This still sucks!

   I am here? Why? It seems to do no good at all. But what the Hey, I gotta try right? I can't even get Hugh Hefner to call the Cops on Me, Damn! If I were in Southern Cal right now I'd go knock on the gates of the Mansion again just to piss Him off. It really bothers Me that He sent Me that Playboy and now ignores Me, Hell Hugh I never asked for Your attention Pal. I think I know what that was about. I bet money I was supposed to go back to the Marriott and see some People so They could see what I was like when I was'nt frying on acid. But no, these little Bastards set Me up with enough L.S.D. to fry an Elephant and then gave Me the Playboy. Their damn lucky I did'nt read it too. If I would have read that and it said do not show up doing drugs I would have lost it on Kevin and Scott for a fact. I tell You no lies here Folks. I can understand, as I have said before, that when I say I was handed a Playboy with a story, or whatever it was, about Me is hard to believe. Again I have to say that there is no way on Earth that I would go to these lengths, and I sure as Hell would'nt be bothering Hugh Hefner, if it were a lie. This shit pisses Me off when I think of how I was railroaded by My own Friends. It's just like John Dorral told Me once, "Don't trust Anybody.", wise words. I know there are no redoes in Life, so I am stuck with the Life created by what was done to Me and I deal with it the best I can. People say to forget and forgive, Bullshit! These People deliberately set out to destroy My Life and nearly succeeded with Their task. As I have said if I had done the Ether They asked Me to do I would be a slobbering Imbisile sitting in a mental institute for the rest of My Life. Thank God I had enough sense to know better than to do the junk. I'm out a here, this really does suck. Kelly.

Hell if I know !

   Well? What can I say Today? I sure wish I could win the Lotto, that's a fact. I remember a time when a Guy just asked for a job and was hired, today? They want You to get on the computer and tell Them Your life story, and then go piss in a cup. I can pass a drug test no problem, but if You have one blemish on Your record You might as well panhandle. You wonder why there are so many Homeless out there? They don't have a home for one, People look down on Them. I did get a job while Homeless the first time I went to Santa Monica. I was hired as a Carpenter and once hired asked if I can do anything else. I was put in charge of a shovel digging an 8x8 hole six foot deep. After digging for two days He tells Me that He has a tool for knocking the dirt loose. Then after shoveling it out of the whole for all that time He tells Me He wants it all moved to the dumpster sitting out side of the fence all this time. It would have been a bit easier to throw it into a wheelbarrow the first time. After doing this all week I looked at the fence next to Me and realized He could have brought a backhoe in and dug it in one day and used a Bobcat to move the dirt, no They want You to kill Yourself to save a buck or two. I walked off the job. Myself? When Guys work for Me and I am making money no matter what They get forty hours. I usually buy breakfast and give Them a bonus every week too. You know I'd still be in Texas sub-contracting right now if I could, but it is getting to the point that You wait too much for work to start. I got sick of working enough to get caught up and then waiting for a job to start and winding up so deep in pawn it takes the half the time on the job to catch up again. I finally went to driving a cab. That was'nt a bad job in Killeen, except there are way too many cabs. I was lucky to make $50. a day. Sure when the I.R.S. looks at it You were making a lot according to what is turned in, but You pay for Your own gas cutting it down immensely. Enough for today, I'll C-Ya later, Kelly.

Can Ya blame Me?

   This Richard Pattison is a Squirlly S.O.B. to say the least. He always thought He was the best around. I hate having to talk about it like this, but what else can a Guy do? I'm making it short and sweet Today because I have to go do My brakes. I'll bitch some more later, Kelly.

Something I just have to say.

   You know, We have People that want to see America fall. I Myself will stand till the end for this great Country, but I see what it is that They hate. We have People like this Richard Pattison that like to mess with those They feel are defenseless. Then We have People like this Hugh Hefner, They are allowed to expose the Girls nude like They do. The Female body is an attractive thing when in fine shape, of course. But it really is an abnormal thing to be able to make it rich by exposing it. Of course there are worse items out there like Pornos and even Hustler. At least Hefner does have some taste in what He shows. But as it is it is wrong in reality. People say the buy the magazine for the articles, I believe Them too. I have read quite a few of His articles and They can be enlightening to say the least. Even though I have read quite a few of His cartoons and some are in bad taste because They ridicule People like Myself. I have contacted Hefner so much it is hard to believe I have not been contacted by the Police. I have called Him out, told Him He is not a Man, and called Him a Pervert just to get Him mad enough to do something. Mainly I would love to get these People in court just once, I know for a fact Richard Pattison set Me up and now He's rubbing elbows with the wealthy People in Hollywood and laughing at Me for what I have become. Come to Wyoming Richard! I know He would'nt do such a thing. Richard has'nt been around here much since He ran away from Home at sixteen. His Dad knew how immature He was and would'nt let Him get a drivers license so He did what spoild Children do, He ran away from Home. I almost did once but got caught in the act, I needed to. I told You how My Sister Lois used to scream at Me. I might have told about the day My Mom threw My album across the roo. She said turn it down, I did but not enough for Her. She stormed into the room and said "I told You to turn it down!" and threw it. It was a birthday present from My two older Sisters, more then likely Kay mainly. After She left the room I started packing. Before long She came back in to tell Me She was going somewhere and saw what I was up to. The moral of the story is to be nice to Your Kids Dammit, They hurt inside for a long time after. Kelly.

Mess with that Guy!

   The Cave Dude is what I was called around '95. Tim Pruedomme worked with Us and liked to talk down to Folks. I still have that problem where I hold My temper. Not always as I said before, but when You have to work with Someone You bite Your tongue at times. Now I see "It's so easy a Caveman can do it.". Who knows if all these things are out there just to screw with Me or not, but I know for a fact that there are certain ones that are. I told Jon Pierson to tell Richard to say 'Eeeah!' and it was said on Tyler Perry's show, "Grandpa Kelly says Eeeahh!", is blatantly saying it. They use My name and all. "Kelly! Kelly! Kelly! Ah, I wanted the Magilla Gorilla!" is another example of Their abusive actions. I am dead serious when i say I really want to hurt this Pattison Kid. I have a five year old Nephew, Ethan, He has been diagnosed as Autistic. He even thought that some Kid pushed His older Brother down and tore into Him. They had to pull Him off, the Boy would have beaten Him without stopping Folks. That is the way of Us slower People like Me and Him. I want nothing more than to see justice done. To change the subject. I told You about Our boot holster, well We got a hit on Someone interested in them. A Fort Worth boot maker contacted Me Today and I sent Him pictures of Our home made version. Cross Your fingers. To all You Officers out there, this is a holster sewn directly into the boot on the inside of the leg. A real easy access when needed, better than the ankle type. So keep Your eyes open for Them. Have a great weekend, Kelly.

Here again.

   Dammit all to Hell! I just sent enough tweets to Hugh Hefner that He really should be pissed off about Me. I know for a fact He will not press charges on Me for harassment due to the fact that I speak the truth and They do not want it known. I am an innocent Victim here of a crime that I want to take to the top courts if I can. I will not give up People. I think of this Richard Pattison and get so mad I know for a fact that I would grab Him by the throat and rip it out. I can't help it. When I realize He is out there and getting away with what it is that He and His Partner Bill Rowley did I want blood. It is disgusting how People get away with crimes if They have money, it is truly sickening. I am an honest son of a Bitch if nothing else in My life, and I deserve a chance. I truly hope these Boy's don't approach Me because I would be locked up for Murder. Kelly McGill says so here and now.

This morning.

   Do You want to know what sucks? When You are dreaming of the Woman that loves You and You wake up from the dream. That is what happened this morning. Nancy is on My mind so much I have dreams about Her all the time. I hate life when You wake up alone from such a dream. I am sure You all know what pain feels like, but I doubt if any of You can completely understand the agony of such a dream. I live with a life that is so screwed up I am really surprised I even live. I have to push on though, like I said before it might just be Tomorrow that I win it all. Enough said, this is depressing. Kelly.