My little World

   In the first damn place, any Kid that told Me that He stood there with His jaw dropped and stared at His future Wife's body, and then three years later stands there and gawks at a Woman's body in the same manner only no slack jaw the second time, I would go out of My way to help. But I seem to have hit a snag on the help part. It is ridiculous to say the least how these Characters act. I am not a Liar nor will I become one either, these People deserve time for Their crimes and that is what I am about. I ask You in the name of humanity please find a way to restore what little dignity I may have had in My Life. I sure need a way out of this misery. Thanks for listening at least, Kelly.

Hello again

    How much longer must I keep this Shit up? Do You want to know something about pain, it hurts. Stating the obvious I know, but it isn't a fun Life. "Well change You Life.", is something People would say, I've tried. I am trying again too, I haven't had a Beer in a week now and My shirts aren't as tight as they were a few weeks back either. At least I am doing that much. "The Lord helps Them that help Themselves.", I guess that means He's helping Richard and Bill because They sure helped Themselves. But hey, They don't recall.

On top of the World

   I know where I can find Richard now, yes on top of the World. I would give My left arm, literally, to be the one that pushed Him into the turd pile that awaits Him at the bottom of His plummet. Do You think I am joking when I say how bad I want these People in the ground?

14013 I believe it said Tonight

   Twelve more readings, cool! Forgive the Childish sarcasm it is uncalled for. My Life? I have but one option but to look at it when I start to type here. Wow! Is really all I can say. Here I am a Heart Broken Fool, a Fool with no choice in the matter because Fools never do have a chance, You're born to it, in a country known as America where People are looking pretty fucked up. I saw as a Child the camps on the side of the freeway out of town where the Hippies lived. The Cops went down Our street a few times saying to stay inside. The Strawberry Festival in Orange County was said to have some serious riots when My Folks worked the ticket booths, as the head People in the office. My Dad said They would have a solid wall of Cops around the trailer They were in and watched it out the window. The sixties in Southern California. Bah! We had some real Bad Ass Bikers as Neighbors once. Later in Life when working there I asked a white Guy if He had heard of Crow Village, "Yea I've heard of Crow.". Would have started Kindergarden around '64 or so, I heard They shoot out the street lights there now, at least that was in the '90s, I heard it from a Freind's Mom I visited there. I'm still surprised I wound up walking out of there without a major fight or two. They tried, but? I told You about Mr. Ray Joe Lewis? I kicked His ass hard. And We were only three. Well? I've looked Him up and in My surprise the Fool is in Salem Oregon. I am now Friends with Him and His Sister Cathy on Facebook. My Sister Kay told Me She had become Friends on there and I said 'huh?!' or something like that and contacted Him immediately. Ray was always there when some kind of shit just happened to come along, and the thing is I did'nt see Ray a lot after We moved from being right next door but He would be there when needed, that is a Friend. In other words, at least I'm an innocent Fuck to write such garbage. Get Me out of this Life is what I pray for to that almighty son of a bitch in the sky, but it aint workin'. You Folks have a great Life and don't worry about Me, I seriously aint sure how much more of the Nancy crap I can deal with, do You understand? My daily ritual is to get up and take a iss and say I hate thie Life, no shit.

14,001 pageveiws

  It gives Me a feeling of accomplishment to some extent when I see that many People have read what I am saying. It doesn't seem to matter though, I'm a poor Slob and these Assholes made it rich. I want Richard Pattison and Bill Rowley to know and understand this here and now, You two are scum and I want You put where You belong, in prison. I am so disgusted with My Life People, it would be so easy to go to Wenachie Washington and put a bullet in the head of this Bill Rowley piece of shit. You willingly went along with an attempt to devastate My mind for Your gain. Anger? I am fighting mad right now. You Boy's had better steer clear of Me for the rest of Your stinking Lives, You two know Me and what I am capable of when it comes to fighting from experience. The thing is, I don't see what You did too Me as fair, so don't expect a fair fight Boy's. I would like nothing better right now when it comes to these two then to be looking down at You lying in a pool of blood. That is exactly how I feel. The only thing that keeps Bill Rowley alive at this point is the fact that I have a tight enough grip on Myself to prevent Me form walking up to You and slitting You miserable throat. And yes that is what I really want to do. These People set out to screw with My life and mind and successfully accomplished Their goal, and now I am being mocked and laughed at by these Children? Bill do You understand fully that I am less than two hundred miles from Your exact location? This deed They have pulled off is a killing offense. Somebody had better take this shit seriously because I am.

Do You even care?

   The pain I live with? It is a seriously screwed up Life that has no chance in Hell of ever finding the right path in Life. Here I am, an innocent Victim. And it seems a care I find not. People in America would go to great lengths to protest the death of an African Lion, which would stock You and eat You, but let Someone try to help a Kid such as I? I see a bleak future for America with the mentality We are seeing in present day.

Hey

    As I write this I am 53 page views from hitting the 14,000 mark. I have to say maybe Someone is reading this. I still at a loss and how it is that this Richard Pattison is still out there doing what He does. I do hope I get a chance at bringing His sorry ass down. I am too damn honest I know and understand that, but I want these People so bad it's what I have to do. Help Me please, Kelly.