My God!

   You are actually going to allow these People to mess My life up and then screw with it as if it is a joke? I want justice so bad I could literally shoot a Fool for doing what it is that They have done. Again and again I will mention the word Murder, for one thing I still contemplate such an act, and I sure as Hell hope it gets some real attention. In the first place You sure as Hell better'd take it as serious as a heart attack that He either means it or He's gone silly. Myself? I admit to being a silly ass life, but I aint truly Daffy. I'm just glad as Hell I finally figured it out, I learned to stay away from the heavy drugs. KID'S! I AM SCREWED UP DUE TO THE FACT THAT MY SO CALLED FRIENDS THOUGHT IT CUTE TO SET ME UP WITH L.S.D., DAMN!!!!!!!!!!! Get  a grip on Your life's before You find out too late, really.

This is a Human Life Dammit!

   Or do You even care? Children live without a care, fact. This goes out to America, Hey! We're in deep shit. Us here in places like Wyoming have a heart, even though We do have Assholes like Richard Pattison Here too, and We stand up for You. I love Austin Myself,  and if a War were to start and People There were being killed with without regard? Nancy? I would kill every Mother Fucker involved until the day I die. Get it straight, You as a Human would do the same damn thing. Kid's Today? "We don't want to fight!", is just how Children would look at it, neither do Men. Hell them Mother Fuckers are Here to kill Us for what ever reason They have. Today starts it in My opinion. I wrote on so many walls in Santa Monica around ten years ago, 'They're stealing America!', and that is a fact. Come On! Wake up! Kids Today! It'll blow over. Grow the fuckin' Hell up! People have came to America to kill Us, now! "Oh it's just some Guy ranting.". Adults see through it all. Hey! When You can look at a Man, and actually see the words, FULL GROWN MAN, You've seen the shit Kid. Let's save America now before it's too damn late. You're laughing now, They're Here to kill You Kid. Wake the Fuck up. KELLY!

Rock and Roll Huchycoo

  Hey, these Bastards set Me up with acid and hard rock and that is a fact. Al I want is to see these Boy's hang. Again I say the words, 'No Man would allow such creatures to get away with such a crime.'. These are Children that think I am a joke, Grown People do not joke about other Humans and that again is a fact of life. Kids in America are so lost They don't have a clue what a Full Grown Adult actually is. There are those that will scoff and think They know better, get real Kid. Richard Pattison set it up so I'd be an asset to His plan, He could'nt write a hit song and figured I could do it for Him. I completely understand that that statement lone sounds like crap, but I have heard Richards music and am still not impressed. Take these Boy's down if You can, the anger alone is enough to drive a Person over the edge. Unless You are a heartless Bastard You'd hang these People.

"Fuck the Police!"

   You will never here those words come out of My mouth. My Nephew thought it was cool and played the cassette in My El Camino once, as soon as it was through He started to play it again, He did'nt when I was through. I have respect for a lot of Officers, like the Gal that transported Me to jail when a motorcycle Cop arrested Me for not paying a ticket. She took Me to My house and let Me get My money, took Me downtown and let Me pay My fine, and then took Me back to My car, no shit. I just can't stand the ones that would let People like this Richard Pattison get away with His crime, fact. All I really want to say is, do Your fucking job. These People have made it obvious that They are screwing with My life. I know I can prove it, just arrest Me.

A reason to kill

   A reason to kill? You are a reason to take a Humans life. I told of the time I tried to take a Rapist life if I remember right, it's hard to remember all seven hundred plus pages that I've written. "I don't give a Fuck!", was just said on a movie I am watching, damn if that's not the American Youth. Well it's about time Somebody started giving a Fuck. Son of a Bitch! If America continues as it is, We are Fucked, so give one dammit. This page writing as I call it never started over the mess that America is in, but I see a chance to change a few Kids. Kid's, Today We are facing a dilemma in which We may not walk away from as a Winner. We are being overrun by People wanting to kill Us, so wake the Fuck up! We stand alone You may think, but with all the help We have given the World in the past one hundred years We have Allies. The thing I fear is that They will hit so fast and hard that People will be in shock, which They will be, and be in deep shit. People like Me will kill for You and that's a fact that You need to realize. To the woods, if it comes down to it, Kelly.

Loyalty

   I am as Loyal as a good Dog, now. I was a rotten Kid when it came to being decent in that aspect with a Woman. The thing is I never knew what true love was. I am in love with Sheila, but I did'nt have a clue what a clue was then. But I can say without a doubt, and I felt some pride even writing these words, that I would never stab a Friend in the back in the manner in which Richard Pattison and Bill Rowley have done to Me. Kid's, one false move in Your life will alter the outcome, so watch Your step, seriously.

That darn McGill KId

   Man what a steak! We have an Indian Casino here, actually four in all, and for the month of Your birthday They give You $20.00 for dinner. A Prime rib done to perfection and I paid $.94 out of My pocket. Talk about a deal. The thing is then I went and lost $50.00, damn. That's a good place to stay out of. At first when I hit town I was winning all the time, before I went back to California to wrangle bees I won over $1,000. at least four times that Feb. Now I can't hit anything to save My life. JUst goes to show how My luck can change quick.

I talk too much

   I admit, last night I really did'nt need to explain what I did. But a Loser like Me only gets lucky once in a blue moon and with  My writing this stuff like I am I thought it needed said. I am a goofy Bastard I tell You. I really used to get lucky a whole lot more then I have in the past thirty plus years, I know it's sad to say so. But I insist that Nancy did something to Me when She fell in love with Me. A sad sack for sure. I wonder while I'm sitting Here if it's worth it all, You'll never bring this Boy Pattison to justice I can see that. It sucks too.

Tonight

  Here I am sitting in a Bar , when along comes a Gal. Well what do I do? I said let's go to My place, and We did. It aint the first time I have been bold, what got Me heart broken in the first damn place? I have in the past blurted out the question, ' You ready?', and taken Her home, and I am sure it will happen again too. This Gal Tonight I had seen around, She's a funny Gal to talk to, easy to get along with too. A long way from being a Love, but She had a nice Body in My eye, and I will see Her naked again.

Another Frickin' Kid!

 I will start with this, I have lost My glasses, they're around somewhere close, but. Old age? Yea right. Well, We are the Children. The only difference is, those that grow see Themselves. The rest of You are like Me, too blind to see what faces You.  My future? That depends on You. "Richard Pattison, Killeen Texas", that is an American future that scares Me. A lot of the Kids would say that what I speak of here is nonsense, years from now You'll look back and see it different, believe Me. I am only fifty four, a Kids age for sure. Hell, I still talk like  a Kid. I look at Myself daily Folks.

Human!

   "You're showing Your maturity!' damn skippy.

Who's gettin' paid off?

   I do so believe some powerful Punk is accepting money, or else this Richard Pettison Kid would be in Jail. "Take pride in Your work.", and that goes out directly to You Police Officers out there. Too many times in recent years We see some serious crap from You personally, some of that crap I Myself would want to shoot Your silly asses. I would hate to see this Country fall to Our Haters, and We have a lot. Which in itself says to take a damn hard look at Ourselves. America is not perfect, look at how They allow Richard to fuck with Me, but God Dammit I'll stand for Her, fact. What I seek? You already know. Please Somebody take this serious, Kelly.

Well, I'm still Here dammit!

   I sure as Hell hope People don't think I make this stuff up, this is My reality that I speak of.If I were Insane I think I would have been put away by now. Yes, I was about to lose total control in the nineties. I admit to all My problems in life, the thing is I was made this way. As I have said before the L.S.D. came to Me without My even looking for it. It's strange it was set up along with Acid rock as it's known, and immediately afterwards I was asked to join in a Band. You really need to find this 2112 by Rush and listen to it to understand what it is I am saying to You. You may also go back to the summer of '81 and look at Johnny Carson. I hate to say He was talking about Me, but I have to prove My story. Again I say that these People are vicious and callous. Their actions were immoral, and what They are doing at the present is outrageous. When I say I want to just walk up and shoot these People You have to understand why, They were attempting to screw Me up worse than They managed. I live with mental problems created by these People and I want Them put in Prison for Their crimes, recent and past. Sincerely, Kelly McGill

There's always one

   I got stuck with a Jerk on My job. I have an Electrician that I was warned about. Why do People have to be so damned hard headed. I called this Guy to tell Him We needed Him to look at one of the new heater units so We can make sure everything is going to work. The Metal Man went ahead and made a plate to go around it, one of many, and installed the unit. This Guy goes off about how They're not doing what They said They were going to do and They can't go changing things around. I had to tell Him twice that it was only a proto type and We are trying to solve any future issues and He needs to be involved. I finally had to tell Him flat out that He is the Electrician not Us and He needs to see how it is going to work. When I told Him that the knock out is'nt going to work and He had to drill a hole on the bottom He complained that His U.V. rating won't be compliant. After I told that to the Man in charge of the H.V.A.C. & metal His thoughts were the same as Mine, He took a look into the directions that came along with the unit and circled the part that says it is O.K. to do as We were thinking. This is a small town Folks, He's well known among the other trades on the job and They have had previous problems with Him. My point here is that some People just don't want to cooperate, making others miserable. All the Owners have heard what He told Me about if the power was off to an existing unit, "Tell "em to cut the wires, They'll know real quick.", that one pissed some People off. Mean Bastard anyhow.

Rotten Eggs

   Is there justice in this World? I wonder. There is'nt one of You that would call Me a Liar when I say You would want the same thing if You were in My shoes. These Boy's are as rotten as They get. Anybody that would purposely set out to destroy a Humans mind is nothing but garbage and that is a fact. I never really felt hatred for another Human Being until I realized what it is that They did to My life, hatred is exactly what I feel too. "Nice Guys finish last, so no more Mr. Nice Guy.", has a lot of meaning to Me personally. Anyone that knew Me as a Child would tell You I never started any crap with Anyone. I have even been hit in the mouth and walked away from the fight, that is why these People knew I'd be an easy mark. If there is justice, please let it be soon, because I really don't think I can go on much longer, I have had suicidal thoughts a lot in the last few weeks alone. Give a poor Kid a break.

Kelly

   The word of the day is integrity, I had to look it up Myself. Just like Honorable, yes I looked it up too. These words have more meaning in them than I ever expected, and they are found in less and less People daily. I really hate to rag on America, but God Dammit all, We as a whole need to find a solution to Our future. Tomorrow looks seriously dark if We don't change Our ways. I for one have been trying. I have lost sixty pounds since I was driving a cab in Killeen Texas. it's a start. I wound up getting to 260, that was cut off quick. We can all see Ourselves, some might lie about Themselves, but We can see. Actually I am shocked a bit with Myself tonight, I do read My own crap here. America the beautiful, let's keep 'er that way. Kelly.

Still here, and pissed

   WHAT IN THE HELL IS IT GOING TO TAKE TO BRING THESE BOYS TO JUSTICE?!!!!! I mean HOLY SHIT!!! I go on and on and on and on, but nothing. Do You want Me to shoot Somebody? I would'nt hesitate when it comes down to it. I know Myself pretty darn good. If Bill Rowley walked up to Me I would lose control. This is bullshit!

I dare say

   You know? Anybody that would mess with a life like this Richard Pattison is not a normal Person. I just hope for the chance to confront Him some day. He has'nt been to Riverton Wyoming for a very long time now, I wonder why?

Old Grouch

   I am told all the time to smile, knock it off. I sure as Hell don't feel like smiling most of the time. Then there are the Kids like this Richard Pattison that think everything is amusing, You sure have a lot of growing up to do and that is a fact. I admit to the fact that I am still in My youth, but I can tell the difference between the Mature People and those that think They are. Just in writing these words I am showing My Youth, but I intend to show People a few things before I am through. "Can't You tell? The Boy's love struck.", might shed some light on My plight in life. I also don't care for most People, especially the American youth and the way They carry on. I clearly understand how the Elders I have seen over the years did'nt like Kids either. They act more like spoiled Children then Grown ups, and I speak of many different ages too. Remember these words, Children play games with the lives of others.

Another shooting?

   I don't want to see another School shooting, do something now! I might have been the first one to say to put Vets in there for protection. It may be a great idea, but then again They could put the wrong People in there too. The odds are that They would more than likely be good People. Even here in Wyoming They have started putting in vestibules to keep People out. The thing is is that They could still walk in and kill the People at the front desk. I said it before that I keep guns around, and they are for that reason itself. I can, and do, have black powder weapons. My most recent one is a forty four with magnum caps and thirty seven grains of powder, it will bend Your wrist when fired. Here in Wyoming I don't even need a concealed weapon permit, so I keep the forty four in the truck at all times. We have murders here too. Going back to this Dana character, He is actually the second Person I have ever said "Let's go outside." to, what really pisses Me off is that He's one of types that will laugh about it. I am not a violent Person is what I told My Lawyer in Cheyenne, I also told Her if I were, there would be some dead People and mentioned this twitter account. It was'nt much after that when I was set free. Seriously, if I were of a violent nature I can say Bill Rowley would have had His throat cut by now. A gain I mention such things so You People can see what I am about. I am the one that was picked on nearly all of His life, it really bothers Me too. It used to take a lot to anger Me, then I was a walking time bomb for a spell, now I just want to be left alone. These People are bullying Me and I can't do a damn thing. That is more depressing than anything else.

Damn Drunk

    Boy did I tie one on last night. You'll be glad to know that I walked to the Bar, but still I can't go on as a simple Drunkard. It pisses Me off when You wake up the next day and find out how much You wasted. I stayed at home tonight at least, and will continue to do so for a while. I told You about this Dana Kid I called out, I have known the Boy since High School, He is a good Friend of Bill Rowley's. I worked with Dana while Bee keeping, He is an Asshole to People that's the main reason for starting crap with Him. I'm not sure how He wound up with a bank account like He's got, I'd be making it up if I said for a fact that Bill set Him up. I just wish I did'nt have such a stubborn streak, it has cost Me a lot. I should have just read that damn Playboy.

Hello!

   On this very Evening I called a Partner of Bill Rowley's out. Dana Peterson was a close Friend of Bill's at the time the acid was being administered. I told Him any time, with the response,"We'll meet some day.". His other response was that I am scamming the internet. Really? Every one of You see what I do here, I seek justice. I have asked, and again ask, for a dollar. The thing is that I never actually expected a dime. When I first asked I was living in the streets of Santa Monica, and was actually hoping for a hand out. The second and third time was a grasp at a chance. To say that this is a Scam? HELLO! I AM STILL HER FOLKS!!! Dana Peterson was called out by a Person willing to walk away, yet He Cowardly walked away.

Thee Grown!

   God damn it to Hell, figure it all out! There are People wanting, and are here to do so, to kill Us! Fact!

Worthless

   I really feel like giving up. I want so bad to just end it all. When I look at My life I am so disgusted it destroys Me. The feelings I have inside at times are near enough to drive a Person to end it all. Kids Today would laugh at that, it;s a wonder this Country survives at all. I know why People of the World hate America, I Myself can't stand the Children here. Everything is a joke to Them. It's about time for Them to get a grip on reality, They are not Adults to find this amusing.

This Kid

   Fuck You! That is exactly how I feel towards Anybody reading this and not trying to help. These People have made it very obvious that They are screwing with My life, yet nothing is done about it. Has America lost all of it's senses? I know better. There are People here with some smarts, let's show it. We allow People to mess with a slow Kid on National Television and the Movies because They are wealthy? Good Grief! Forgive the offensive words I started with, I just need some real help here, Kelly.

Today in America

   I really wonder what it is that is really going on. In Seattle Today there was yet another shooting, why would anyone just walk into a College and open fire? My personal thoughts are that this Obama Person, Whom I do not believe is an American, I stirring up trouble. They want gun control, and if They make People see just how dangerous they are maybe They can take them away. For a fact that will not happen without a fight. What the American People need is for the Military to back the People, without Them We would have a slim chance. When You hear this Obama talk He has great speaking skills, and sounds American. I have met pot runners from Mexico that spoke such perfect english We all said it sounded practiced. I Myself can sound like a Mexican. I am not sure about what I read on the internet, but I have read where He is trying to make it easy for other Countries to become Soldiers, that is not acceptable. I feel He and His People want a race War on American soil, "Destroy Them from within.". People Today are looking at exactly that if We continue. "Population control.", has in the past been used by starting Wars. We have made it too easy to enter America and become a Citizen. In the 1800s We need Immigrants because They were taking this Country from the inhabitants, once They took it They should have slowed the flow. Now We have allowed Our Enemies to roam free here, War is over the horizon no matter what We do now. The one question We need to ask is, Who will We fight? Ourselves? Or the instigators from foreign Lands. God Bless Us all that are on the side of the righteous, Amen.

Perseverance

   It pays to keep trying. A Friend of a Kid We hired showed up Yesterday and again this Morning looking for a job, by 7:30 He was on the payroll. It's like Dad told Me as a Kid, "Keep bugging Them and They'll either tell You to get lost or hire You.", that's exactly how I got on with George, I kept going by the job until He said to show up on Monday. "Mean People suck." is a popular bumper sticker in Austin, and Boy aint it the truth. I deal with Them a lot in the construction field, just like Today. As I have said I am now the Project Manager on the H.V.A.C. remodel We are doing. Along comes a situation where I asked the Electrician if He could move some wires in the way of a beam We will be putting in next week. He tells Me it is'nt in Their bid and calls His Boss. Later He tells Me They have enough in Their budget to go ahead and demo this for Me. No R.F.I.s required. Then this afternoon the companies Project Manager over Me calls and asks Me about it. This Fella is trying to burn Me and get Me in trouble is what it comes down to. I've seen it too many times, My mistake is that I did'nt have Him sign something saying it was a freebie. Come to find out this same Person is known as the type that stirs up crap. The sheet metal Foreman told Me how He pushed Him to the point where He had to cuss Him out real good before He got the point. Myself? I can't get caught doing that, I have to be a Professional about it. The thing is He does'nt know Me at all,and in actuality I am His Boss when It comes down to it. I may not be able to fire Him but I can sure as Hell have Him escorted of the Job by the Police if He gets to that point. It just goes to show You how People are, Mean.

The real Kelly McGill

   I have told You so many times about My honesty, well I got one for You. I am a Criminal at large. I owe the Government. Any law enforcement office that has looked at Me would know I owe the I.R.S. and that is a fact. I worked for cash under the table for years in the eighties. Then once They started paying contract labor I never thought about it. And then I went into contracting, again I never gave it a thought. I at one time owed nearly twenty thousand, now I think it's around seven. In My mind I feel that if I keep on like I am, working for Someone and paying in regularly, I can pay it off after a while. I paid so much in 2000 I was shocked. I was paying $600. a week in Stockton California then. I know for a fact I paid a lot of it off then. I have lived the life of a Kid that did'nt have a clue on where He was going nor what He was doing back then, I was reckless to say the least. All I ask for now is a fair shake, I'm trying to play it straight.

Hardass

    Dammit all, I hate the way Boy's now days want to work, They're too soft. I was asked Who I wanted on the job and asked for John, He might miss a few days but He'll work, then I wound up with a Kid right out of High School, He's sure got a lot to learn. I noticed He went missing for a spell a couple of times, and I had to keep telling Him to do something. He has'nt seen Me ride Someone. I will get a Guy to work, I've done it before. The problem is that most of the Guys have been with this company for a while and are used to being allowed to take it easier than normal, not while I'm in charge. I am a hard working Human Being and I expect People to put in a days work. At the end of the day, and it was'nt an easy one, I showed Them what I am about, I don't have to work all that hard in My position, but I knocked out three room of ceiling grid faster than They expected. Now I am in the position where We are on the Electricians behind. I say this because I want Kids Today to understand that it's hard work and it takes hard People to last ten hours. You Kids that have never had to hustle to earn a living need to get Your asses to work, America is a soft place to a lot of You and We're being overrun just like Us Irish did in the 1800s. "So what?", Men and Women give a damn. I am for a fact just ranting here, but it really is something the American Youth need to hear. Give a damn before We lose this whole land.

9 away from 9000 pageveiws

   9000 pageveiws? I do have to sat to those that are reading this, thanks. At least I am getting My story across to Someone. I just hope it pays off. It's a sad thing when Your Friends turn Their backs on You. I am sure it all started with Sheila. A Freind of Mine Les Tolson started dating Her after We had Our fateful night, "Sheila says You're weird." He told Me. I am sure She told Everyone how I stood with My jaw dropped while I stared at Her from Her toes all the way to Her neck before I said, 'Saved by the bell.' and ran to answer the intercom. As I said, at the age of two I crawled up a ladder and took a spill, I'm pretty sure that messed Me up for life. I have never really had a normal life. I have had so many things happen that as soon as they're through I forgot all about them. Many I remember now, but there are parts of My life I wish I could see. I do not remember the football game in Rock Springs, the fight I had in Virginia or what happened after I saw the blood on Ray Joe Lewis's shirt. I am not like these People that say "I don't recall." to get out of trouble, I just tell You how it is. "It's a tough World.", is a fact.