Will I ever win?

   Here I go again. I am the first one to admit to being a Loser, not many would say it out loud. I lost Sheila twice, I broke Nancy's heart, I was shocked to the point of being pissed at a Gal Who is the owner of the most beautiful face You'll ever see, I really can't count without really looking hard at it how many heartbreaks I have suffered. I remember one I may not have mentioned though. I was in Deep Ellum Dallas when a Gal walks up and takes My beer away from Me and asks, "Are You always this dull?". I gave Her a cold look but She still drug Me out onto the dance floor. Once there She asked Me, "Can You dance Nasty?", well I had in the mood quick. So quick I believe Her Friends thought I had drugged Her, They escorted Her away saying She had a phone call. One of Them was giving Me a serious dirty look as They left. Hell I again was dumbfounded, I was an innocent Fool with the help of others. Life sucks aye? I write this tonight just so You can see what I live with in My life, has Anyone seen a more deserving Kid? I feel I deserve a break in life and that is exactly what I seek here. I may never achieve such a break but a Fellas gotta try right? That is just like one of My songs, 'Better try', My vocals suck on this one but it would rock Your socks off. You know I'm actually feeling pretty good tonight, which is another song of Mine 'Yesterday & Today' that is exactly what it's all about, feeling like crap one day and on top of the World the next. Speaking of heart breaks, these Gals in My past keep this Kid going forward, I never knew such Women could feel for a sorry ass Kid like Me and now that I realize this I look forward to meeting that certain Someone in My future, I just hope too Hell She does'nt shock Me too much. With that I will end. Prayers and good wishes to You all, Kelly.

Still Pissed Off!

   Yea I am as mad as a Person can be about all of this crap. I insist that I am the Victim here. Everyone of You have to admit that if it was You or one of Your Children You would want justice. Justice is exactly what I seek, not sympathy. I look at the World with an open mind but I do not accept the things that have taken place nor the crap going on today. Forgive My ranting, but They really tick a Fella off when They are allowed to do whatever They want. I understand that when They are looked at They have clean records, but so does Everybody in the World until They are convicted of Their first crime. These People are not the Angels They pretend to be Folks, I admit I am no Saint but I do not go out of way to screw with innocent People. I hope You totally understand that there will be no talking if and when I see these Boys again, I just hope to Hell I don't go to Prison for taking a life. This comes from a real Person and My name is Kelly McGill. Thank You for at least reading this, and bless the day these Boys are brought to justice. Kelly.

Veiwed 4601 times now

  How is Your evening going? Good I hope. I'm still kicking is about all I can say. You know, it bothers Me that I can say that I really want to shoot some Kid for messing My life up and then screw with Me the way He does, but I feel it is the only way to achieve the attention I need in order to bring this Richard Pattison Fella down. I tell no lies Folks, seriously. My life is a strange one even to Me. I break hearts due to Their shocking beauty, and that My Friends is a bother to My Life. If I had it to live over I can say for a fact My Life would be different than the one I know now for sure. If You have'nt noticed I don't write near as much as I did when this first started, I find it harder and harder to find something to say. I used to write down stuff so I would have new things to talk about but I can't find the time at work to do so now. I understand what a lot of Folks are more than likely saying about this, "That's just tough, They did'nt make Him do the drugs.", no but They did make sure an innocent slow Boy was set up with enough drugs to spin His life out. I hope to Hell this works and They get taken down. Sincerely, Kelly McGill.

Again I write

   What more can a Guy do short of shooting some Fool for messing with His life? I want these People so bad I have been doing this for over two years, for what? All I have accomplished is to prove I am a Fool and cause Myself excruiating pain in the process. I tell no lies when I say I am messed with and that these People started out by screwing My life up. I again say that I am not the mess They wanted, but I am a mess of a life. All I can say is that They would be wise to avoid Me at all costs. I may not be insane but I do have a knack for losing it on Assholes, and I would definitely start the fight. Kelly.

The McGill Clan!

  I just had to add this one tonight. I told You about having to watch the Family eat, Dad would have slipped Me some food if He was there. How about this one, "The Prison farm allows Rapist too run free and rape Women and the Town let's Them do so!", I confronted Mom and She denied saying it, I contacted the U.S. Marshals when drunk telling Them this, as I say I was drunk. I do believe My Folks wee contacted about the Playboy and told these Assholes to screw with Him. A truth serum? They all would deny! Kelly!

Kelly McGill Here!

  Hey! I am real! Yes My name is Kelly McGill and I am the Victim! It does'nt seem to matter though, these Fools are rich, They win. All I have going for Me is that I would demand a truth serum, Them? Hey I deserve a chance to win. In the first place I am not a Molester, a Rapist, a Murderer or anything that I Myself would hold down. These People are guilty of heinous crimes. Huh? I sit here and suffer? Proof? Again I demand a truth serum, in the least an attempt too prove My case! But no, I am the butt of Their jokes, reality! Madd? You had better believe it! I tell no tells when I say I went to Hollywood to Kill Richard Pattison. I at least grab My senses before I made it to Washington for I would have taken Bill Rowley's life My Friends. Again I say that I say this in order to achieve the attention of the Police, but the facts are that I would gladly have taken Their lives. I understand that I am putting Myself in jeopardy of being brought down but I can only tell the truth. Thus far I seem too be going nowhere, but still I try. "Richard Pattison, Killeen Texas!", Kelly! Kelly! Kelly! Ah I wanted the MaGilla Gorilla!", "Grandpa Kelly says Eeeah!", Hey? How much can a Guy take?  A normal Man would have hunted these People down, I tried, and killed Them. Give a Guy a break, Kelly.

Bullcorn!

  I really cannot believe that these People are allowed to mess with My life and get away with it. I understand that it takes time, if it is even being looked at, but come on.

Helpless in Wyoming

   I just wrote a few paragraphs here and then deleted Them, the reason being is that I really don't want to cry about My screwy life. So I'm just gonna say Hello and thanks for reading. I'll feel more like writing later, Kelly.

A continuance

   Yesterday I was talking about how Moses was written about in the bible, today I want to say something about that that may change the World. If You believe everything in the Bible You are a Naive Child, Period. I can see straight here as I am writing for the first time, these other religions see what it says as insanity. God wrote this! It was written in stone by the Lords hand! Knutts! I say it here and now! No Man on Earth would believe such nonsense. It may have come to a Person in a dream and He wrote it down, reffering to the bible, but I will not believe that all of a sudden a book appeared. What I stated before was that I asked the Lord to guide My hand and I wrote the commandments that I told You. In the first place Child molestation and Rape should have been included in the first place. I believe that a Person needs to filter through what is written in te Bible and use common sense too see the whole truth. I hear People saying now as They read this, "This Guy is acting Holy.", Hey Mother Fucker I aint. I used the dirty words to enhance My meaning. The Devil? I told Pastor Robert, a Homeless Man that turned to religion, that I asked the Lord to rid Me of these Demons in My life, I instantly heard these words in My mind, and I do not exaggerate it was as soon as I asked it that I heard it too, the words were, "I am vial!", spooked Me enough to talk to Him about it. I whole heartedly believe in the LOrd, but I doubt many of the words in the bible, People exaggerate Folks. Myself? Again I will demand the truth serum. Kelly.

America 2013

   What in the Hell is the matter with You People? Gays are allowed to adopt Children? Boy that would screw a Kids mind up. Now I read where They are talking about allowing People to have sex with Minors? Holy Fucking Shit, We've gone mad! They say Muslims allow Men to marry teenagers, get Them out of this Country now! They let Gay People parade in the streets here, insanity. It's pretty fucked up when They are given more respect than a Kid that lives alone, Bullcrap. You know I like the Cities for the reason that there are more opportunities to meet Women, but I'd much rather live in Wyoming in this day and age. I have'nt heard of any Muslims around here, We have Our Gays, but They don't parade around about it. People here are a tough lot, You have to be to survive the winters, They won't put up with Bullshit like I am talking. I fear that the end is near for this great land, Our leaders are letting things take place that should be stopped. I wrote about the Commandments I wrote, I can actually visualize what Moses saw, He witnessed a bunch of Kids out of control, America is exactly what He was seeing then only a different time. History has a habit of repeating itself and I feel We are watching that exact thing take place. Lately here in Wyoming We have had a few Earthquakes, the last two near Yellowstone, maybe God's about to teach Us what He's about. If You don't know, there is lava flowing where You can see it up there, a super volcano They call it is supposed to blow in the future, I wonder if the future is getting closer? Like I told My Dad when We talked about it today, the sad thing is that the normal People like We have here are going to be wiped off the face of the World while the Crazies out there in Hollywood and other places will more then likely survive. The Scientist blame the last time it blew too cause the ice age, maybe We'll all die anyways? my point is that We have to stop the nonsense now before it is too late, and I fear it just may be too late. I hope I get through to the right Persons on this subject because We are in despair as a whole in this Country. Sincerely Kelly McGill.

Watching My own back

   The title has a lot of meaning to Me, it means I don't trust My own Family, let Me explain. It all starts when I had My second birthday, that is My first memory. I was given a Puppy by My Dads Parents. I don't remember ever playing with it, but one day I was told to go feed My Dog. He was bigger than the day He was given to Me and tried to attack Me. I set His food down when He hit the end of His chain and went back inside. I asked Dad about Him years later and He told Me, "I took Him hunting and when He saw the gun He ran off.", really? I remember quite a few things back then, like the Girl next door grabbing My arm and biting it, crawling up the ladder that was leaning against the fence, and Dad bringing home a Deer He said He "Poached", I also remember the blood red aire about Him when He said this too, so I would remember playing with My Puppy. I am one fast S.O.B. because of this I know, when I am jumped at I move seriously faster then any normal Human Being on Earth, ask Bill Rowley. I told You about having to watch the Family eat while I went without, how about the time They took My toy gun away from Me and put it on the top shelf of the hall closet. These are very cruel People to say the least. The reason I am talking about this is because of the patent I am working on, I would not put it past Them to let Me get My hopes up and then crush My dreams. I understand that this is hard to believe, but They are a fucked up bunch. I would'nt doubt it if Bill Rowley told Them about the Playboy and They said to keep it, They are that Goofy. I really do hope They have a little bit of sense and leave Me alone, I already have big plans that include the Family if it's a hit. Well enough said for tonight, I'll gab some more later, Kelly.

Richard Pattison

   I know for a fact that I am on the wrong end of this Pattison's jokes here, I can prove it too. Even today I saw something that I guarantee comes from this Boy. There is a commercial out now where a Father is with His Child, a big Baby. Richard is the kind of Person that would do such a thing, He is amused with such things. "Don't be a smelly belly.", was a commercial on the radio in Louisiana when I was down there. If I remember right I told You about My first fight, He knows about it too. Ray Joe Lewis the Kid next door started calling Me Kelly Belly, I told Him it was'nt mature and He screamed it at Me and charged Me, I snap kicked Him in the nose. If You think for a second that I would make this junk up You are seriously mistaken My Friends, even though it seems to odd to be true. As far as the big Baby part goes, that is what Rock and Rollers call the new Kid. In My eye these People in Rock are nothing but a bunch of Children, listen to their music and look at how They live, case proven. I really am glad I never made it in the business, I would hate to be known as one of Them. "Sex, Drugs, and Rock & Roll!", is Their moto, that in itself shows how irresponsible They are. There are songs on the radio now singing about, "The Girls come easy and the drugs are cheap.", and it's allowed on the air. The only reason I listen to it is because around here You only get a few stations, in My truck I have put in a Kenwood C.D. player so I can listen to music with a little more class. I have even changed My taste back to what I grew up on, George Jones, Merle Haggard and the likes. I tell You for a fact that I wish I had never heard of Rock because of what it has done to My life. An innocent Gullible Kid slipped drugs and set up to hear music saying You'll be a Star sent Me into a World of My own, I know I can't have it, but I want My old mind back. Tough luck I know. I face up to the fact that I am destined to be where I am today. All I can ask for is that a Man reads this and acts upon it, thus bringing these Boys down. With that said I have to quit for the night, have a good evening My Friends, Kelly.

A lot of pissed off People

   I am reading about the march on Washington D.C. today, I back these Folks whole heartedly. As long as We have these types of People We will prevail over this Obama character. I read one story where older Women had been clubbed, it might get violent if so. I have also read where Obama requested a nuclear attack in S. Carolina, I wonder what I should believe here. If this is the truth He has opened a can of worms that He will not be able to put the lid back onto. If this Person in office has any sense He would resign and leave America before He is drug out into the streets and shot. He has gone too far and We all can see it. I believe in changing America Myself, this should be obvious by My tweets. But He is dragging Us into a War against Ourselves. "To protect and serve,", is the oath Officers take, prove it. Stop this maddness before People start killing. Islam is a Cowardly group and should be extracted from America as soon as possible, Obama with Them. He as supposedly fired top Military officials for not following His orders, this Fella is a Fool, You cannot achieve Your mission against the People if You get the ones that would back You  pissed off. This President of Ours is a master manipulator I see this, do not follow His orders or We will have a serious fight on Our hands. In the first place the Government allows People from other Countries to over flow Our borders, and Now We have to pay for it. They are a screwy bunch is all I can say. If We do not stop the insanity of the White House We will fall as a Country I fear. I for one will stand up for the rights of the American People. Sincerely, Kelly John McGill.

Still Kickin'

   Yep, I'm still here. I got a bitch today that America as a whole should be interested in, Obamacare. From what I read all They have to do is walk into Your house and find beer in Your refridgerator under this law and They can call You a bad Parent and take Your Kids. That in My opinion is insanity. I know not to believe everything You here, I just have to voice My opinion on this is all. I understand Their thinking too, if You have alcohol within the reach of Children it is wrong. The same thing goes for drugs too, only different, Kids should not be around drugs what so ever. Hell Nobody should in reality. On Facebook People seem angry enough to take it to the streets, I just hope the grip of sanity remains strong because it seems to be weakening with every passing day. Power is what I feel is the problem with Our President, He refuses to bend when it comes to this shut down. Another thing about the Government, where and when and how are They ever going to pay back all the money They owe? I doubt if They even plan on doing so. Bad business for sure. I told My Dad one of the reasons I left the Cities is They're too damn dangerous to live in now. I just had that to say tonight Folks, I sure as Hell hope everything works out for Us. I know We have undesirables from other lands here to kill People, so War on Our soil is inevitable, let's just not go crazy and start killing each other, pass it on. Kelly

Hell on Earth

   I really cannot believe that Richard Pattison is being allowed to get away with what He has done, and now He is getting away with screwing with My life? Seriously, this is maddness. I will be amazed if I don't shoot these Boys. "Money talks, Bullshit walks!", Ya, He's some Punk They accepted and I am the Outcast. I can gaurantee that when I get My patent and do have money in My life I will go to Jail, I made My mind up that I will get a charge of assault and battery on Me, because I will kick Bill Rowley in the face without asking if He wants to fight. In the first place He nor His Partner Richard deserve a fighting chance. I have told His Pal Dana Peterson I want to, so I know this Boy in Washington already knows how I feel here. You out there reading this know in Your hearts that if it were You the anger would be hard to control, many of You might have already killed Him for His role in this crime. I sure do hope that I don't beat the Boy to death though, it would be too easy to lose complete control on the Jerk, I mean Hell, I even went out of My way to help this Boy out when ever He was in need. Well enough said, I hate even talking about this crap, it's just that I feel I can bring Them to justice in the long run. You Folks enjoy You weekend will Ya? Kelly.

Here I type again

   Dang it gets tough to come up with an interesting title sometimes. Today? I really have'nt much to say, so I guess I'll go over a few things for the new Followers, I am up to one hundred and twenty for the first time. Yes I am an honest Person just trying His damndest to have a few Boys brought down for what They have done to My life and what They are doing today. I know it sounds made up, I would be skeptical if reading this too, but I really am the Victim of a bizarre crime. This crime started in 1980 when I was set up with drugs and Rock and Roll. This music was intended to make a Person believe that They were to be a Star, it is known as 2112 by a Canadian band named Rush. In the first place I had never done any acid before and had never even thought about doing any either. That was set up by My old Pal Bill Rowley, even though I have no proof. What tells Me for a fact that He did so was that right after this night I was told that Richard Pattison wanted Me in a Band with Them, They would teach Me to play the Bass Guitar. I am what is known as a slightly retarded Person, it runs in the Family. It was'nt too long after that when I had enough of how My Life was going in Riverton Wyoming and I moved to Austin Texas. That is where everything really takes a turn for the worse. For some odd reason the name Kevin came to mind when I thought about asking Someone to go with Me. Kevin was a Friend of Mr. Rowleys, it was'nt long after We arrived in Austin that We met a Kid named Scott Carrol. Kevin and Scott kept asking Me to do acid with Them, I mentioned I was'nt too bright to begin with. On one night while tripping I crashed a Party at the Marriott Hotel, even with My long hair and flip flops on I was accepted to a point. I mentioned to a Gal there that I was doing acid. I don't recall if I mentioned the Man sitting behind Her while We talked, I kept looking over at Him and all He did was sit there and smile at Me with the friendliest smile I have seen. Before the night was over there were very few People left at the Party and I was talking to a Woman while We looking out the window, that was when I lost control of My senses, Hell I actually thought the Party was for Me then. What I said to Her was, 'It was only a few months ago when I was sleeping on that Job and now Here I am.". That was when I knew I had better leave. On My to the door I was acosted by a Gentleman there, He was in a Karate stance and asked Me, "Do You want to fight?". I smiled and said no and shook His hand and left. The very next weekend I again was asked if I wanted to do some more acid, well when I was starting to get a real good high going Kevin and Scott walked in to where I was sitting and handed Me a copy of Playboy that read, "Stoned Hippy carries along Hallucenagens!", really. I refused to even read the part about that night but I can say for a fact I read every page except, even the ads caught My mind. There was a joke in there that really sent My mind to spinning, there was a sex education class going on and this Fella asks, "What's all this have to do with getting laid?", in the next section He is writing on the blackboard over and over, "I am an Idiot! I am an Idiot!". that alone screwed with My life bad. Noy long after that Bill Rowley and Richard Pattison showed up in Austin, naturally They were never around when the drugs were set up, this is when They started trying to Bully Me. I was never known as a Guy that would stand up for Myself and They knew that. It took Bill yelling at Me and charging Me to break His guitar over His head, nothing like the commercial either. And to conclude, now I am screwed with on Television, Huh! That My Friends is highly irregular to say the least. "Kelly! Kelly! Kelly!", was yelled at Me while playing the guitar in My camp in Austin, then Homer Simpson is looking His Wife Marge and yells those same words. Craig Furguson says out loud while I was living in Killeen Texas, "Richard Pattison, Killeen Texas!", that one pisses Me off, rub it in You piece of dirt. I left that Playboy lying on the floor of My room after I clobbered Bill Rowley and everything else I could'nt carry and hitched hiked to California with thirty seven cents in My pocket because I felt so bad, that is how I am, I look back now and I should have thrown the Boy out of My apartment and stayed. To finish for tonight all I have to say is that if I had done the drugs They set up on Saturday, I would have been committed to an asylum. Sincerely Kelly John McGill.

A day in America

   I just have to say I am glad to see the Amber alert back in business, Who in the Hell would stop such a thing? Insanity! I lived in Euless Texas when Amber was taken, I kept My eyes open for a Mexican in a black pickup. This stuff is already out of hand. Not allowing Veterans to visit a monument that They are being honored with is absurd. I feel They want a War with the People, population control. Be very careful too, if They were overrun They would blow ths land sky high I feel, the worse case senario. I just hope to Hell Someone in power grabs the reins and takes control. They allowed this Country to be easy to enter, and now We have to pay? I said it before, I moved out of the cities for fear of what I have been seeing. If You drive onto an apartment job in Texas You'll see what I mean, the hate is in the eyes of the Mexicans. I have been a framing Superintendent, You have to force these Boys to do the job right, but if You go to another job with the same People working and it's ran by a Mexican They do pretty work without a fuss. And that My Friends is how it has become. I sure as Hell would rather be making the money I used to before going to jail, now I practically have to starve down there, I went to driving a cab due to the fact. I ask for the Lords help in this matter, but I feel it is in vain. I salute those that can change the World. I hope Tomorrow will bring Us a brighter day. Kelly.

Men and Mice

   "It separates the Men from the Boys.", hits home. A Coward is what I have been all of My life, but I have My moments where I am the brave one too. "All work and no play makes Johnny a dull Boy.", also hits home here, for that is My life. When I was in My twenties I was a different Person for a fact. There was a time when I made love every night, that came to an abrupt end when the realization of what I had done to Nancy hit Me, and I mean hard. Neither one of Us could do a damn thing about Our lives being hurt, it tears My heart out to see Her standing the crying and Me looking at Her in disbelief. She fell in love with Me? Holy crap is all I really can say now. Obsession is what She became to Me, there is'nt a morning that goes by that when I wake up I don't think of Her, and many a nights I have cried Myself to sleep. Pathetic? Yes I have to say so. I mention this tonight in order for People to see what an innocent Kid I really am, still. I have said it before how painful this can be to Me by writing this, it hurts, but I have to say it. My life is a hard Son of a Bitch and that My Friends is all I can say about it. I am seeking something that I feel is unachievable, justice, but at the same time I know in My heart that it might just work. I cannot help but be a Foll, for that is what I am. It is natures course for Me to be what I have become when it comes to Love, but it was by the hands of My fellow Humans on Earth that I became a mess of a life. I admit that I am not so messed up that I cannot live a better life, but still I am what is known as a fouled up life. My thinking changed the minute I heard the music from Rush. I am still angered over these People taking it upon Themselves to attempt to change My life. There was nothing innocent about it either in My opinion, and when the Playboy was handed to Me it was clearly brutality, for They waited until I was good and high before it was given to Me. On that night My life was changed forever, and not for the better. There is'nt a Man alive that would not want to see these People brought to justice, and by the grace of God it will be done. Thank You sincerely for reading this, and have Yourselves the grandest lives You can. Kelly McGill.

My Life!

   Holy Crap! I walked into a party and was accepted in society, for real. The thing People do not get is that I told Them that I worked on the jobsite I was looking at when I started tripping hard. If I get the words right here I'll be amazed, "It was only a few months ago when I was working on that Job there, and now Here I am.". I said this while looking out of the window of the top floor of the Marriott. Art Capehart had to have been contacted within the week, Art was the Boss. Other then that? Huh? What does that mean? My Life? Get a grip on reality! I try! Like tonight when I am sitting in a Bar and an older Gentleman comes over and buys Me a beer, I heard about these places, it is supposed to have been a Gay Bar that has changed it's clientle. The next thing I know is that He's talking crap to a Fella next to Him, I'd seen Him around town so I went along and let it be. After a while I was buzzed pretty good and started feeling My oates, this Gentleman was'nt as Gentlemanly as He sounds. He started picking a fight with this Fella next to Him, the only reason I could decifer was due to His long hair. After a while I even told Him, while telling Him about My Youth, He was screwing up. A Kid next to Us thought it funny, when I do as I do and told Him Men don't laugh, He wanted to fight. He went outside and I never saw Him again. After that I was ticked about the old fart causing problems, which I told Him I understood. I thought He wanted to teach the Youth They were Kids, He was just a Drunk I see now, but at the time I was into the mood. By the time I left the Bar My words over My shoulder were, "If You follow Me outside We'll see where this goes!", and that My Freinds is not Kelly McGill. Like I say, the night I left the Party I was approached about fighting, I told Him no I'd rather walk away. Hell, I'm an admitted Coward Folks, but tonight? People push just like this Guy, He saw an adolesent in His eyes and wanted to fight, ignorance at it's best. Other then that Fuck the World and Kiss My Ass, Not really, but Hey maybe that'll work aye? Kelly John McGill. p.s. I had a few.

Obama?

   I really am puzzled at how this President carries out His orders. From following People in the World on Facebook I am awaken to the fact that the 28th Amendment exists, I have to look it up Myself. But first I wanted to raise a little cane here. We all know He and His fellow Politicians were paid today, of course. But what about the working class in the Government, Knutts. What bothers Me is that Churches are exempt from this Obama care, Why? If one pays They all pay I say. What's going to happen is that Churches will be flooded with new Members to avoid this health care problem. The joke of the day is that We all should join the Muslims, Who are They going to kill after that? I know this is wrong to talk like I about this, in the first place it is irresponsible and immature, but I have to say something, this Obama is leading Us into a War on American soil. I have said enough, I have to walk away from it here. God bless the U.S.A., and Lord watch over Us for We are Fools, Kelly McGill.