Ya Big Dummy!

   That's what Shorty Kranz used to call Me. Yep. Went and done what I said I was gonna do and wound up at the party for the class of '78. No Bill. Carol Saulters was the biggest surprise there. A real good looking Girl in high school, the first words out of Her mouth were that She'd done a lot of drugs, and I mean a lot She said. Carol is a Friend of Mine on Facebook, I never would have guessed this was Her. This hits Ya pretty hard seeing Her too, Drugs are a fuck up and nothing else. Irresponsiblity to the extreme, use Your head Kid and look at Us, We're fucked up People, Change the World and take things as a Grown Adult would and stop the madness. Real. Kelly McGill. Amen.

3450

   I want to start by addressing an issue in America at this present time. A Woman recently lost Her job over admitting to calling Somebody a name? ridiculous at the least! It isn't actually proper to go around calling each other "Dumbasses!, and "Lame brain's!", or even, "Nigger!", and even nicer things. Myself guilty of being an immature Kid at times too, fire Me. I know, a Smart Ass, just another thing that We do in life here a lot. "A little big for Your britches!", is what I thought of today and new I had to write that one. I aint seen that Rowley Kid around, hell I go walking down main on My evening hike. Just stop Me please! You Punk Ass Mother Fucker!!! All You gotta do is say the words and I will do My best to defeat You in battle My ex-friend You in reality are a screwed up individual to go along with Richard in the first place Bill You screwed up a Person, bizarre is what You and Richard devised to do to a life of a twenty year old Child. Kid's, when You look back at life years later You'll see things different no matter Who You are. It'll amaze You. Well enough blabbin' fer a spell, catch You on the phlip phlop, Kelly.

Some Dumbass name for a title, I guess?

   I just sit here and babble. I have no clue on a positive direction. And half the time I just write whatever comes ta mind. Bah! But seriously Folks, this is no joke or game, My real name is Kelly and I actually have had this screwy life, no shit. I had a pretty good feeling tonite , I thought about lifwe after killing this Fool Bill Rowley, He aint worth it, to ruin what's left of a life? No, He needs a serious ass whooping, You do not mess with another persons mind, if You believe in doing so You are in actuality showing just how immature You are. Speaking of Nancy, what a good Woman, I can tell by the look in Her eyes that She is what is known as a normal Adult. I tried My damndest to find Her, Austin is a city but not a large one, I always thought I'd see Her again. Fucked Me up! I put an add in the Austin paper years later it read, "Nancy where are You? I've come to My senses.", and I actually received a reply. She was looking for a Girl Kelly, if that aint a kick in the ass. I dicided to cause Myself some more pain so I went to the Austin library and look at the perasonals from 1982, the one that caught My eye stings, "Need Someone to dance His memory away.". I was so blind that I never thought of looking when it happened, now that one fucks with Me hard People, My heart aches so bad right now it is near unbareable. Many a Human would never live through what I have endured, They would have commited suicide, We all have Our pain, so I don't condem Them. Well, enough is enough so I'm out a here, Kelly.

Down for the count

  Man, I still have to write this crap, what a Son of a Bitch. Well I might as well do My best at it huh? $0.20 cents a foot should grab Somebodies attention, I found an add on Craigslist where a Fella needs a layout Carpenter in Idaho and Colorado, I sure hope He is still looking come next fall, I should have enough saved and with My next bonus I should be able to get the insurance and any license I need to sub-contract again, I've got My fingers crossed. That is an outrageous price, on average Your apartment buildings are around 8000 sq. ft., at $1,600. a floor a Guy can make a real profit. So now You may understand why it is that I don't really want to kill these Assholes, I really can make serious money out there in the World. Being sober and not spending foolishly on drugs I could set Myself up pretty good that way. The main thing is that You have to keep an eye on Yourself, and Me I have to keep both eyes open. I actually do better when I sub because it's My ass out there. Working by the hour I'm more into getting as much done as fast as I can, I've always been that way too. Well, Friday night is coming up faster then You know, Bill You got guts enough to show? You piece of dirt, I can't stand the wait, I came to Wyoming just hoping for a chance to run into You silly ass Boy. See Ya when Pal, sincerely Kelly John McGill.

Habitual Bitcher

      Man what a Clod! Yea that's Me. Unlucky at love, unlucky at life. Kids watch out Who You befriend, it can come back and bite Ya in the ass. Speaking of Asses, how are Ya Richard? Man I do hope that Punk shows up here in Wyoming for the class of '78s reunion, I will admit it will be hard to keep Myself from shooting Him in the face. I really am at the point that I don't give a flying fuck if You believe Me or not, I speak nothing but truth People. I can see it from Your point of view too, if Somebody told Me that Hugh Hefner contacted Them in such a manner I would say They are out of Their mind. But it is a fact, why else would Johnny Carson talk about "The Weirdo."? Man what a life I have lived, it's one reason I go on, just to see what comes along next, really. Hey, I've got a saying for You that I Myself coined, "Paybacks are a Bitch.", I don't remember if I talked about it before or not, but in actuality it goes, "Paybacks are a Mother Fucker.", I was dating Sheila at the time and cleaned it up for Her. Other then that I'm gonna let Ya go with that said, peace on Earth, Kelly.

Shitty day aye?

   Yup, it's a crappy day, just like every day in the life of a lost Fool, but Who really cares? I seem to write about the wind, because I sense nothing is going to happen. We'll see I say. My life? "What a strange trip it's been.", to quote the Grateful Dead, odd? Yea I'd say so. But as honest as a Man can be. A Man? "If You have to ask!", comes to mind. As I have said before I do not claim to be a Grown Adult in My life at the present, but I do know the truth about Grown maturity. I have over the years witnessed My Elders being Children, many times too. "Children of all ages.", "Some People just never grow up.", "That Man's a Kid.", "The Boy's a Man.", "You call Yourself a Man?", "Yes I am a Man.", "Girly.", "That old Girl grew.", "That's a Girl if I've ever seen one.", "Good for nothing Kid.", "You still want to be called one huh?", "I'm an old Man.". I could go on for quite a spell with these quotes but I have to save something for a later date, besides that I'm out a here. C-Ya later bye, Kelly.

Mr. Bill

    Dammit all to Hell anyways. I thought I'd look up Mr. Rowley on Facebook just to see what the Boy posts, He's been in the hospital, pity I didn't put Him there. It wouldn't make a bit of difference to Me though, if He was in a wheelchair I'd kick Him in the teeth, He deserves worse by far. Again I have to say how They were attacking My life in a manner that I will never be the same again, I admit My mind has cleared some but I will never have a mind at ease. I don't think like a natural Human Being, I can't elaborate on this because for one thing You would not understand, all I can really say is that They made Me a Spaced out Kid. That in itself is a killing offense to Me. Go to Wenachie? Ya never know. This is Bullshit Folks, I cry My heart out and They live it up at My expense. And yes I am serious about hurting this Guy even if He were crippled, I know that sounds extreme but He was My best Friend and stabbed Me in the back in a manner that is unforgivable. People say forgive and forget, well You don't have these People screwing with Your God damn life after They tried to totally destroy My mind. An eye for an eye People. Have a good day, Kelly.