get rid of them Folks, they are no good and will cause You more problems than they are worth. A year in Jail is a year out of Your life, I know from experience. I threw some Meth away that I found in Reno. I also threw some away in Round Rock Texas once. I was doing the Job by Dell and had moved out of the house I built under a tree next to it. I was staying in Taylor with a Fella that was giving Me the crap. I did  a line and I knew right away that that crap was going to drive Me totally insane. I ripped the baggie open and dumped it on the ground. Then I moved out of Mike's house. Seriously Kids, that stuff is no good. Get a grip on Yourselves and Grow the fuck up. I have'nt touched any of that shit for years now, and won't. As far as drinking goes, I don't even have the urge anymore. Thank You God. Have a great life and stay away from the crap, Kelly McGill.

Sad Sack

   You really want to know what sucks in My life? Since 1982 I have been a miserable Bastard that cannot get a Woman named Nancy out of My head. Thirty plus years is hard for even Me to grasp. It seems so unreal, until You feel the pain. I see Her standing there with tears in Her eyes with a look on Her face asking Me why I can't say anything. Pain is a way of life for Me. I do understand that Everybody on Earth has some sort of heartache happen in Their life, but I know for sure that the pain I feel is rare. You'll have to see it from My view to completely understand. Every morning when I awake I see Her, obsession? No true love. "When You love Someone You think of Them.", is the truth. I attempted suicide once before, hung Myself with My shirt on the cell bars until I started to strangle. I even went to the hardest place in Tarrant county jail because of My thoughts and actions. I had made a knife out of a plastic spoon handle and had it to My jugular when a Co looked in and saw Me. They take You way down under ground and put this silly one piece suit on You. That is where They take the Crazies and the real hard asses too. First time in My life I found out what pepper spray was about, They mased some Asshole down the row from Me, Everybody gets a whiff of the stuff. Like I say I have felt like killing this Fool since the fifth grade because of the way My life has been. A few times a week I tell Myself that it's not worth going on for. I look at Myself and see the real Me Folks and I know I am worthy of a better life. I am at the mercy of the officials in America, please take these Boys down. Sincerely, Kelly McGill.

I am here for real

   "Think like a Man.", I wonder if this Kid Pattison is behind that one. If You are Richard I have to say something about it, You do not think like a Man if You are messing with My life Son. I know You better than You think. We were at the rock quarry in North Austin once. It was near where I lived. These two Teenage Girls walk up and Richard strips down. Needless to say I was not a Man. I looked at Him and thought He was strange, but a Man would have kicked His ass for Him. Richard thinks He is a proper Adult I can tell, wrong My Friend. As I have said a few times before I do not actually like talking about this Person, I have a hatred boil up inside of Me when I think of Him. I know Myself pretty good and I can say for sure the way He angers Me I would'nt hesitate to kick Him in the crotch and catch Him with an uppercut into the nose for doing what He has done to My life. And I really cannot understand why it is that He is getting away with screwing with My life. Good God, I can't even get Hefner to call the Law on Me. Kelly McGill here saying goodnight.

Bullroar!

   Yes I feel it is a bunch of crap that I have to do this in order to bring down an Ass. Richard Pattison is nothing more than a Hotshot Kid. Liars do not deserve to win Folks. I am as honest as a Fella can be. I may have a felony for drug use, but I do not lie. These People did what They did to My life. And Today They screw with Me? Anger is real! "Boy's will be Boy's." is not an excuse.

Help!

   That is what I seek here, help. I understand I may never achieve it, People just don't give a shit in America it seems. "Just smile about it.", Bullshit, I really hate a Person that smirks about My demise, I have a saying of My own, 'You wonder why They kill Americans.', think about it.

Well?

   Man, I cannot believe the crap that goes on in America Today. "Moonshiners" for one. You have this Guy Tickle that drives around drunk on this show and Nobody says anything. Hell these Guys are making it rich and committing crimes on National television. Good Gravy! And a poor Fella like Me wants justice and gets none, Bullshit! What have We become? Most of Today's People just look at it as a joke, Grown Up's don't find it amusing Folks. I am outraged at the They this Land is turning. We are on the verge of a very serious War here Folks, and don't think it's just going to blow over either. People are coming into America on a daily basis, and They are here to kill. "Warista", is Spanish for Warrior. I have b had this word said as I walk by twice on apartment jobs, once in Texas another time in Louisiana. And again in Nevada while in a restaurant, this time it was a Child with It's Family. I told You about walking into the F.B.I. office in Austin Texas and leaving a letter. As I say, when I left there I had two separate feelings, one was the feeling of a Grown Man, the other was a Patriotic feeling. I Myself do not believe that this Obama Fella is an American either. He speaks nice and clean, but I have known Pot runners straight out of Mexico that spoke such perfect English that all of U s there said after They left that it was too perfect, too practised. I for one see that Our future holds some ugly times, unless We do something soon. Kelly.

Still tryin'

   "The Pot calling the Kettle black.", is a good saying. It has a good lesson to it. "Hopelessly in love.", is another one. Then You have, "It does'nt make Me feel much like a Man.". Others are, "That old Girl grew.", or, "Tell 'em to go to Hell.", They all have a meaning to them. The one I like is, "God damn love.". I'll keep it short and sweet Today, You Folks have a great day, Kelly.

A lost soul

   Over six thousand page views and almost three years in the making. In March it will be three years that I have been doing this, that might just get it done. I doubt it though. It just seems that I write and write to no avail. Dammit! Well maybe I found a job at least. I hope to Hell all My work paid off today trying to get all the proper paper work into Cheyenne. $25. an hour starting pay is what I'm talking about. With cash like that I could afford to live a little. It's amazing how little You spend when You don't drink Yourself blind, and I never will again. That is one thing I am confident about too. Like I said keep Your eyes open for the Truckers hideaway boot soon. I think I got it figured out. I plan on at first setting up at gun shows and seeing how that works. First off I have to have a boot made especially for People to see, then I can go forward. I tried My damndest to get a boot maker to go into business with Us, I had a couple of bites but that was all. Without money up front You're out a luck. So I'll try it by having one custom made and go from there. Wish Me luck, cause with My luck I'll sure as Hell need all I can get. C-Ya later, Kelly.

Dang it anyhow!

   I know You Folks look at Me as if I am absolutely knutts to bother Hugh Hefner, but I hate how these People can screw with a Guy like Me and get away with it, nonsense! There are a lot of People involved with this crime, and I don't even know most of Their last names. Willy worked with Us and hung out at the apartment. He finally wound up with Jeanie. Franny lived at Reagon Hill apartments, as did Roy Whom Kevin and Scott got the Black Molly from that weekend. Then there was Billy Hanson, He was in a band with People at Reagon Hills. Richard soon had Him set up at My apartment, this Kid is a bad ass on percussion. I said it before with Billy along We really had a chance. Richard is an exceptional Guitarist, and Bill Rowley can play too. I had the Bass set up when They made it to Texas and had already figured out a few things. Songs were an issue though. I would'nt give a plug nickel for anything They had written then. It took Me until '83 before I really wrote anything worth salt. 'Some People' I mentioned before, it is about the Marines getting killed in Beruit. I swear to God I was going into the Marines if We went to War. It starts out, 'Where You gonna run? Where You gonna hide?', it really fits in with Today's problems when I listen to it now. But it all seems for not, Nobody wants to see a Fool succeed I feel. I don't know if You can go to the Library of Congress and ask to hear My music, You might like it I don't know. Just ask for Bad Elvis, He's copyrighted under that name. "A bad Elvis impersonation" kicked My ass, I laughed pretty hard when I thought of that name for a group. My other choice would be The Wayward Boys, it might still go on the road. Have a good one Folks, Kelly.

Hell!

  Yes My life is a Son of a Bitch! I am an innocent turd at the age of fifty three. I really still clam up around Ladies. Even though, every now and again I can carry on an Adult conversation with a Woman, I still freeze most of the times. Coward anyhow. I have to be honest, I may not be insane, but there is definitely serious problems going on here, and They were created. My name is Kelly McGill and I tell You the story of My life. It is known as a life in which many People would have ended years ago I have no doubt about that. But I continue with this existence because of My will to see the future and what it holds. I know in My heart that Tomorrow holds a brighter view then the one I have Today. I sincerely thank those of You that read this, and I really hope some of the things I say have an impact on lives out there. I play no Kids game here Folks, drugs are a disgrace and should be destroyed for sure. I see things different than any Human on Earth, I cannot explain what I actually see in My mind but I can at least say that My thoughts are jumbled. Today I see things clearer than I did in the eighties, so I can say that time heals. But irreversible brain damage is not a joke. People, don't screw up Your life. Sincerely, Kelly McGill. Thank You.

America the beautiful

   I hate to say it but We are looking at a War on Our soil. When I see this Obama character doing what He does I see it clear. I know most of the crap You see is unlikely the real story, but when I see Him saluting like Hitler He really needs to go. I am not a white supremist, just a concerned Citizen. I see picture of His followers, Kids this is the wrong Person to believe in. I saw the one where He bows down to foreign leaders too, it shows weakness in Our leadership. They keep talking about gun control, knock it off I say. Here in Wyoming the state passed a law stating any federal agents try that here and They go to jail. Now this Obama wants to raise the debt ceiling and eliminate the term limit for the President. He admitted to being a Radical before He was elected, and now He is proving it. I do not believe that He is an American at all, in the first place everything He seems to do is against America. I wrote about how They want to cleanse America, that in itself may be the reasoning for leaving this Person in office. The more He pisses People off the closer We are to the War They want. As far as racist, "The Bro must go!", is a statement from a Black Man. I say  Their whole plan is to allow People to enter America and get Us mad enough to fight. It's getting closer everyday Folks. Kelly.

Hell on wheels

   Yep, Hell on wheels. That about explains the simple life of Kelly McGill. A roller coaster ride that's for damn sure. One thing after another. Hell, I can't even fall in love right. What a bitch. Sex, Drugs and Rock and Roll, only without the loving part. Sociably unacceptable as Bill Rowley always went around saying. He also said "It's only Rock and Roll but I like it.", quaint. Whatever in the Hell quaint means. Have You noticed how a lot of commercials You see either have a Musician, or else a Guitar around Someone? Coincidence? I doubt that. I believe this Pattison Kid is involved with commercials and does it on purpose. That may be how Brian Foley got Himself into a Taco Bell commercial. This one is around four years old now. It is one about the fiery tacos. At the beginning this Fellow gets His face right up close to the camera. A clean cut, nice looking Guy. At the end He is hit with the spray of a fire extinguisher. I know for a fact that the second Fella is Brian. The first one may have been after He was cleaned up. Brian never really gave a damn about His appearance all that much. If You shaved His little goattee off and fixed His hair that might just be Him at the beginning. It is definitely Him in the latter part of the commercial. Richard is the kind of Person that would come up with something like that. Well at least You can look at it and see what a fruitcake looks like, like I said Brian was in the University of Texas's newspaper for crawling into a tree on campus naked. This is a dear Friend of Richard Pattison's too.  I will end with saying this last thing, God bless Us all, for I feel We are in deep shit because of the way things are being run, Amen.

5880 pageveiws

   Well at least I am getting Someone to read about My sorry life, I really doubt if it will do any good, but I just can't quit. These People I speak of really think They're smart. It really does'nt take all that much smarts to out smart a retarded Kid though. These People are nothing more than Users Folks. If I had something They were My Pals, but once They had a chance to screw Me? I seriously don't like talking about this, but God Dammit I have too. I hate My life is what I say to Myself daily, and I mean it too. I have read where John Wayne even said, "Life's tough, and even tougher when You're stupid.", Damn! We have the nicest People in America. I realize I am more than likely just seeing People read My silly ass pages. I know I'll never bring down some rich Bastard in the real World. Those are the breaks right? I tell You no lie when I say that I hope these People meet Their demise, and soon. Kelly.

Holding on

   I still can't get an even break. Holy crap! I am the Victim here, not a Vilian. These People deliberately set Me up with enough acid to screw My life up and then get away with it? I am sure that the Playboy was telling Me to show back up at the Marriott that night and be straight. These little fuckers made damn sure I was frying good before I was even given the Playboy. That in itself is a crime. As I say, They gave Me that Magazine after They had Me buzzing. People always say, "If I had it to do all over again.", I tell You here and now there is no way I would be taking any drugs, really. Drugs are a dangerous plight on the World. If You think You are cool to do these things You are nothing more than a Child. Hell, I was an innocent Teenager when I was set up with acid the first time. Like I said before I had never done any before, nor had I any thoughts of doing any. These People knew I was a slow Kid and used Me for Their gain. And now They are kicking back with wealth in Their pockets and I suffer through life? Good God! These People deserve nothing less than a Prison sentence. I can hear this Bill Rowley saying, "We were'nt even there!", I can't prove it but Richard Pattison is the brains behind this and Bill Rowley is the boot licker that does His bidding for Him. I want justice more than any of You probably comprehend. As I say, when I see how They screw with My life on the Television and in Movie's, which is odd in the first place, I get furious People. These Two deserve a bullet and nothing less. Kelly!

One question

   I have a question, why do certain People get away with crimes while other pay for Their wrong doings? Even Gay People have more rights it seems then a Fool like Me, and that is wrong. There are immoral things going on and People accept it as normal. That in itself is absurd. In today's society Kids talk about Their love lives, I learned that it is disrespectful to a Gal to talk about Her sex life, but hey, Kids don't give a rats ass today. I know not all Kids in America are these little Bastards that think They are something special, You do see responsible ones every now and again. I have one thing to say about what these Boy's did to My life before I am through today, what Richard Pattison and Bill Rowley did to My life is a killing offence, and that is known as a fact of life. Kelly.