Worthless

   I really feel like giving up. I want so bad to just end it all. When I look at My life I am so disgusted it destroys Me. The feelings I have inside at times are near enough to drive a Person to end it all. Kids Today would laugh at that, it;s a wonder this Country survives at all. I know why People of the World hate America, I Myself can't stand the Children here. Everything is a joke to Them. It's about time for Them to get a grip on reality, They are not Adults to find this amusing.

This Kid

   Fuck You! That is exactly how I feel towards Anybody reading this and not trying to help. These People have made it very obvious that They are screwing with My life, yet nothing is done about it. Has America lost all of it's senses? I know better. There are People here with some smarts, let's show it. We allow People to mess with a slow Kid on National Television and the Movies because They are wealthy? Good Grief! Forgive the offensive words I started with, I just need some real help here, Kelly.

Today in America

   I really wonder what it is that is really going on. In Seattle Today there was yet another shooting, why would anyone just walk into a College and open fire? My personal thoughts are that this Obama Person, Whom I do not believe is an American, I stirring up trouble. They want gun control, and if They make People see just how dangerous they are maybe They can take them away. For a fact that will not happen without a fight. What the American People need is for the Military to back the People, without Them We would have a slim chance. When You hear this Obama talk He has great speaking skills, and sounds American. I have met pot runners from Mexico that spoke such perfect english We all said it sounded practiced. I Myself can sound like a Mexican. I am not sure about what I read on the internet, but I have read where He is trying to make it easy for other Countries to become Soldiers, that is not acceptable. I feel He and His People want a race War on American soil, "Destroy Them from within.". People Today are looking at exactly that if We continue. "Population control.", has in the past been used by starting Wars. We have made it too easy to enter America and become a Citizen. In the 1800s We need Immigrants because They were taking this Country from the inhabitants, once They took it They should have slowed the flow. Now We have allowed Our Enemies to roam free here, War is over the horizon no matter what We do now. The one question We need to ask is, Who will We fight? Ourselves? Or the instigators from foreign Lands. God Bless Us all that are on the side of the righteous, Amen.

Perseverance

   It pays to keep trying. A Friend of a Kid We hired showed up Yesterday and again this Morning looking for a job, by 7:30 He was on the payroll. It's like Dad told Me as a Kid, "Keep bugging Them and They'll either tell You to get lost or hire You.", that's exactly how I got on with George, I kept going by the job until He said to show up on Monday. "Mean People suck." is a popular bumper sticker in Austin, and Boy aint it the truth. I deal with Them a lot in the construction field, just like Today. As I have said I am now the Project Manager on the H.V.A.C. remodel We are doing. Along comes a situation where I asked the Electrician if He could move some wires in the way of a beam We will be putting in next week. He tells Me it is'nt in Their bid and calls His Boss. Later He tells Me They have enough in Their budget to go ahead and demo this for Me. No R.F.I.s required. Then this afternoon the companies Project Manager over Me calls and asks Me about it. This Fella is trying to burn Me and get Me in trouble is what it comes down to. I've seen it too many times, My mistake is that I did'nt have Him sign something saying it was a freebie. Come to find out this same Person is known as the type that stirs up crap. The sheet metal Foreman told Me how He pushed Him to the point where He had to cuss Him out real good before He got the point. Myself? I can't get caught doing that, I have to be a Professional about it. The thing is He does'nt know Me at all,and in actuality I am His Boss when It comes down to it. I may not be able to fire Him but I can sure as Hell have Him escorted of the Job by the Police if He gets to that point. It just goes to show You how People are, Mean.

The real Kelly McGill

   I have told You so many times about My honesty, well I got one for You. I am a Criminal at large. I owe the Government. Any law enforcement office that has looked at Me would know I owe the I.R.S. and that is a fact. I worked for cash under the table for years in the eighties. Then once They started paying contract labor I never thought about it. And then I went into contracting, again I never gave it a thought. I at one time owed nearly twenty thousand, now I think it's around seven. In My mind I feel that if I keep on like I am, working for Someone and paying in regularly, I can pay it off after a while. I paid so much in 2000 I was shocked. I was paying $600. a week in Stockton California then. I know for a fact I paid a lot of it off then. I have lived the life of a Kid that did'nt have a clue on where He was going nor what He was doing back then, I was reckless to say the least. All I ask for now is a fair shake, I'm trying to play it straight.

Hardass

    Dammit all, I hate the way Boy's now days want to work, They're too soft. I was asked Who I wanted on the job and asked for John, He might miss a few days but He'll work, then I wound up with a Kid right out of High School, He's sure got a lot to learn. I noticed He went missing for a spell a couple of times, and I had to keep telling Him to do something. He has'nt seen Me ride Someone. I will get a Guy to work, I've done it before. The problem is that most of the Guys have been with this company for a while and are used to being allowed to take it easier than normal, not while I'm in charge. I am a hard working Human Being and I expect People to put in a days work. At the end of the day, and it was'nt an easy one, I showed Them what I am about, I don't have to work all that hard in My position, but I knocked out three room of ceiling grid faster than They expected. Now I am in the position where We are on the Electricians behind. I say this because I want Kids Today to understand that it's hard work and it takes hard People to last ten hours. You Kids that have never had to hustle to earn a living need to get Your asses to work, America is a soft place to a lot of You and We're being overrun just like Us Irish did in the 1800s. "So what?", Men and Women give a damn. I am for a fact just ranting here, but it really is something the American Youth need to hear. Give a damn before We lose this whole land.

9 away from 9000 pageveiws

   9000 pageveiws? I do have to sat to those that are reading this, thanks. At least I am getting My story across to Someone. I just hope it pays off. It's a sad thing when Your Friends turn Their backs on You. I am sure it all started with Sheila. A Freind of Mine Les Tolson started dating Her after We had Our fateful night, "Sheila says You're weird." He told Me. I am sure She told Everyone how I stood with My jaw dropped while I stared at Her from Her toes all the way to Her neck before I said, 'Saved by the bell.' and ran to answer the intercom. As I said, at the age of two I crawled up a ladder and took a spill, I'm pretty sure that messed Me up for life. I have never really had a normal life. I have had so many things happen that as soon as they're through I forgot all about them. Many I remember now, but there are parts of My life I wish I could see. I do not remember the football game in Rock Springs, the fight I had in Virginia or what happened after I saw the blood on Ray Joe Lewis's shirt. I am not like these People that say "I don't recall." to get out of trouble, I just tell You how it is. "It's a tough World.", is a fact.