Silly Bastards!

   This is My imitation of the American youth, "Man, that's some funny shit!", They don't really have to be all that young either. We are full of Dumbasses that get stoned stupid. A grip is what has been lost, a grip on Our senses. I stand as a marter by exposing the realitys of My drug abuse. Gauranteed, I would live life in an other direction if I had My druthers, but destiny can be a fickle Bitch. I might find the path to prosperity yet Ya know, I've got a few knew songs. Bah, right around the corner from U.S.C., I played on the streets and the little Kids walking by, small ones, would start dancing to My jams. Two different People in different states have said the exact same words to Me, "What are You doing working?", when I sang My song 'Shoulda'. It's just like Tom Petty sings, "The A an R Man don't hear a single.", I sent 'em a tape. I have to tell You, if You really want to be a singer, You have to know what You sound like first. When I recorded My first demo I sure did'nt like the voice I heard on a few of My songs, Heck I'm deaf in one ear and can't hear outa the other. Shoulda? That is a song I wrote about a true story, it's about drinking and driving. Sober here till the day I die I know for a fact. I quit before for a year and a half so I have faith that if I never again in My life say that I can drink just one, that one leads to two and so on and on and on, I will have it whipped. My words to Myself were the same as to losing a bunch of weight, nobody's going to do it for You. Drinking is a whole lot worse then pot, but I really have to say neither are truly a smart alternative in life. "Life's too short as it is, so slow down.", I remember from a long time back. Another saying goes like this, "There's nothing wrong with good clean fun, as long as You're an Adult about it.". So with that in mind I bid You farewell, Kelly.

The life of a Child

   I have got a story  to tell You tonite. Depression had become a very serious, serious problem in My life. Before I went to Jacksboro Texas and spent a year flat for less then a gram of cocaine, I was self employed and if it were'nt for that crap I could have really made some money. I brought home twice in one year $5,000. for the week. But like They say, "A Fool and His money are soon parted.". I hurt so bad for that Damn Nancy that I can say I cried at least once a day everyday for a whole year. I know what it's like to fall to Your knees wracking in pain. The fucked up Kid aye? Wierded Him out is what I know for a fact Bill and Richard say, well, I'm just bein' wierd then. Life's rough Boy's, what You did to mine is not even comparable to the hurt My own ignorance and blindness has caused Me. Your arrogance is astounding Boy, I don't like You Richard, an absolute pompous, childish, piece of dirt like You is socably unexceptable. My attempt at even wishing I could take down these People is a falure I except this now, They win. My final attempt at contacting Hefner was earlier, All I did was say the truth, I told Him exactly how I felt at that very second, it was as I told Him the worst feeling I had ever felt in My life. It's a Mother Fucker that is known as a fact of life. A weaker Person would have surely perished from Our fair Planet. If You do ever feel like ending it all, remember these wise words, "You've got alot to live for.", "cause You do, I have My reasons for living, and not something selfish like revenge on these People. Alot of things have have came My way, I wanta see what's around the corner. I gave it one hell of a try I say. I'll see 'em when We run into the Devil aye? Rat Bastards any how. Boys will be Boys They say. Keep it real is a good way to end this, 'cause this Mothers Son aint playing like these little boys are.

enjoy the day

   What's up? Me? I'm liking the weather here in Tracy California. It was warming up in Wyoming, but Ya still need a coat in the morning. Last time I was here I felt at home. To top it off there seems to be quite a bit of work around here, and rent seems reasonable. Anybody have a felony? If You do You'll understand what I mean about trying to find a job or an apartment, discrimination is the word. I was even told once that My felony was the reason I was'nt rented to, Bullcorn I say. An unviolent crime such as mine is nothing. I bet They'd rent to Martha Stewart. Nothing against Martha, but ask the People in the streets to apply. I tried My damndest while in the streets to find work, again no such luck. When Your down and out They crap on You for real. I really don't wish that kind of life on Anyone, but if You were ever in such a spot You would understand Thier plight. That's really about all I have to say today, just about to go to work so I'll gab to Ya later, Kelly.

hell if I know

   Man, I can't get a break. I am even pestering Hugh Hefner on Twitter and Facebook just trying to get Him to speak to Me, fat chance. I would even accept a charge of harrassment just to bring it to court. Since the beginning I have went to the top. I left alot of messages for a Marshal in D.C., His name is John Clark. Mr. Clark is the Man in charge of bringing down crooked Agents. Well, even that did'nt work. Frustration is an annoying reality in the World. I asked Hugh what He would do if I were to show up at the mansion again, don't think I won't either. You know, I lied I guess. I said I would stop writing about this, but cannot. When You know Your old Pals are living it up at Your expense, You really have to do something. I do know this character Bill Rowley is going to play it up to the hilt. I know Him well enough to say He will act all innocent and confront Me about all of this. I hope the Boy is reading this, Bill watch My feet Son, For I will teach You a lesson. Bill knows first hand that I am a natural born fast S.O.B., They probabaly called Him elephant Man after I split His sorry head open. Kids have been taught the hard way around Me to not charge at Me, Bill's one of Them. I was standing with His guitar in My hand, the base was resting on the ground, when He made His move I lifted it and struck Him faster then any Human is capable of doing in a normal world. You can call Me a liar and I will be mature about it instead of being violent. Just don't rush Me, I am unable to control My actions in that type of situation, and Bill not only felt it, Him and Richard Pattison saw it another time also. You Folks enjoy the St. Pattys day coming up, god bless Us Irishmen. Sincerely Kelly McGill. (pronounced MickGill by the way)

Ah I wanted the Magilla gorilla

   What a frickin' mess, Richard Pattison is an Ass.

What to do

   What is there to do? If I went to Washington I would be charged with a felony, even if I went there just to bust a nose that truly deserves it. People say to forgive, My god man, They tried to make a vegetable out of My life, there is no forgivness. You are an innocent Child to believe in forgiving Someone that made Your life a living hell. I have to elaborate on that issue. After the weekend I was given enough acid to fry My mind, I was never told until later that You should hold it in Your mouth for a while then spit it out and You don't get the full affect, My mind was altered. What I mean is that I constantly think of the World around Me, this is not how My mind worked before. I do know it was set up by Bill Rowley for His Pal Richard Pattison, I just have no proof. The only thing I can hope for is that Scott Carrol and His wife Sherry will be grown up enough to tell the truth, the rest of Them surely are not. There was a Kid around then too, His name was Pete. I had to tell Bill Rowley to stop selling Him speed because He was only 15. Pete was around the day after I was given the Playboy, We were listening to the radio when He said, "I think They want You to play Your guitar.", odd? Ya I'd say so. I looked at Him and said in return, "I know They do, but what do You want?", He kept quiet after that. These People think Thier little games are cute, I do not. If the good Lord permit, I will bring these arrogant Bastards down, Amen.

Dufus here

   Boy I bet the last time I wrote on here Ya'll was blown away? This Child is a bizzare one to say the least. Tonight I want to talk about the Playboy a little bit, if for nothing else but to prove to the People that may have been involved that I actually recieved the damn thing. One story in particular had the headline, "The laws of love.". This is a simple one to explain, it flat out says that They allow no homosexuals. That My friends has never been an issue for Me. Another article was entitled, "The Lord of the rings.", this was one that after listening to Rushes 2112 had Me believing I was bound for stardom, it pretty much said so. I feel I know now who it was that helped set the whole thing up. The night I walked into the party at the Marriot I was talking to a Gentleman, when I mentioned that Me and My Friends were starting a band He told Me that He had connections. It is really a sad thing to see the way They are allowed to screw with My life in the manner that They do, on national television. When I walked into the U.S. Marshals office in Cheyenne Wyoming the first thing I asked the officer They sent to talk to Me was, "Would You believe I am being screwed with on national T.V.?". His response was, "If You say so.". And yes I do say so too. The one that set Me off, and made Me realize what Richard and Bill Rowley had done, was when Craig Furguson said, "Richard Pattison, Killeen Texas!". Anger? You cannot begin to understand how mad I really am over the whole thing, and when I see no one seemingly doing anything I want blood. Well I guess I have said enough for now, Have a good one Folks, Kelly.