Takin' names

   Yep I am a Loser.

Hey! I am trying.

   I have been at odds with this crap for too many years. Here I am. I hate Life. I hate You for allowing this childish nonsense that Richard created. And I hate the Fuckers in Our existence that want to take down the innocent Children known as the Americans. I see one thing straight as a crooked arrow is allowed. We started a fight with Saddam. Mr. Bush Sr. did not have full backing of Congress and They said "No!" after He backed out of Kuwait. It was an open wound. "W" as the young Gentleman is affectionately called by His  Peers, We Americans, then "Stepped up to the plate." and hit a Home Run. Today? Hello. I am sitting here watching My sorry ass write this crap and wondering about the whole kit and kaboodle. You? We are in deep shit with the Boneheads We have in America...... Hey, that is how I look at it. The thing is, if They played it out and We fought, Whoever, and not the Military I feel They have a grip on more than We know and understand, these People have had years of seeking ways to destroy Us as a Country, America!!!! I did, and I can say as a documented fact on film, walk into the F.B.I. Headquarters in Austin Texas right after the attack in New York and gave Them a hand written letter that was so thick They were visibly not liking Me bringing to Them. Hey again, I need help. This is a pathetic plea for it I know, but Hey again, I want to see the end of it soon. I hope You will forgive a Kid and His rambling because this Kid has a chance if I find the crack and fall in it. Open that God Damn Crack My Friend, Kelly.

You just never know

   Here I am at My apartment when I have a thought. I pay $20. a week for parking to the Manager of the place. I had bought a bike for thirty and I figured He might just take that for payment. I went over and knocked on His door. When He opened it I knew something was wrong by His actions. His shirt was off and He seemed a little wound up. He was also sweaty. About that time another Fella comes into His living room, He should have got it that I don't like that crap by the look on My face. Silly ass Faggot anyhow. In reality He was one of the last I would have expected to be Gay, dammit I thought the Guy was alright until then. I cannot wait to get this Job thru and go to Billings. I liked what I saw of it last Thanksgiving, a lot of pretty Ladies there that aren't afraid to smile at You, I like that. And it's away from all the silliness here in Seattle. People look at Me funny around the site when I say I am going to Montana. They can't understand what I don't like here, well for one You have way too many screwed up People here. Santa Monica and L.A. have a similar issue, but here it seems intensified. Even the People from L.A. that have visited here I am told hate the traffic, and that's from a So. Cal. resident. There are tents all around when You get over by I-5, in California They would have been moved out. Here it is a Homeless haven it seems. They can have it I say.

I Live? Wow!

I am still a Youngster I cannot deny. I have lived a Life I am still at odds with. I kick Myself hard for never joining the Navy right out of High School like I thought about, I sure as Hell would be a different Person than I have been in My Life. I see this straight as it gets too. I would have never met Sheila and sent Her Home crying. I would have never made Nancy cry either. I know for a fact I would have never wound up in Austin Texas and found My sorry ass walking into a party, and then be offered even more drugs than I should have been doing in the first place when handed a copy of Playboy like I was. This Playboy? Where is it now? I would give most anything to read it just once. A lot happened that year, Reagan was shot and John Lennon was killed, and there was a mysterious death of a Playmate all in the same fall. I am curious to how powerful these People are. I understand I am speculating here, but these are not Choir Boys We're talking about. I have a good hunch that old Hugh really is in the Mob, I remember something way back when about Him being looked into. I just have one thing to say to those type, You aint shit.

My Life so far

   The computer? What an amazing discovery. I am in fact infatuated by it. I have though come to a conclusion, Facebook has a lot of lies at times. I stopped following a few sites already and plan too remove more. Other than that, My Life still sucks. I cry and cry about the pain I feel. Today was harsh. I wonder how much more I can cope with. I am the laughing stock of America and it is well documented. You know when I said I was in Cheyenne and spent four months in county jail for doing nothing? I am the one that found the lies in the reports and pointed it out to the appointed Attorney. These People were supposed to be honest hard workers in the eye of the public, They were nothing but rotten eggs in My opinion. If You think for one second that it is known as an Adult to bother another Human Being You are seriously mistaken. A Man? Yes, I must ask for I am still in My Youth. But I have witnessed enough People on the face of the Earth to say I am wise to the ways of the World. I wish You all a farewell, Kelly.

Pathetic aint I

You would be shocked at how many times I have thought of suicide in My Life. I just keep going because I know in My heart that I have a realistic chance at living a better Life then the one I have known. It's like what I read in a book once, if You quit it very well may have been the day before everything fell into place, not the exact words but the meaning is the same. So here I sit, waiting for My chance in Life to actually be happy. It's things like what I just wrote that hurt inside. A fact is a fact, and it is a fact that in My Life I have actually never been happy. My face is always frowning. My Aunt dies about seven years ago, when I viewed Her at the funeral She was wearing My frown. I know My Mother well, She would have done such a crazy thing. That one alone I understand sounds like a lie, "Who in the Hell would do that at a funeral?", I know. Again, I am not known as a Person that tells fables just to see Peoples reactions or to think I'm smart, I My Friends am an honest soul. Lord, please see it that I find the help I seek and soon. Amen

Give the Fool a chance

Hello out there, how the Hell are Ya? Today We want to talk about fairness. It seems to be lacking in the World as I know it. Fairness would have this Richard Pattison behind bars, I am not seeing that happen. Why? Is My question. I have a rage building up inside of Me that I want to let loose when I think of this Person and what it is that He has done. In reality I have lived My Life known as a "Space Case" and it bothers Me immensely. I would love to run into this Boy someday and kick Him in the teeth and elbow His silly ass so hard He'll never forget it and that is known as a fact of life. I admit I went to Santa Monica in hopes of doing that and worse. I know I could have stabbed Him easily after all the crap He has pulled. Richard, if You do read this I just have this to say, that's a damn good way to get Your ass shit Pal. Kelly McGill here saying so too.