Are You mad yet?

   I ask if You're mad, I sure as Hell am. One thing I figured out tonight though is that I am incapable of being a Killer. I was watching a show about a serial Killer and it did'nt take much for Me to realize that would not be Me. Yes I believe I could shoot Someone that deserves to be killed, I did go after a Rapist in Danville Indiana. And when I took the axe away from Thomas in Virginia it was after He had tried to hit Me in the head with it. Yes I went to Santa Monica to take Richard down, even though I knew I'd never find Him. If I really wanted Richard I would have went to San Francisco that's where He's supposed to be. In Santa Monica I was in reality trying to get noticed. Sure I want Him dead and would hurt the Boy bad, more than likely I would beat Him to death for the rage He causes. I was hoping I would run into Him really, but that was no more than wishful thinking. I garuantee that if He or Bill Rowley were to try and be friendly with Me I would lose it on Them. I can ear Bill Now, "Let by gones be by gones.", Hell Son You fucked My life up, do You think I am going to forgive? "Turn the other cheek.", not likely Pal. If nothing else I will break a bone for You, and You know I am very capable of taking You any day of the week in a fair fight. I write again about this because I am at a point in My life where I want nothing less than to see these Boy's brought to justice, it is what I live for. With this said I will end for the night. I hope to Hell the right People read this, sincerely, Kelly McGill.

156 Followers?

   I must be doing something right, I have more Followers then ever now. I made up My mind just to follow Police and the likes, it seems to be working. I don't have much to say except I'm looking for work. Would'nt You know Cheyenne seems to be a hotspot, after My last visit I'm a little gun shy. Four months in Jail for doing nothing. I'll never walk past a Jailhouse and say 'There's a Jail I've never been in.' again, seriously, I wound up there that night. It did'nt help that I was drunk and wanted to talk to the Police about Richard Pattison. What I really wanted was to go to the Mental Institute so I could prove I am not insane, crazy or what? Damn Drunks anyhow. I was a serious one too, in My early twenties I could drink a case of beer, and did everyday, and still maintain some sense. Now if I drink a twelve pack and I'll be a slobbering Fool. I am insisting on staying sober now. I did it for a year and a half before and I was sober for around five months after the superbowl last year. I wound up starting again after the class reunion this summer, one beer and I'm hooked again so this time I refuse even the one. I have confidence in My ability to stay dry. I will prevail. Drowning Your sorrows is not the answer Folks, words I am going to live by. Have a good one Folks, Kelly.

I quit!

   I quit, but not here. I hate it when You work with People that just don't give a damn if it looks good or not, so I walked off another job today. The main Boss said I could go back to work but it would lead to a fight on the job so screw it. I know it sounds like I can't get along but really can't stand a lot of People in America. So many of Them treat You like crap, and when You get pissed Your the bad Guy. All My life I have had some Jerk trying to piss Me off. I told You about My Sister Lois yelling at Me when I was a Kid. That went on from the time around when I was in the fifth grade until high school, no shit. She went as far as telling Her first Husband that I hit Her in the breast and made Her boob fall off. He was going to kick My ass for it until I convinced Him She was lying. It amazes Me how People can screw with You and think it's right. I keep reading where some Kid out there is bullied to the point of suicide, damn Kids, knock Your crap off. "You have a lot to live for.", is a saying that has kept Me going at times. I even tried to commit suicide once Myself, I tied My shirt around the bars on the cell door and hung there. Once I started choking I stood up. So I know first hand what it feels like to want to end Your life. I have come to the conclusion that there is nothing I can do about this Richard Pattison Fella. I have no proof that He set up the acid for Me, even thought I know for a fact that He and Bill Rowley did so. And They have the freedom to do whatever They want on the Television it seems too. All I can really hope for is that a semi runs Them down, justice anyway I can get it right? Arrogant Bastards like those win while the slow Folks like Me get rolled over on I understand that, for that is the way of the World. But just once a Loser like Me needs to win. Here's to that. Kelly.

Love Stinks!

   I got one for You here. I told You about Sheila and Nancy both having love in Their eyes, well I have seen it four times now. Once with Nancy and twice with Sheila there was another time to boot. This time is really amazing too. I have done a lot of hitch hiking in My life, and on one trip I was sitting along side of the road when a bus went by. This bus happened to be an old Folks bus. I looked up from where I was sitting and looked into the eyes of an elderly Woman, she had love in Her eyes. I am smiling right now thinking of that one. Some Gal's just have a soft spot for a Kid like Me I guess. The bad part is that I get so shocked by it that I revert into a small Child to tell the truth. One major malfuntion with Me is that I have a stubborn streak too, that is what has came between Me and Sheila. Nancy just blew My mind so bad I ran away and have cried about it ever since. Believe Me when I say, true love does exist, I know I feel it constantly. It hurts like Hell to break a Woman's heart I say with the voice of experience. All of this just proves how naive and innocent I was in My youth. I was the type People could take advantage of and They did just exactly that too. When I realize just how I was set up by My so-called Friends I boil with anger. I insist on saying that Richard Pattison and Bill Rowley are directly the cause I My misery when it comes to My mental problems. They will be damned lucky if They escape with Their lives My Friends, in My opinion what They have done to Me is a killing offence. I admit that I went to California to seek Richard out and do just that, I stopped Myself halfway to Washington to do the same to Bill Rowley. There is'nt a Man alive that would not want the same if He were in My shoes and You know that. I am a simple Child in life Folks and it made it a horrid existence on Earth I say it here and now. I sure as Hell hope the right People read this and I find My justice, but until I do I write. Have a great life Folks, and Kids? STAY THE FUCK OFF OF THE DRUGS GODDAMNITT!!! Really! Sincerely Kelly.

Post 300

   Still here, still trying. If I have'nt proved My honesty yet I don't know what else I can do. Yes I was sent a message of some sort via a Playboy after I walked into a party at the Marriott hotel in Austin Texas. Why else would Johnny Carson be talking about it. I admit I never read the article stating I had walked in to the party, nor did I actually hear Mr. Carson mention My name. It is odd how Johnny stared at the camera after saying "The Weirdo!" when the channel was changed back to His show. He immediately went to commercial and when He came back He started with all this "Mr. Floyd calling Mrs. Floyd." crap. Strange? Yea I'd say. But that is the way People seem to be, I'm talking about Them not Me. I never asked to be changed in any way shape or form Folks. I was happy go lucky as Laura Chiles called Me. Now I am a depressed Kid that is fighting for a chance to bring down a Punk that thinks He's cute. A Hotshot Kid is what Richard Pattison is and has always been. I take a look at this Hefner character and see Him that way too. What a life He lives. What is He 85? And married to a Girl in Her twenties I believe. Jealous? Not even. I would be the happiest Man on the face of the Earth just to be with Nancy or Sheila, straight up. I am dead serious too, these Bastards tried to get Me to huff Ether while They had Me so high I can tell you I saw My life spinning out of control, but I was no way wise enough to realize what was actually happening at the time. I just knew I had better not try any thing like Ether, I know I would be a useless Person as far as thinking goes. It's sad but true, these were My Friends. I surely do hope something comes of all this, I want to see these Bastards sitting in Jail for Their crimes. I will end with that said tonight. Sincerely, Kelly McGill.

Just another blog

   How's it going today? I'm still fightin' Myself. Expect a new boot on the market if We can accomplish Our objective. Today We sent in the paper work, along with $1,000. for a patent. I have My fingers crossed. Once I am finished here I plan on getting a hold of a company in Omaha Nebraska about funding Us. If all goes well I can say for sure I won't be wasting My time writing about My sorry life anymore. For years I have had the dream of opening My own C-stores. I would put Them where I am sure They would make a profit. Plus I am a Carpenter and know how to do custom work, I would love to build a few houses and sell Them. We'll see aye? Other than that I aint gonna say a damn thing about how rotten life has been. I'll C-Ya later, Kelly.

I refuse to quit!

   Yesterday I mentioned My memory, it's still intact it's only when I try to remember exact times of occurances that I get a little fuzzy. But I do know exactly when I was set up with the drugs that started My mind to wander. I feel it may take years to bring down these People, but it is definitely worth it if it works. The reason I am saying this is that here in My hometown of Riverton Wyoming a crime has just been proven. It took place around a month after I left for Austin Texas so I never even heard of it. A Woman and Her two Sons were killed by Her ex-husband in September of 1980. He was sentenced to life in prison without parole Friday. One of the Guys at work went to the hearing because He was a Friend of the Boys when it happened. Murder is worse than what took place in My life, even though I really wish They had of killed Me instead because I would not have suffered the mental trauma I have seen for the past thirty two years. It was a vicious thing to do to My life even though. I seek justice by writing about My screwy life, I sure as Hell hope it works. Have a great day Folks, Kelly McGill.