What to do next?

   The title says it all. Man what does a Guy have to do to bring these animals down. I play no games with Peoples lifes, and yet I am being played with. I state facts and nothing else. I do have to retract from a page a long time back, that's how I have to be, I said I used to pass gas to piss Jon Pierson off I believe, no that would be John Lucas. Now that's one hell of a thing to say, but it's the truth. My nickname was Smilin' Smelly, due to the fact that I had a grin after words. Well I guess I aint the nicest Person to do so, but I never harmed Anybody without just cause, and I sure as Hell never fried Somebodys brain for Them. Look People I say the truth when I say I walked into a party at the Marriot hotel on 290 in Austin Texas in 1980, soon afterwards I was presented a copy of Playboy with the headlines, "Stoned Hippy carries along hallucenagens.", I never went seeking the acid I took on the night of that party, nor did I ask for any when I was handed the Playboy, but I sure in the Hell was given it. I know what They're saying, that I bought it Myself, yes I did. The way it was offered to Me was in a way that They would look innocent, "Kelly, Ya wanta buy some acid?". When a Kid is'nt to bright to begin with, and has issues with peer pressure, He is apt to accept His friends when They do such a thing. Remember, They gave Me fourway windowpane, a black molly, and offered Me ether, Anybody would have screwed Thier life up that night. As I recall Kevin Childers and Scott Carrol were tripping to, I never caught on to the fact that They did'nt do as much as Me. I never even questiond why. You cannot tell Me that Richard Pattison and Bill Rowley were'nt contacted before I was given said acid, as soon as They showed up in Texas They started acting tough towards Me too, I say with conviction that the whole thing was Thier plan, Bill even said that Richard wanted Me in the band. You know I feel I am spinning My wheels here Folks, I don't have a prayer in Hell in finding justice. Stolen property is what I would have Them arrested for if I could prove it, that being the only thing I believe is possible to press charges on Them for. If You could get Hugh Hefner to talk You would have the proof, Thier names were'nt even know to the People that sent the Playboy. Good God this sounds made up does'nt it? Put Me to the test, Give Me a lie detector test, I will demand it. Again, Kids out there that are curious about drugs, don't screw Your life up. Look at how many People are in prison, or on the streets because of them, and then ask Yourselves if it's worth it. Be real about it, Kelly.

Here We go again

   To start with I have to go back to the very first blog. I stated that I am not insane and that this is not a game. I will admit that I have been close to insanity. I understand that makes no sense to those of You that have never been there, but My life has changed dramatically in the past years. I told You how I was in Dallas, I would get so mad at a passing car doing something wrong that I would try My damdest to fight with Them. That in reality is not the normal Me. I was bullied as I have said before, the Kids really wanted to try Me but I would walk away from it. What turned Me around was when I moved back to Wyoming around seven years ago, I was "Mad at the World" still, but being here calmed Me down a bit. I still have an anger issue, but nothing like in the past. If Anybody should be angry it is this Person right here typing, with all of the crap thats happened to Me who on this Planet could blame Me? I'll be the first one to admit to anything I might have done in My life, if You can't tell by now. If You knew how My mind really works now You too would hate these People Folks, I seriously cannot concentrate at work, I have a problem remembering the words to My songs, and I can't get it out of My mind what these Assholes did to My life. Who would beleive that I was offered a good life just for being a nice Kid? But it happened. I hope and pray everyday that this works and I take Them down for what They did to Me, I say again, I never asked for any stinking acid. In the first place, I sure as Hell would not have said give Me enough acid to screw My life up, and then hand Me the Playboy so I can be blown away. Thanks for spending the time to read this. I feel I may have a real chance if only I don't give up on life first. Sincerely, Kelly McGill

post 150

   Dammitt Man, I am closing in on blog 200, I'll make it yet. How's it going in Your World? Mine? I dare not say. Today I just want to say that I'm still here. Enjoy Your evening, and thanks for reading. Kelly

Almost a Winner

   Man, when I look at what actually happened just due to the fact that I walked into a party I am amazed. I was offered a life I believe. As I said before I was so high before I was even given that Playboy that I did'nt even want to read about Myself. I know in My heart that I was being offered a new life. But My Pals had other ideas. I want to say right here that if anyone of them are reading this, that They really should become honest Men. I would'nt doubt it a bit if Thier actually calling Themselves Grownups now. Well Ya can't be a liar and a Scoundrel and still call Yourself an Adult in the eyes of the real wise People. I feel, as I have stated before, that this writing is for not. But it does help a soul to let it out. As the saying goes, "Don't hold it inside, it will eat You alive.". I lie to You not when I speak of My existance on a planet known as Earth, I have never had a nice life, and when I was given the chance to live a good life, I was brutally and viciously set up with enough drugs to set My mind spinning. I know People are saying, "They did'nt force Him to do the acid.", no but They did have enough on hand to alter the way My mind actually works. And that My Friends is what makes Me so angry that I want to take Them down. As I have said before, I cannot kill these People. But at the same time I must say that I am very capable of it due to the fact that I would lose it on these People. God help Us all if these are the kind of People that recieve the support of the World. Amen

1805 Pageviews?

   I must be doing something right to have People even reading this crud. A normal blog would sound like this I imagine, Me and My Dad went up to the mountains to go fishing today. I brought the only one back, We both had one get away. Then We stopped in Dubois and I bought Him lunch. Yes that is what happened today, but it won't bring these Characters down. "Unlucky at love.", Yep, that's Me. Hell I'm unlucky at everything, but love? My first Girlfriend did'nt even know that She was. I hung around with this Kid in the third grade that had a Girlfriend. I hung around with Them and Her friend. I thought She was Mine. The next school year He up and moves. Me? I fell right in beside Patty Waters, until Her brother Kelly told Me to leave Her alone. My first heartbreak. In junior High I had a young Lady that kept looking at Me, I feel it was Her name that scared Me off, Fleckenstein. Janice if You are reading this I say with all honesty that I had no idea that You were so pretty. I looked at an old yearbook years later and kicked Myself. The first Girl I took out was stolen by Troy Herrera. I said something stupid to the next Gal. And Laura Chiles came next. Then Sheila. I was starting to get the hang of meeting Women until a very dark night, this is seriously close to thrity years ago exactly, I met Nancy in the Dallas nightclub in Austin Texas near the end of August 1982. There is not a morning that I awaken that I do not think of Her either. So maybe You can see, if not understand, My dilema in life. I have a real problem with the opposite sex due to Nancy. Plus My old Pals tried to destroy My life so bad that I would not be able to function as a normal Human Being, and Yes, They almost succeeded. I leave You with this, let justice work for the poor Person I am, and not for the rich and powerful. Sincerely, Kelly McGill

Hey!

   Thou shalt not Molest! Thou shalt not Rape, Thou shalt not be a Drunkard! Touh shalt respect those less fortunate than Thyself, Thou shalt listen to the wise, Thou shalt not indulge into the usage of drugs, that is not a completion of what I have written and sent to a church. I was living in Santa Monica  and listening to Pastor Robert at Loveland churh, when I said, '"Lord, guide My hand.", I wrote down these words People. I am not what You would call a religious fanatic, but I know He's there. I won't say I crawled to the top of a mountain or such, I just asked the lord to guide My hand. Anybody want to argue with what it is I say here? I still have the original copy, it still is not proof though. Hey, I just want to see the right things done in this World. I say if Sandusky was innocent He should hang, but how many years later was He charged? This is not such a drastic case as molestation, but I live with a destroyed life due to Thier greed. Hang 'em! That is My opinion. Before I kill Someone.

Kelly?

  Damn it Man I tell the truth, bring Them to justice now, Kelly.

A half inch off?

   I blogged about messing up at work, I even mentioned being unable to read My tape right. Well I got one for Ya. We just finished sheetrocking a garage I framed, You will not believe how many mindfarts I had on this one wall. First off, I forgot to lay it out for the exterior plywood to break. Then I put the header too high. To continue, I made a total of seven different mistakes in framing that one ten foot wall. Then We went to sheetrock it yesterday, I laid out the door cutout from the wrong end right off the bat. Jesus F-in' Christ, I made ten mistakes total People on one wall. That is known as pathetic in a Carpenters World. But Hey, that is what it has been like for Me for over thirty years now, no concentration what so ever. I sincerely want to just give up trying Folks, but refuse to give in to temptation. As I have said before, I really don't want to cry about how My life has been, I just want thease Assholes put where They belong for doing what They did to My slow life. Can You blame a Guy for trying? In realitiy, the only thing I have going for Me is that even at the age of fifty two, I can still bust My ass. In the name of the heavens above, Lord bring these Fellas to justice, Amen. Kelly

Here I am again

   As I told You from the beginning, this is not a game. I am not totally insane, but crazy enough to tell My life story. Heck, if I were to mention it to the right People They'd more than likely put Me away. And I am the innocent one here. I have but one clear choice in My life, as I mentioned before it is near impossible for Me find a new love, I don't feel as if I am worthy, I have to take these Boys down. If I could just get Someone to do so I would sue the crap out of Them if nothing else. Man, I can't even get People to send Me a fricking dollar. Even in the streets, when I saw Someone in worse shape then Myself I'd give 'em a buck. I aint asking You for anything now, People would think I was attempting a scam if I kept that up. It's just that I really am to the point in My life that I just want to give up life. If You were to break the heart of a Woman in love with You You would understand exactly what it is that I feel daily, pain. Doing that to Nancy, in itself, is all the proof I need to show just how slow a Kid I am. And hey, if a Person is a little slow, in actuality They are retarded. I have to say here that I in no way enjoy what I am doing here, Who in the Hell wants to tell People that They are known as a Dumbass? I'll be speaking of this later, Kelly.

Hopeless.

   Ya, I am a lost cause it seems. Man My best freind Bill Rowley sided with His Pal Richard Pattison and tried to totally destroy My life. And now here I am doing My damndest to bring Them down. I mean it when I say it took Me thirty goddamn years to understand what the hell They did to Me. I never would have figured it out either if it were'nt for Them messing with My life the way They do. "Richard Pattison, Killeen Texas!", hell Man, I was living in Killeen at that very moment, right down the street from the Eagle mart on Florence Rd. I can prove through school records that I went to high school with this Prick too. You People do not realize the frustration involved, when You see these Guys living it up while I suffer? Anger due to the point that I want to find this Asshole Pattison and break His body slowly. Starting with a knee or shin so He can't run and hide. I let Everybody know exactly where I was in Santa Monica for the purpose of wanting Richard to try to confront Me. Richard if You're reading this, Boy You aint got the guts to come and see Me. Hey Mother Fucker, I am in Riverton Wyoming for a reason Pal. You will very lucky to get away from Me with Your miserable life Son. You are what is know as a peice of Shit, come find Me Punk. Sincerely, Kelly John McGill

Damn!

  I really oughta quit blogging after a few beers, what I said last night was out of hand. Really, all I want here is justice for the crime these People committed against Me. If I happen to enlighten lives along the way, so much the better. Look, I am seriously a victim, I cannot say enough about how angered I am by all of this. Anger? I have had some real issues too. People around Dallas Texas might remember Me. I was so mad at the World, some S.O.B. would do something wrong on the highway and I would catch up to Him (never a Woman) and literally yell at them trying to get them to fight, true story. As I have stated, I was the one that would walk away from a fight. Ask anyone I grew up with. Now? I do refrain. What You have here is a Person that hates Children Folks. Since I was a small Child I could see the difference between Grown Adults and Kids, really. I was the one that stood back and watched, and listened. I learned things like, "That's Girlish.", or, "Can't You tell? The Boy's love struck.". Hey, I care , but I want to give up on the whole thing, really. I have followers? That in itself to Me is astonishing. Wow! To those that do believe in what I am about, take 'em down, please. Kelly McGill.

Post aqiu

 Hey Man! You Folks are looking at a real war My Freind. Tonite, I was sitting in Ralphs, a local bar, and the locals, Indians, were in there. I was carrying on a converstaion with one when a Friend of sorts behind Me started mocking what We were saying. My words straight out were, " I'm about to fight a Friend here.", or something to that affect, My last plan was to back down. Hey, My Dad told Me recently that My Greatgrandfather was a horse thief, We were around during the civil war as a Captian, We've been there and done that. My theory is that Custer had killed Black Kettles People and the Souix said, "Give Us Custer, Or all out war My Friend!". How many troops were displaced? Reality in the eyes of the enemy. Who knows how much in the hell the Government says is the truth. I can at least say that in other countries I would be brought to a firing sqaud for even mentioning such a thing, Holy Crap! This aint such a bad land to live in after all! Kelly. Oh Yea, Fuck Hugh!

A waste of My time

   Yes I feel it may just be a waste of My time to try and find justice. I do speak the truth People, I am a victim. I just can't believe that this Richard Pattison is allowed to do all of this, Hey They do screw with Me on the T.V. Folks. That in itself sounds screwed up, but it is known as a fact of life. Richard is damn lucky I don't know where He is, I hate the life I live now due to Thier actions, and now They're rich, and I suffer from the crime They committed. What the Hell huh? The Boy's can even brag about how They beat Me out of everything and get away with it. You want to know My exact feelings at this moment, despair, gloom, hatred. This sucks.