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   I had to write Tonight because I am out of Here. Seattle is'nt quite the place for Me. For one thing it's getting pretty sorry in America. I have seen the videos of Kids beating People up for nothing, these are everyone of them Blacks on White People. I see that I will not give You a chance to defend Yourselves I will be trying to hurt Everyone of You. John Lucas said a few years back, "If the Blacks ever went off We're in deep shit.". I had a few run ins actually with a couple of black Boy's here. I was walking out of a Bar and He, as Kid's do, tried to bump Me. I'm 55 years old, I know how Children think to a point. He then ssid something but I just ignored Him and walked on. The same thing I did when another came around the corner and We were'nt too far away from each other. After I passed He started saying something I could tell was directed towards Me. I learned in the 8th grade to walk away until cornered and then come out like an Animal from My Karate classes. Which leads Me to say this about William Ogden Rowley Whom resides in Wenachie Washington less than 200 miles from My current location, Bill You are damn lucky I can resist the temptation to pay You a visit. It would start as just an ass beating, and I am very capable of it You know from experience Bill, but I really am afraid I would just shoot the piece of Shit. I have these feelings inside of Me when I think of Nancy that it's eating Me up inside. I wrote this whole thing Tonight because of what it did to Me. I was racked with pain, and as usual You want to die right then. I have shed more tears in M y Life I am convinced No Man before has ever cried as much as I. They roll down My face as I write. I can't even concentrate right now. I'm leaving this as wrote. Good night.

Dip shit here

   I really have to say, this sucks. My Life? Wow! Well as of Monday I am out of here. I cannot stand working for a Person that is wealthy but when it is time to pay His Subs holds Their money. We should have had the framing done two weeks ago but the Framer has lost Men, more then likely on another job. When His Men didn't get paid They jumped ship. Now We are plugging along at a snails pace. I knew it would be a disaster the day I was given the keys to everything. Derek, the Boss when I arrived had already put in His notice . On His last day He told Me all about how this Company has a bad reputation for not paying Their bills at some places. I cannot just order material at some places, it has to be paid right then. That is something I want no part of, I have seen it too many times before. I already quit once here but was talked into staying, but the framing is near enough that I am out of here. Perfect timing too, Elk season for bow Hunters starts on the 1st of September. So My next transmission will probably be to Wyoming. Have a great one Folks, Kelly.

My little World

   In the first damn place, any Kid that told Me that He stood there with His jaw dropped and stared at His future Wife's body, and then three years later stands there and gawks at a Woman's body in the same manner only no slack jaw the second time, I would go out of My way to help. But I seem to have hit a snag on the help part. It is ridiculous to say the least how these Characters act. I am not a Liar nor will I become one either, these People deserve time for Their crimes and that is what I am about. I ask You in the name of humanity please find a way to restore what little dignity I may have had in My Life. I sure need a way out of this misery. Thanks for listening at least, Kelly.

Hello again

    How much longer must I keep this Shit up? Do You want to know something about pain, it hurts. Stating the obvious I know, but it isn't a fun Life. "Well change You Life.", is something People would say, I've tried. I am trying again too, I haven't had a Beer in a week now and My shirts aren't as tight as they were a few weeks back either. At least I am doing that much. "The Lord helps Them that help Themselves.", I guess that means He's helping Richard and Bill because They sure helped Themselves. But hey, They don't recall.

On top of the World

   I know where I can find Richard now, yes on top of the World. I would give My left arm, literally, to be the one that pushed Him into the turd pile that awaits Him at the bottom of His plummet. Do You think I am joking when I say how bad I want these People in the ground?

14013 I believe it said Tonight

   Twelve more readings, cool! Forgive the Childish sarcasm it is uncalled for. My Life? I have but one option but to look at it when I start to type here. Wow! Is really all I can say. Here I am a Heart Broken Fool, a Fool with no choice in the matter because Fools never do have a chance, You're born to it, in a country known as America where People are looking pretty fucked up. I saw as a Child the camps on the side of the freeway out of town where the Hippies lived. The Cops went down Our street a few times saying to stay inside. The Strawberry Festival in Orange County was said to have some serious riots when My Folks worked the ticket booths, as the head People in the office. My Dad said They would have a solid wall of Cops around the trailer They were in and watched it out the window. The sixties in Southern California. Bah! We had some real Bad Ass Bikers as Neighbors once. Later in Life when working there I asked a white Guy if He had heard of Crow Village, "Yea I've heard of Crow.". Would have started Kindergarden around '64 or so, I heard They shoot out the street lights there now, at least that was in the '90s, I heard it from a Freind's Mom I visited there. I'm still surprised I wound up walking out of there without a major fight or two. They tried, but? I told You about Mr. Ray Joe Lewis? I kicked His ass hard. And We were only three. Well? I've looked Him up and in My surprise the Fool is in Salem Oregon. I am now Friends with Him and His Sister Cathy on Facebook. My Sister Kay told Me She had become Friends on there and I said 'huh?!' or something like that and contacted Him immediately. Ray was always there when some kind of shit just happened to come along, and the thing is I did'nt see Ray a lot after We moved from being right next door but He would be there when needed, that is a Friend. In other words, at least I'm an innocent Fuck to write such garbage. Get Me out of this Life is what I pray for to that almighty son of a bitch in the sky, but it aint workin'. You Folks have a great Life and don't worry about Me, I seriously aint sure how much more of the Nancy crap I can deal with, do You understand? My daily ritual is to get up and take a iss and say I hate thie Life, no shit.

14,001 pageveiws

  It gives Me a feeling of accomplishment to some extent when I see that many People have read what I am saying. It doesn't seem to matter though, I'm a poor Slob and these Assholes made it rich. I want Richard Pattison and Bill Rowley to know and understand this here and now, You two are scum and I want You put where You belong, in prison. I am so disgusted with My Life People, it would be so easy to go to Wenachie Washington and put a bullet in the head of this Bill Rowley piece of shit. You willingly went along with an attempt to devastate My mind for Your gain. Anger? I am fighting mad right now. You Boy's had better steer clear of Me for the rest of Your stinking Lives, You two know Me and what I am capable of when it comes to fighting from experience. The thing is, I don't see what You did too Me as fair, so don't expect a fair fight Boy's. I would like nothing better right now when it comes to these two then to be looking down at You lying in a pool of blood. That is exactly how I feel. The only thing that keeps Bill Rowley alive at this point is the fact that I have a tight enough grip on Myself to prevent Me form walking up to You and slitting You miserable throat. And yes that is what I really want to do. These People set out to screw with My life and mind and successfully accomplished Their goal, and now I am being mocked and laughed at by these Children? Bill do You understand fully that I am less than two hundred miles from Your exact location? This deed They have pulled off is a killing offense. Somebody had better take this shit seriously because I am.

Do You even care?

   The pain I live with? It is a seriously screwed up Life that has no chance in Hell of ever finding the right path in Life. Here I am, an innocent Victim. And it seems a care I find not. People in America would go to great lengths to protest the death of an African Lion, which would stock You and eat You, but let Someone try to help a Kid such as I? I see a bleak future for America with the mentality We are seeing in present day.

Hey

    As I write this I am 53 page views from hitting the 14,000 mark. I have to say maybe Someone is reading this. I still at a loss and how it is that this Richard Pattison is still out there doing what He does. I do hope I get a chance at bringing His sorry ass down. I am too damn honest I know and understand that, but I want these People so bad it's what I have to do. Help Me please, Kelly.

Takin' names

   Yep I am a Loser.

Hey! I am trying.

   I have been at odds with this crap for too many years. Here I am. I hate Life. I hate You for allowing this childish nonsense that Richard created. And I hate the Fuckers in Our existence that want to take down the innocent Children known as the Americans. I see one thing straight as a crooked arrow is allowed. We started a fight with Saddam. Mr. Bush Sr. did not have full backing of Congress and They said "No!" after He backed out of Kuwait. It was an open wound. "W" as the young Gentleman is affectionately called by His  Peers, We Americans, then "Stepped up to the plate." and hit a Home Run. Today? Hello. I am sitting here watching My sorry ass write this crap and wondering about the whole kit and kaboodle. You? We are in deep shit with the Boneheads We have in America...... Hey, that is how I look at it. The thing is, if They played it out and We fought, Whoever, and not the Military I feel They have a grip on more than We know and understand, these People have had years of seeking ways to destroy Us as a Country, America!!!! I did, and I can say as a documented fact on film, walk into the F.B.I. Headquarters in Austin Texas right after the attack in New York and gave Them a hand written letter that was so thick They were visibly not liking Me bringing to Them. Hey again, I need help. This is a pathetic plea for it I know, but Hey again, I want to see the end of it soon. I hope You will forgive a Kid and His rambling because this Kid has a chance if I find the crack and fall in it. Open that God Damn Crack My Friend, Kelly.

You just never know

   Here I am at My apartment when I have a thought. I pay $20. a week for parking to the Manager of the place. I had bought a bike for thirty and I figured He might just take that for payment. I went over and knocked on His door. When He opened it I knew something was wrong by His actions. His shirt was off and He seemed a little wound up. He was also sweaty. About that time another Fella comes into His living room, He should have got it that I don't like that crap by the look on My face. Silly ass Faggot anyhow. In reality He was one of the last I would have expected to be Gay, dammit I thought the Guy was alright until then. I cannot wait to get this Job thru and go to Billings. I liked what I saw of it last Thanksgiving, a lot of pretty Ladies there that aren't afraid to smile at You, I like that. And it's away from all the silliness here in Seattle. People look at Me funny around the site when I say I am going to Montana. They can't understand what I don't like here, well for one You have way too many screwed up People here. Santa Monica and L.A. have a similar issue, but here it seems intensified. Even the People from L.A. that have visited here I am told hate the traffic, and that's from a So. Cal. resident. There are tents all around when You get over by I-5, in California They would have been moved out. Here it is a Homeless haven it seems. They can have it I say.

I Live? Wow!

I am still a Youngster I cannot deny. I have lived a Life I am still at odds with. I kick Myself hard for never joining the Navy right out of High School like I thought about, I sure as Hell would be a different Person than I have been in My Life. I see this straight as it gets too. I would have never met Sheila and sent Her Home crying. I would have never made Nancy cry either. I know for a fact I would have never wound up in Austin Texas and found My sorry ass walking into a party, and then be offered even more drugs than I should have been doing in the first place when handed a copy of Playboy like I was. This Playboy? Where is it now? I would give most anything to read it just once. A lot happened that year, Reagan was shot and John Lennon was killed, and there was a mysterious death of a Playmate all in the same fall. I am curious to how powerful these People are. I understand I am speculating here, but these are not Choir Boys We're talking about. I have a good hunch that old Hugh really is in the Mob, I remember something way back when about Him being looked into. I just have one thing to say to those type, You aint shit.

My Life so far

   The computer? What an amazing discovery. I am in fact infatuated by it. I have though come to a conclusion, Facebook has a lot of lies at times. I stopped following a few sites already and plan too remove more. Other than that, My Life still sucks. I cry and cry about the pain I feel. Today was harsh. I wonder how much more I can cope with. I am the laughing stock of America and it is well documented. You know when I said I was in Cheyenne and spent four months in county jail for doing nothing? I am the one that found the lies in the reports and pointed it out to the appointed Attorney. These People were supposed to be honest hard workers in the eye of the public, They were nothing but rotten eggs in My opinion. If You think for one second that it is known as an Adult to bother another Human Being You are seriously mistaken. A Man? Yes, I must ask for I am still in My Youth. But I have witnessed enough People on the face of the Earth to say I am wise to the ways of the World. I wish You all a farewell, Kelly.

Pathetic aint I

You would be shocked at how many times I have thought of suicide in My Life. I just keep going because I know in My heart that I have a realistic chance at living a better Life then the one I have known. It's like what I read in a book once, if You quit it very well may have been the day before everything fell into place, not the exact words but the meaning is the same. So here I sit, waiting for My chance in Life to actually be happy. It's things like what I just wrote that hurt inside. A fact is a fact, and it is a fact that in My Life I have actually never been happy. My face is always frowning. My Aunt dies about seven years ago, when I viewed Her at the funeral She was wearing My frown. I know My Mother well, She would have done such a crazy thing. That one alone I understand sounds like a lie, "Who in the Hell would do that at a funeral?", I know. Again, I am not known as a Person that tells fables just to see Peoples reactions or to think I'm smart, I My Friends am an honest soul. Lord, please see it that I find the help I seek and soon. Amen

Give the Fool a chance

Hello out there, how the Hell are Ya? Today We want to talk about fairness. It seems to be lacking in the World as I know it. Fairness would have this Richard Pattison behind bars, I am not seeing that happen. Why? Is My question. I have a rage building up inside of Me that I want to let loose when I think of this Person and what it is that He has done. In reality I have lived My Life known as a "Space Case" and it bothers Me immensely. I would love to run into this Boy someday and kick Him in the teeth and elbow His silly ass so hard He'll never forget it and that is known as a fact of life. I admit I went to Santa Monica in hopes of doing that and worse. I know I could have stabbed Him easily after all the crap He has pulled. Richard, if You do read this I just have this to say, that's a damn good way to get Your ass shit Pal. Kelly McGill here saying so too.