My life?

   I told You about going to Santa Monica, I went the second time to track down this Pattison Fella, the first time I went to try and get My life story written. I first started trying to get it wrote right after the attack in New York in 2001. I was so confident that it was going to be written I just dropped everything I owned and went to California. I left a storage unit in Dallas full of tools and drove My truck to Arizona where it broke down and took a bus into L.A. where I first went to Pasadena. After a week there My pants were falling off Me due to the lack of food. I looked for work everyday and in the evening I would go over to where an orange tree was and eat. Finally I went to Santa Monica where I knew Playboy west studios was located. I camped out just down the street. One of the things I left in Dallas was My attempt at writing My biograghy, I bet the Folks that wound up with that unit had a good laugh when They opened it and saw My I.D. I went and got one during lunch one day, They told Me to take My hat off. My picture was with My hair sticking straight up and a goofy smile on My face. Plus I had a shirt on that read Rotten Ralphs, a seriously funny look to tell the truth. My visit was for not, and I soon left California after around seven months in the streets. They really make it too easy out there for You, I knew where to get three meals a day during the week. And on Saturday You could really stock up for Sunday, there are a lot of fat Homeless People out there. I have seen it where a Drunk is passed out and People will lay money down next to Him so that when He awakens He can go get a beer. After I left I hitch hiked for nearly five thousand miles. First I went to St. Louis and stayed with My Nephew, after a week there and no work I went to Memphis. Three days there and I was off to Nashville. I have been told My songs are pretty good so I thought I'd try that route. A street musician plays His heart out and gets little in return. I made $1. in Nashville. I was playing and a Man and His wife were standing at the light waiting for it to change, at first They ignored Me, but after listening for a second He turned back and gave Me a buck. Everytime I found a place where I could make some real cash I was run off, it sucks being out there and busting You hump for change. To finish the trip I went back to Dallas and finally to Austin. I took on a job building pre-fabbed arches right next to Dell computers in Round Rock, all I had was a borrowed saw and cord. Where I learned to frame We used axes, I'm still faster then You would believe driving nails. John Lucas was My Boss for years in Austin, He has trophies the size of a Man for competition nail driving, I was always just a breath slower. He won first place one year with 36 nails in 30 seconds. It did'nt take Me long to be able to buy a truck and I was going strong again. I could still go to Texas and run a crew of My own but it's getting rough to do anymore, the Mexicans are taking it over. Enough rambling on for tonight, I just felt like talking about trying to get My story told, so I'll quit with this said. Good night and have a great weekend, Kelly.

Will I ever win?

   Here I go again. I am the first one to admit to being a Loser, not many would say it out loud. I lost Sheila twice, I broke Nancy's heart, I was shocked to the point of being pissed at a Gal Who is the owner of the most beautiful face You'll ever see, I really can't count without really looking hard at it how many heartbreaks I have suffered. I remember one I may not have mentioned though. I was in Deep Ellum Dallas when a Gal walks up and takes My beer away from Me and asks, "Are You always this dull?". I gave Her a cold look but She still drug Me out onto the dance floor. Once there She asked Me, "Can You dance Nasty?", well I had in the mood quick. So quick I believe Her Friends thought I had drugged Her, They escorted Her away saying She had a phone call. One of Them was giving Me a serious dirty look as They left. Hell I again was dumbfounded, I was an innocent Fool with the help of others. Life sucks aye? I write this tonight just so You can see what I live with in My life, has Anyone seen a more deserving Kid? I feel I deserve a break in life and that is exactly what I seek here. I may never achieve such a break but a Fellas gotta try right? That is just like one of My songs, 'Better try', My vocals suck on this one but it would rock Your socks off. You know I'm actually feeling pretty good tonight, which is another song of Mine 'Yesterday & Today' that is exactly what it's all about, feeling like crap one day and on top of the World the next. Speaking of heart breaks, these Gals in My past keep this Kid going forward, I never knew such Women could feel for a sorry ass Kid like Me and now that I realize this I look forward to meeting that certain Someone in My future, I just hope too Hell She does'nt shock Me too much. With that I will end. Prayers and good wishes to You all, Kelly.

Still Pissed Off!

   Yea I am as mad as a Person can be about all of this crap. I insist that I am the Victim here. Everyone of You have to admit that if it was You or one of Your Children You would want justice. Justice is exactly what I seek, not sympathy. I look at the World with an open mind but I do not accept the things that have taken place nor the crap going on today. Forgive My ranting, but They really tick a Fella off when They are allowed to do whatever They want. I understand that when They are looked at They have clean records, but so does Everybody in the World until They are convicted of Their first crime. These People are not the Angels They pretend to be Folks, I admit I am no Saint but I do not go out of way to screw with innocent People. I hope You totally understand that there will be no talking if and when I see these Boys again, I just hope to Hell I don't go to Prison for taking a life. This comes from a real Person and My name is Kelly McGill. Thank You for at least reading this, and bless the day these Boys are brought to justice. Kelly.

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  How is Your evening going? Good I hope. I'm still kicking is about all I can say. You know, it bothers Me that I can say that I really want to shoot some Kid for messing My life up and then screw with Me the way He does, but I feel it is the only way to achieve the attention I need in order to bring this Richard Pattison Fella down. I tell no lies Folks, seriously. My life is a strange one even to Me. I break hearts due to Their shocking beauty, and that My Friends is a bother to My Life. If I had it to live over I can say for a fact My Life would be different than the one I know now for sure. If You have'nt noticed I don't write near as much as I did when this first started, I find it harder and harder to find something to say. I used to write down stuff so I would have new things to talk about but I can't find the time at work to do so now. I understand what a lot of Folks are more than likely saying about this, "That's just tough, They did'nt make Him do the drugs.", no but They did make sure an innocent slow Boy was set up with enough drugs to spin His life out. I hope to Hell this works and They get taken down. Sincerely, Kelly McGill.

Again I write

   What more can a Guy do short of shooting some Fool for messing with His life? I want these People so bad I have been doing this for over two years, for what? All I have accomplished is to prove I am a Fool and cause Myself excruiating pain in the process. I tell no lies when I say I am messed with and that these People started out by screwing My life up. I again say that I am not the mess They wanted, but I am a mess of a life. All I can say is that They would be wise to avoid Me at all costs. I may not be insane but I do have a knack for losing it on Assholes, and I would definitely start the fight. Kelly.

The McGill Clan!

  I just had to add this one tonight. I told You about having to watch the Family eat, Dad would have slipped Me some food if He was there. How about this one, "The Prison farm allows Rapist too run free and rape Women and the Town let's Them do so!", I confronted Mom and She denied saying it, I contacted the U.S. Marshals when drunk telling Them this, as I say I was drunk. I do believe My Folks wee contacted about the Playboy and told these Assholes to screw with Him. A truth serum? They all would deny! Kelly!

Kelly McGill Here!

  Hey! I am real! Yes My name is Kelly McGill and I am the Victim! It does'nt seem to matter though, these Fools are rich, They win. All I have going for Me is that I would demand a truth serum, Them? Hey I deserve a chance to win. In the first place I am not a Molester, a Rapist, a Murderer or anything that I Myself would hold down. These People are guilty of heinous crimes. Huh? I sit here and suffer? Proof? Again I demand a truth serum, in the least an attempt too prove My case! But no, I am the butt of Their jokes, reality! Madd? You had better believe it! I tell no tells when I say I went to Hollywood to Kill Richard Pattison. I at least grab My senses before I made it to Washington for I would have taken Bill Rowley's life My Friends. Again I say that I say this in order to achieve the attention of the Police, but the facts are that I would gladly have taken Their lives. I understand that I am putting Myself in jeopardy of being brought down but I can only tell the truth. Thus far I seem too be going nowhere, but still I try. "Richard Pattison, Killeen Texas!", Kelly! Kelly! Kelly! Ah I wanted the MaGilla Gorilla!", "Grandpa Kelly says Eeeah!", Hey? How much can a Guy take?  A normal Man would have hunted these People down, I tried, and killed Them. Give a Guy a break, Kelly.