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I am sickened by all of this crap I am seeing in this Country. You actually allow this Richard Pattison to walk all over Me, and Kid's find it amusing? There are People raising cane about a Lion that was shot? Good God Man it's an Animal that would hunt You down and eat You. Bruce Jenner is now Caitlin? And receiving awards for it too? All I am is a slightly retarded Kid that was set up for a fall, that should be in the media instead, but no I am not a priority. We are in deep shit in America because the People of Today don't see any wrong with something like what is going on in My Life, way too many Kid's out there for a fact. Even back in the 60s, if the crap that is going on, speaking of the Terrorist and the likes, it would have came to blood shed already. But no, We have to be sensitive. These People You're walking on egg shells around don't give a rats ass about You and want to kill You, but let's be nice to Them. God! Hello out there, You had better start to look at everything in an eye that isn't closed to reality. All I want is justice, and You would rather cry over a damn animal then assist Me. You have to wonder about the reasoning of the Terrorist, why do You want to kill such innocent People as the Americans? Hell just leave 'em be They'll destroy Themselves. Have a wonderful fucking day, Kelly McGill.

This suks

Hell I even tell You that I want blood and nothing.

Murder one

   If You actually think that I am not mad enough to go to Wenachie Washington and shoot one William Ogden Rowley right in the head You had better look again. They purposely set out to alter My thinking, and succeeded too. I am in no way the same Person I was when it all started. My train of thought was one that didn't even know that People play Their silly game. I was a natural in the manner in which I saw everyday life. I was set upon by My so called Friends and I hate the thought of that truly. I will insist on My word being better than any of those involved because I am the one speaking the truth. I am really at a loss when I see how They can do whatever They please and nothing gets done about it. It is sickening to say the least.

I try

I really wonder if I am even getting My point across here. Good God this Life sucks bad. I doubt if a single one of You out there truly understands the pain I live with daily. It is a mess of a Life that's for damn sure.

Hello again

    I have said it time and time again, I hate doing this crap. Just signing in I start getting depressed. And then I get pissed off at what it is about. I am a Victim! Give Me My chance at these People. Do You completely understand what I am saying here? In a Country that brags about how great They are I see a lot of not so great things. Richard Pattison is just a small item in this category, but dammit He is a mean Bastard that needs taken. I know this Boy pretty damn good Folks. I can see Him easily manipulating People. Him and His Pal Bill Rowley are nothing but Frauds. They both know exactly what I am about. Neither one of Them can honestly call Me a Liar and that is a fact. I want so bad to go over the pass and go to Wenachie and take this Bill Rowley apart. My problem is this, I would kill the Mother Fucker and that is a fact. When I see how I was taken advantage of and left with a spinning mind I want blood. I say this so those in authority that are watching this can see My real dilemma. People, what They have done to My Life is a killing offense. I guarantee that if it had been done to one of My Family I would have already paid Mr. Rowley a visit. I refuse to fight Him fair too, He doesn't deserve a fighting chance over this. He would be damn lucky if I don't put Him in His grave. In other words Somebody had better act quick before it's too late.

I am not a Fraud

   Hello again. My plight in Life is not an easy one, I suffer from irreversible brain damage. I stated before that as a two year old I took a fall. There would be a medical record in Lander Wyoming from around 1962 or '63, I know it was in the fall or late summer because there was no snow on the ground yet. I know in My heart that that alone has caused some serious issues in My life, like not realizing what is happening right in front of My face.  Sheila and Nancy both are proof of that. I as a Human Being suck. My life is screwed up and I see now how it took place. As I have said I was asked to join a Band and didn't even know a guitar chord, that in My eyes proves the guilt of Richard Pattison Bill Rowley and Their Friends. When I landed in Riverton Wyoming this last time I was therefor one reason, I even told My Mom this, to shed blood. I knew if I let these People know though that They were to smart to show up where I am and that They know about this that I write too. It had been close to seven years since I had been there and really had no inclination of even going there until I thought I might just run into one of Their Pals there and show Him what I thought about Their dirty little trick. My reasoning being is because I really don't want to be around My Family. My Parents say things just to mess with Me Themselves. I was told some far fetched crap too. I won't go into that at this time though because I am a bit bothered by it. Please Somebody out there follow up on this for Me.

Crap!!!

   Well? When is Richard Pattison going to go on trial? This Scoundrel is deserving a swift kick in the ass, if not worse places. I just cannot understand how it is that nothing is being done.

Welcome to My nightmare

   A nightmare is exactly what I have been living for over three decades. I tell You, if People would have left this Kid alone I would have amounted to something. Instead I am a drunken Fool. Shoulda I believe I mentioned is  song about just that, but hey Nobody cares.

The Kid is a mess by God.

   Hell I have been crying for over four years now, that alone has Me disturbed. Yes, I am disturbed. I have accosted Women too. That I heard was an insult to Women way back when, now We have dictionaries. Yep. Accosting means approaching. Kid's, when a Woman looks Your way, dicifer the look first and then act accordingly. Me? Hell Son I done told You about a Fool Kid, get it straight Child. A fact is a Fact My Friend, and I see them clearer everyday. Hello, a Citizen. Kelly.

Turmoil

   In this great place known as America, We watch Our lives being disrupted. Yesterday In Tennessee there was another attack by Our Enemies. I was in Killeen when Nadal shot those Soldiers, I was off duty at the time as a Cab Driver there. I know exactly where the building is that this took place. People are yelling now to arm the Men and Women on base and I can't agree more. There is one major draw back, the Military has been infiltrated by the Enemies of America. I have not felt easy about that since I first found out how many Foreigners there are in the forces. I also see that the Men in charge are not silly little Kids playing games, You can bet Your ass They see the danger right in front of Them at the present and have a plan for when the shit does hit the fan at full speed. I said it before that a very large explosion went off a little after three am in Killeen, it sent five shock waves through My part of town. A Soldiers cry for help I was told once by a Marine. There was a War feeling about the town after that, and the fear in the eyes was plain to see. I do not like being here in Seattle because of the situation America is in either. I also said that the trade towers attack made Me write a long letter and hand deliver it to the F.B.I. in Austin, I know They still have it too. But just the other day I let it out on Facebook how I see Our vulnerability. A planned attack in the right manner would cripple this Country leaving the survivors with little chance of making it. We have cargo ships daily coming into Our ports, and I feel this is possible My Friends. Let's say They were to put a nuclear bomb in a few of those containers They bring in, then You have it set up to have them all go off at the same time in every major port in America? Scary. Enough said!

Give Me a break

   I really don't like it when People tell Me that I look sad. I finally found a bar in My area that is close to normal. I walk in and order a beer and some Gal buys it for Me and tells Me it's because I look sad, I really can't stand that. Then one of Her Friends gives Me one of Her birthday cupcakes and She too tells Me that I look sad. Hell I completely understand that I look sad because I am sad dammit. I sure as Hell don't want Someone to remind Me of it. It pisses Me off so bad that I will refuse to even try to talk to Anyone that says that kind of crap to Me. I know They're trying to be nice in Their minds, but really if You see Someone down like that leave Them alone. I am a stubborn Bastard that's for damn sure.

F-in' Heimer

   You want to know just how much of a sad sack I really am? Not enough that I am writing about My screwy life I guess. I was such a Pansie My Sister used to pin Me down. That in itself shows how I was treated. My oldest Sister said I beat the Girls up, if one of Them could pin Me down I am sure all four of Them would have kicked My ass easy. But hey, it's not about that. It's about some worthless piece of shit getting away with doing the dastardly deeds He has been doing for years. This Richard Pattison is no way a normal Human Folks, You take those kind of People down in the real World. Sincerely this dumbass, Kelly.

Monday again

   All I can ask for is for something to really happen. I am discouraged by it all, but I have to continue with My struggle. Someone please take these little Kids down for Their crimes, seriously.

Here I sit

   How in the Hell are You? Me? Well I'm still kickin'. What a Bastard of a Life Folks.

Shitty day aye?

  I hope to Hell that Karma catches up to these Assholes.

Today's World

   I have to say that it's a pretty sorry World when People would go out of Their way to help an Animal before They would lift a finger to set My life straight. Seriously a messed up Planet We are living upon.

Breaking news

  The headlines Today should read "Man found shot to death for being a Prick." but no that will not happen. For one I don't know where Richard Pattison actually is, and another the papers seem too lie a lot these days. It would more likely say, Richard Pattison, a Man well liked by His Peers was found with a fatal bullet wound to His head. Even President Obama has lowered the flag to half mass for this senseless murder. Richard is survived by numerous Friends that grieve His sudden passing and hope the Person or Persons involved are found and brought to justice. His closest Friends remember Him as a caring young Man that didn't have an Enemy in the World. Such a great loss to the World, and such a tragic ending. The reason being is that America is failing at being honest. We have a culture that allows such atrocities to happen and not give a damn. Hell most of Today's Children find it overly amusing. It' is an ugly situation We face in America due to this sour attitude.

Dammit all

I am so disgusted right now, I didn't have a clue what I was going to write but once I started this is what You get. I really am seeing it now, I don't have a chance in Hell. Christ on crutches!

One day at a time

   Give Me a break! They allow Richard Pattison to be a big time winner? He is a farse to say the least. I face up to My life daily Folks, if I were lying I would have quit this crap by now. Come on!

No smart Ass remarks

   God I hurt inside. "Don't hold it in it'll eat You up.". As I grow older the pain for this Woman intensifies immensely. I hurt Her and that tears Me apart inside. I said I cried for a year, during that time I thought I had a chance at finding Her. I put out a classified in the Austin American Statesman that read, Nancy where are You? I've come to My senses. My heart jumped when it was answered by a Gal, She was looking for a Female. I went to Austin and went through the old adds in the Library, I found one from that same time that read, "Broken hearted Woman wanting to dance His memory away.", this is extremely painful to put in writing here too. It's an unfair World I am the last Person that needs to be reminded of that. I still get the looks from Gals is the main reason I even live. For a Guy that weighs 235 and should be at 185 I do get Women's attention, to My surprise still. I have messed up teeth and I have lost a lot of hair to boot. On the other hand I have a good set of arms and My chest isn't all that small, I can see the definition in My abs as well. I drink too much beer for one thing, but I walk a lot and practice My speed of hand and foot. I may be a basket case, but dammit I have potential still at My age to make something out of it. Hell, I didn't ask to be a Dummy, nor did I inquire any acid back when it all started. Kelly McGill here saying have a grand fourth, and be careful out there, We have way too many People wanting to cause problems in Your life.

DoYou really care?

   I am at a crossroads here, where to go? But it seems People just don't give a Rat's Ass for a slow witted Kid anyhow. Damn!

Honery cuss anyhow

   I just quit My job, but the Boss talked Me into staying a while longer. I even told Him I had planned on quitting when the framing was done already. He talks to Me like I don't have a clue what I'm doing. He has been asking Me about the fire sprinkler crew and telling Me to get Them on the site for three weeks now, We don't even have a full floor for Them to finish so I don't want to bring Them out to partially finish it and leave. When He said I have to have some proof that I'm even talking to Them He asked what proof do I have, I told Him My word is My proof. He then started to say something about how My word isn't any good and I politely told Him how I felt about that and a few other things. His Brother and Him both try to treat You as a lesser Human Being in My eye. My first day on the job I saw how His Brother is, He had made a mistake and argued with the Superintendent on the job then. He told Him He doesn't fix things. Wow. Every Carpenter will make mistakes, some will get You canned quick too, but that is the first time I have heard one say He doesn't fix things. That just tells You how I feel about it. I told You before I was interested in Montana, so Billings is where I'm headed soon. If it weren't for the Owners of the building I am working on I would have already been gone, They're great Guys and I wouldn't want to stab Them in the back by leaving when the job is just now really starting to roll. One thing I will not be called, besides a Liar, is a Back Stabber, My name is not Rowley nor Pattison either one, I just won't do it.

Here We go again

   What the Fuck Chuck? Why do I have to plead with People to take down a piece of garbage? These People don't deserve to be high rollers like They carry on to be. Insanity is rewarded I see.