Still here dammit

I have been doing this crud for over five years now. I have just begun, really
During this time I lived in a tent in Santa Monica, spent four months in Jail in Cheyenne Wyoming for doing nothing, and messed My shoulder up in a head on collision in Washington
Gauranteed, if I knew exactly where Richard Pattison was for sure I would go there. My plan would not be to be nice for a fact
"Nice Guys finish last so no more Mister nice Guy" I am sick of being walked on by these People. It would be easy to commit murder, yes I say so
I was tempted to take Bill Rowley's life but I would never get to see Richard fall. That is exactly how I feel too
My innocence was an easy thing to see back then and I was used. In fact that is always how They were
I beg of You People with the power to destroy these People to do so. I am deserving

Hey!

I am an honest Son of a Bitch. So honest it may hurt My chances
I am the one that will help You when in need. I have been Homeless and gave money to other Homeless Folk because They looked in worse shape, yes I have done
I do not want to drag You down by saying My Life sucks, I have to
I have but few avenues in Life and this is one
If I got off My lazy ads I could publish a book or two I am confident too
I am told My music is worth.money as well, I tried but not hard enough
What I want most of all is to bring Richard Pattinson down and take everything He owns away
Richard was the Kid that set it up, even though there is no proof. He is guilty

Kelly?

I
My Father and I
Just told the 80 year old how it has been
I tell the Youth in the Family about drugs too. Stay away, I've  done 'em
If only I help My own
I'd ruther help Your'n
Keep Kids away from the junk by being honest Folks. "I fried Me brain"
Dumbass here

Again I write

I am a lost Person. This will make no sense to those that have never been. Lost? It is a feeling, a sense that says to You that You do not know where to turn. Without Nancy I have wandered aimlessly through life, just hoping Somebody of Her class comes along. Along the way I have messed up too. I have had other chances but always screwed up, Hell Sheila fell in love again
I am a Kid at 56, rough
"I demand respect" even as a lost  Kid
I can't even get a dollar from Folks. That is not what this is about, but I did ask when I started. I feel like asking again but will not
You Folks have a wonderful evening, Kelly

Hey World!!?

WTF????
Salton  Sea?  Toxic dust bowl?
Plus the Crazies trying to kill Us? And We  allow Kids such as Richard to run amuk? Hello? Rough Life, give 'em Hell!
The Yellowstone  Caldera? We seek daily more ways to ruin Ourselves too
Zika and WNV are mosquito born? Chemical Warfare!
Welcome to America where I drew back for one thing, seen the Cities Myself
Let's change the World. Kids like Richard need to fall. The World period hates a Child such as these, We are at War Sir! They want to kill Americans as They have proved
I really was destroyed by these Kids, "His words My words"?

Kelly again

McGill again sounds like Gilligan again
It's like, "Fuck with the Kid". Men do nothing of the sort, fact
Yes I am a Child named Kelly that Richard Pattison has screwed with 1980
Right after I met the Kid He bummed ride
I wrote a song, I  was in a state of pain and gave it to Bill and was soon contacted

A new day

Even if I hit the lottery I would pursue justice, only then I could compete
These Assholes did do what I say. And this fucking  with My life now  anglers Me to a point I know I would take justice into My own hands

Damn phones

I had a smart phone for a year before I cracked the screen. Dammit

I see now

I just realized something. I play the Publishers Clearing House Sweepstakes, I will never win.
They take one look at Your record and throw Your ass to the streets
How many People do Cocaine in Their offices? I have an offense from nearly twenty years ago. I have'nt even been around the junk for almost ten years if not over. I could'nt tell You when I walked away from it
My Sister had a worse problem than I, She never got caught so She'd be OK in the eyes of the righteous. Me? Hell I am tossed aside as always
Discrimination is not only against Blacks Folks. I see it all the time
Retarded Kids are set aside too
Exspungment cost $99 I just need to get it done. A letter to the Governor of Texas could give Me a full pardon too. I just need to stay out of trouble and it's easy. Five years after My time I could have has that, I got out in '99
It makes no difference to some "Criminal!" is all They see

America

The way I see it is that Everyone just follows along in elections
The 3rd party may have tbe best Man for President but will never win because We all vote Democrat and Republican
Hillary was tossed off Watergate and investigated by the FBI and Trump is a spoiled brat that mocks retarded People. I cannot see Either in office
I plan on studying the other Candidates and I think it wise

Crappy Life

I was out of it when I attempted suicide, a full 5th of Jack and sleeping pills will do that, and put it on Facebook
I took some flack for it Tonite. Have been since I came back to Wyoming. My Sister flipped when I did that and couldn't reach Me and put it out that I was lost. I get told not to get lost again
Even My Boss showed Me My picture She put out looking for Me. That is hard to deal with. Hell I feel like ending this Charade right now
Why continue with a Life People don't really want around
I have never really been accepted because I am slow. Fuck this shit hurts

Yes, this is My life

I just stated the title to the book I attempted to publish
That was before I understood how I destroyed My Life. I had not a clue on how acid was sent to Me at that time, nor how acid rock was mysteriously placed where it was readily available
I completely understand how it all happened now. It became clear after "Richard Pattison, Killeen Texas" and "Marge! Marge! Marge! Or was that Kelly! Kelly! Kelly! Ah, I wanted the Magilla Gorilla"
People these Kids set out to alter My thoughts. Once Hugh Hefner tried to approach Me They went all out
Rush 2112 made Me an Artist. I am copyrighted as proof. I now have newer songs I feel compare too
If You have a humane soul do something please. I went out Tonite and caught a fair buzz hoping to run into an Asshole, even with a pinched nerve from My wreck I will fight

Help Me please

I really hate the title but I had to write it
All I want is to live decent but it seems out of reach
As I say I am usually the Foreman so I am not near as bad as They set out to make Me. But dammit I have lived as a messed up Life for over thirty years. That alone is a killing offense, Their screwing with Me aggravates things
I do carry a loaded .44 and am a good shot. I would prefer breaking a neck but I am at a point in Life

Insanity?

People say that if You continually repeat Yourself hoping for the same outcome You are insane. Well I must be knutts because I do exactly that
Richard Pattison fried My brain and is screwing with Me and I want Him in Prison. I will say it over and over too
"He fried Your brain?" yes I was set up with drugs and Rock & Roll before being asked to join a Band, without being a Musician too. "We'll teach You how to play" was Bill Rowley's reply when I said I can't play
Yes, there was a Party in Austin, yes I was handed a Playboy mentioning said Party, and yes I kept being offered LSD, a serious amount too
I was so innocent I walked away from true love two years later. Does this clarify things? I might commit murder in four days Folks
There are 500 registered guests showing up here in Wyoming on Friday. I am going looking for trouble, fact

Breaker Breaker one nine

Back in the mid seventies You had to register Your CB handle. Moms was the Truckers Wife, I am Superman
I have heard Truckers Wife used in shows
This makes Me think Pattison just listened a lot

Hello again

I mentioned a couple of times some Girl named Sam
I guarantee They claimed I did something to Her
A Kid named Ralph McMillan brought the Brat by and asked if They could use My bed. It was just like everytime I was asked if I wsnted drugs, I guess so was My reply
Now? Hell no I would say
He left the 15 year old Girl there naked in My bed. Statutory rape if the Cops even came by for Me and I did nothing at that time
Soon Mr. Rowley shows up and ran into the bedroom when I told Him She was in there
Afterwards He too left Her there naked. Serious Cads
After a while I said what the Hell and went in. The light was well enough that She knew Who it was. After a minute She said "You're not Bill" and was no longer wanting Me in the room. Fishy at the least
She did spend the night in My bed alone and unbotherered.             These People really did some strange things

I try hard too

I am one of the hardest Workers You will find. But I am getting tired
I did'nt fit in the Union which I saw coming, but I am still able to run crews
All I have in life is an ability to work My ass off. Life sucks

Kelly McGill

I live an honest Life. If a I were not I would rob Banks, or steal from My Freinds. But yet I cannot
Do You completely understand what it is that I have been saying? I am a Victim of a crime inwhich I am so pissed off about I could easily kill a Person, easily. Justice seems out of reach because Richard is a Slickster is all

Half assed life

My life may suck but at least I am honest
Read the other day about better to be poor with integrity than be rich and crooked, something to that effect
I am a born Loser, but yet I am not a Rapist, Molester or anything that disturbing
I am an Idiot is all and that is a fact
Richard Pattison will not come to Wyoming but I bet Bill Rowley does in July. That could be the end for Him because I will go after Him one way or another

Justice?

It seems I am never going to beat these Assholes
I was just a Kid looking for a good time, instead I am a lousy life. You really cannot allow this Richard Pattison to go free, seriously
When I see the damage done to My life and He thinks it is funny I get angry just like You Yourselves would
I am actually afraid of what I will do

Saved

I woke up in the middle of the night with a pile of bile next to the bed or I would have died
The type of Person I am I had to clean it up. Even while walking on shaky legs
Saved? Why? What reason do I have to go on?
I am a life that hates seeing the sunrise. Yet I must live on

I'm Wierd I know

I may be a different Bloak, but that gives Nobody the right to screw with My Life. And that My Freinds is a fact
My Family is a bit retarded along with a fall as a small Child I was destined to fail
I am still able to conduct Myself on the jobsite in such a manner that I constantly become the Foteman. Have done since 23 as I have said. But Damn I can fuck shit up. I would not allow a Dipshit like Me to run things because I know Myself, really
I still have a struggle with a clouded mind, thanks Richard. Arrogant Bastard

Miserable Kid

I can say I am a miserable Son of a Bitch
Life is a turd all the time really. Hell I can't even kill Myself right

Crooked Kids anyways

I at times go out of My way to be nice that's just Me. But these People went out of Their way to mess with Me
When I think of the way I was set up ny these People I don't kid around about the anger involved
There is the biggest party Riverton Wyoming has ever seen coming here in July. Already 350 People have signed up and 500 are expected. That is huge for a small town. I sure as Hell hope Bill Rowley shows, Richard Pattison I know won't. Richard is too good for this little town.
I will take You down Bill if You show Son

Dammit all

I lose and My Pals are living it up
Sure as Hell don't need Enemies
I bug High Hefner because I can too, I beg Them to take Me on. They don't want the publicity though.
I am too honest to rob so I stay a working Stiff
Gutless Bastards known as My Freinds. Damn that sucks
Like I said before Johnny Carson talked about Me
That proves I was at the party at the Marriott in Austin Texas
Hell there is all sorts of proof I am the one They joke about on national, World, television. But Nobody seems to help. I told Hefner He has no integrity. No honor comes from messing with a slow Kid and that is a fact

Another lost Kid

If Someone told Me They attempted killing Themselves I would want to help
I really was shaky for three days. I kept feeling like I was going to fall down. I really had to keep Myself from doing so too

Straight up Kelly McGill

With all the crap going on in America I have to say this
I don't give a Rat's ass if You are Gay, Black or what. As long as You leave People be and don't go around killing People You are the kind I don't need to bother.
But if You are out to take Lives You deserve to die
We as a whole are in deep shit and People had better figure that out
Radical Muslims, or whatever You may call Yourselves, are nothing but trash
I personally want to eradicate Your type from the Planet
I have been messed with all My life and understand People are mean
If We allow Them to walk all over Us like We have been doing We will no longer be America. It is a dangerous situation, face up to the real threat
Threat Hell, They are not threatening, They are killing

How do I win?

I cannot get out of My mind how this Person Richard Pattison gets away with this crap
I am a Human Being and do not deserve the abuse I have been dealt
It is straight up bull
The only way I'll win is hitting the lottery

56

Seatbelts whoop Your ass. My shoulder is still sore, and the strength in My arm is weakened
I miss that truck really. This Keep aint shit compared. First thing I would buy is another pickup if I hit the lotto. Then a decent place to live. After that I would ne ready for a Woman in My life
Until then I rough it. $18 an hour is'nt much even around here. Nut it is a steady job
Tonight I just want to say I am trying is about it
Have Uou ever heard anything so pathetic as what I just wrote? Boring as it gets
Well, Fuck Hugh!

Hopeless and helpless

Dammit I feel I have not a smowballs chance in Hell
These People are guilty and rubbing it in My face

Kelly McGill

I figured out a way to get back to My blog on My phone finally.
I mentioned a Kid named Sam,  short for Samantha. She was a Freind of Rowley's
A Kid named Ralph McMillan brought Her by I said. He asked if They could use My bed. The Boy I was I let Them. As I said Rowley showed up. When I said Sam was in there, Ralph left Her there, He took off into the bedroom
This Girl was around daily for over a month, I was to polite to run Her off like I should of. I never even thought about trying to get Her in bed either. Not until that night
The reason I mention this is something came to mind lately
I finally said what the heck Everyone else did, so I went in
There was enough light to see Who it was crawling into bed is the part I finally figured out, this month it came to Me
After She accepted Me We went about fooling around and then She said "You're not Bill!" and rolled over. It was only a few seconds afyer that when I got dressed and left the room.
She slept there all night while I slept on the couch too. The next day was the last time She came by to bother Me. She laid on My couch and had Her legs on Me. I just sat there. Pretty soon She got up and left. She stopped at the door and thanked Me
I never realized how I was messed with and it bothers Me immensely
Thank You for reading about a slow Kid is all I can say
Goodnight