Why even try?

   I ask Myself that constantly, then I answer Myself, because it needs to be done. You know these Boy's think it's cute to mess with Me, I never did anything to Them either. I told You about feeling patriotic, I know these Boy's say the opposite because I never signed up for the civil service, as I said I did'nt know I was actually supposed to. But I tell You here and now I would have if I'd known better. You cannot get certain jobs in America if You don't. But I am not the one that was going around saying, "I'm not going to Afganistan and fight for oil.", Richard Pattison sure as Hell was. I know why now, He wanted Me to start saying it so I would look bad, there is no way I would even think of saying such an absurdity. In the first place when others are dieing it would be My duty to stand beside Them, not turn tail and let Them be killed, even if it was for something I did'nt believe in. After the attacks on New York I asked a recruiter what the cutoff age was for joining, I missed it by only a couple of years, I was seriously thinking of joining. I still tell Myself and others that I made a mistake by not going into the Navy right out of High school, the benefits plus the retirement if You stay in is well worth it in My opinion, plus You are able to see the World. I would have had to bring My science grade up a bit, I saw My grades from My last four years of school, I had a B average in everything except science. I have to tell You though, I took all the easy classes I could and was in remedial math and reading. You know what's a kick in the ass about life, science to Me now is one of the most interesting things I can think of. My two younger sisters went in to the Navy, one has been to Kuwait and Afganistan in recent Years, I'm proud of Them both. I'll end tonight by sending My regards to those overseas, I hope You Folks make it back safe and as soon as possible. Sincerely, Kelly McGill.

Bastards

   I cannot stop thinking about these Assholes doing what They did to My life, nor can I stop thinking about what it is They are doing now. And Nobody is going to do a God Damn thing about it. I understand there are bigger issues going on in the World as I speak, so a small fry such as Myself is nothing in comparison. Well Dammit I am a Human Being People. "I don't claim to be something I'm not.", is the kind of Person I am. "I don't claim to be a Man.", is something most Children will refuse to say because They are so full of Themselves They actually call Themselves Full Grown. I want to tell You a story about a small Child. It was in 1963, I was three years old at the time, at that time I witnessed these young Adults acting like They were better then this one Fellow, I say it straight here, I saw Them as Children and felt Grown. You could read Thier thoughts when They all looked at Me, "We are not Men.", and They turned away and grew up, no shit. I do understand that there is no way of proving such a thing, You'll just have to take My word on it. A far fetched life? Ya a lot of it would seem that way. Like a beautiful Woman named Nancy falling in love with Me and Me walking away, damn that hurt. Or My own personal Playboy being handed to Me. How about writing about My life for two years in order to find justice? I have a grip on reality, it was'nt always that way. Like the time this Fella named Cowboy told Us He had spent a million dollars probabaly in His life, I said Me too, Bill had to correct Me. That is how My life has been and I refuse to let these Bastards win. Us Fucktards aint the brightest bulbs, but We still deserve a chance. Grow the Hell up and take a real look at what is going on.

2808 pageveiws, woo-hoo

   Man oh Man, People are actually reading this crud, well I guess that's a good thing right? I have a dilemma today, I have some money and I want to spend it. That aint right is it? I went and looked at a truck and want to get rid of Mine. A Guy does'nt really want to take a Gal out in one like I have, but with $2600. down I can take a little pride in Myself and feel better at least with a decent ride. Sad part is that where I went They declined Mine last fall for a trade in, noise in the front and a lot of play in the rearend. The Chevy garage said the plays normal and I'm sure it's a ball joint out. Not the easiest fix, but doable. I put one in on the drivers side last summer, so I know how it's done. Well just wanted to say hey, so hey. And We'll catch Ya later, Kelly.

Man what a Guy?

    I have told My darkest secrets in order to bring down a piece of shit with nothing to show but more grief, good gravy! What next? Well, I still wonder if I'm gonna make it till July here, that's when the 35th class reunion takes place. The problem I am dealing with is that this town is pretty small and it gets dull after a while. I built My Folks a garage last fall and am supposed to be getting $2400. here soon for it, heck I saved Them $10,000. just by doing it. I also have a bonus pending @ $3.00 an hour for hours worked, I just have to wait for that, soon I hope. I seriously want to wait around until this Bill character shows up, but You need to know how I can hurt Somone. Being a Carpenter We used hammers for years to nail things, this gives a Fella a strong arm. I hit a Kid in Arizona at half speed, because I liked Him, and sent Him flying. He was on the ground covering His head in fear. I liked Him, Bill Rowley I don't. I like what I named the copueta surprise, I''ll show it to Ya Bill, it's one I made up but have seen used in the ring. Plus I have put on some muscle in the last few years, if Ya wanta balloon up a bit flex Your muscles between reps, gauranteed results. I got a diet plan for Ya too, Dr. Atkins says to slow down on the carbs, Mike Geary says for thirty days eat none. All intake is to be protien and vegetables. 80% protien and 20% vegtables, I'll keep Ya informed on the results. Other then that keep watching this Damn Fool Kid, I said it before, 'I would have been a normal Man if People would have left Me alone.', I can tell by the feelings I get and the aires I see I would have changed a lot of Children in the World, that's what a Full Grown felling does to Them, it makes You realize that You aint seen sqaut. Have a good weekend and go fishing, Kelly.

Hello World

   How in the Hell are You? Great I hope. Myself? Got the day off, need to get off computer and go do something. That danged old facebook, I got too many friends there, I sign on and sit there for hours looking through some amazing things. I tell Ya I got some funny friends on there too. I also have quite a few that are pissed off at the way Our country is being handled, scary how People think aint it? Let's do what We can to make this World a better place to live, if not for Us for future generations, please. Enough said, have a wonderful day anyways, Kelly.

A poor Mans copyright

   I want to mention the story the other day about Mars becoming the way They did due to war, by putting it in writing here I have created a poor mans copyright. I have plenty of other stories in My head that I want to write, this is an oportuinty to cover My tail on one or two. One idea I have is that when the Dinosaurs were all killed there was no longer any life on this Planet. After seeing this the aliens from other Planets went to different Planets and picked up new inhabitents for Our World. They may of thought it cute to put different races here to see how We would cope. Think about it, this could very well be true. I know there are skeptics out there when it comes down to Beings from outer space, They're real Folks. It's not enough that I have lived this goofy life that I have written about, I have also witnessed a U.F.O., no shit. I was in high school when Me and Mike Durgin were leaving Pat Longs house and I looked over towards town. There above Riverton Wyoming We saw three lights moving in a large arc above the town. We told Everybody at My house only to be scoffed at, right after They went inside after looking for it We saw it again over the airport doing the same thing. I feel They are aware that We are the ignorant People We are here or They would have made contact by now, with the technology They showed in 1978 I am sure They could of then blew Our scronny ass to kingdom come easily. I also feel that They are out there watching Us and picking up Our transmissions on the airwaves, I hope They are right now and reading this. It sounds insane People, but We are not alone. "Another Crackpot!", I can here Them say, again I would submit to any type of lie detector You offer Me. As a matter of fact I would demand it. And Hey if You Folks are reading this I just want to say one thing to You, not all of the People on this Planet are cold hearted Bastards, some of Us would find it very interesting to meet You and see what You are like, Myself included. Have a great life and remember Kids, stay the fuck off of the godddam drugs. Kelly McGill.

The day of the Dogs!

   I am a Dog lover from the word go, Cats? I aint so sure about. Have any of You seen the video where the cat's barking while sitting in the window? When He sees He is being filmed He lets out a meow. Bah, that is funny. You wanta know what is not, when a Dog gets His ass kicked for barking all the time when Your trying to sleep. The damn Dog was sitting there watching this Frickin' Cat sit where He could not be reached and yapping His fool head off, sounded just like Your Dog too I bet. No wonder Dogs hate Cats. Just saying.

Still trying

   I hope it works, I contacted the F.C.C. again. The first time was a garbled message in writing, I was pissed off when I wrote it and I am sure They were confused a bit, this time I set it via e-mail. "There's a method to My maddness.", comes to mind here, I sure hope it works. Stay safe and enjoy Your Monday tomorrow, Kelly.

Hi I'm Kelly McGill

   What I have been saying is a factual life. I am alive in a country know as The United States of America. Yes I am a real Human Being with a crappy life, Larry My Boss can testify that the look in My eyes was totally lost. I was asked to count something and multiplied it by ten for some of the wall reason and could not figure out what I had done wrong while knowing I was screwing up. I looked at Him and muttered, "I know it's not around 500.", I don't think He really heard Me but Jim did, He chuckled a little. Well that's My story Folk's, I have to live with it. All I was was a friend to these People, I'm not feeling sorry for Myself I am pissed, but They set Me up People. I know for a fact these little Cowards have a great story of Thier own spreading around how They were never even around, of course You were'nt Son, it was set up that way. Let's start from the very first time, the second was identical, I was alone at My apartment, the album Animals from Pink Floyd was on the turntable, I just went to play it when a knock upon the door turns Me away and I answer. Freda 'Fred' Mares was there and asked if I wanted to buy some acid, it was sold to Me not handed would be an argument in trial, "You bought the acid?", Net it was Rushes 2112 sitting right on top where it is obvious that it was set there for Me. Soon after Bill Rowley tells Me, "Richard wants You to join Us in a Band.", I was to learn how to play the bass. Straight up facts of life I swear. I wound up in Austin Texas a few months later and this silly Kid walked in to the Marriott Inn where I used to clean up in Their restroom while sleeping under I-35 a few months back, had to work for a while before renting something, We were wandering around the halls and stumbled across ta party, I wound up alone there later and blurted out I was tripping on acid to a Gal I was talking to there, the next weekend I was asked to do acid again, two quarters of Window Pane and an RJS (Black Molly), I was'nt bright, around the time the acid started to kick in I was handed a copy of Playboy that read, "Stoned Hippy carries along hallucenagens!", I breezed through it and read every last page slowly except for the part about some Kid. I forgot to mention I had shoulder length hair, flip flops, and a white tooth earing hanging proudly, left ear of course. I was even offered ether that weekend. Now I am actually messed with on Television, this is a very serious matter, People of the World hate Americans and things like this is the reason why, I hate it. I am one honest Mother Fucker, excuse My profanity but it is to get Your attention, I seem to be lacking at achieving that in the proper places, Dammit. "Richard Pattison, Killeen Texas!", "Marge! Marge! Marge! Or is that Kelly! Kelly! Kelly! Ah, I wanted the Magilla Gorilla!", "Grandpa Kelly says Eeahh!", absurdness to the level of an atrosity.  I had a tent pitched in the woods and was playing My guitar and singing when a Guy and His dog come walking into the woods yelling My name, after I finally saw through what had taken place with My scatted brain I harrassed John Pierson to the point He called Me a braying Jackass, Bah, I told Him to tell Richard to put that on T.V., "Boy's will be Boy's.", but enough is enough, You are fifty two years old Richard, june We'll both be fifty three, still a childs age I already understand.
        Take a good hard look at Yourselves, You allow this? Grown Adults are not Children, a fact is a fact, maturity is not present in Their lives this is obvious. A Man is a Man! You are adolesent in Your actions Sir, I demand respect as I deserve as a Human Being on the face of this Earth. Men cannot stand a Smart Alleck such as You Boy, reality.

Sincerely from Kelly McGill

  I just want to send My regards to the Families of the victims in Boston. It really bothers Me when People say it was set up by Our government too. This is not a perfect country by far, but to allow such a crime would be unbelievable. As for the rest of You People that are actually Terrorist You had better understand that if this crap continues in America it will be the end of You. I know how People feel about it, They will take lives when it comes down to it. I understand that there are quite a few pampered lives in America, but watch out when the sleeping giant fully awakens. Yes this is a warning to You, not a threat. I do hope that it never comes to that, but Folks We are getting sick and tired of the whole damn thing. God bless the World and watch Your asses Folks, I do feel that Nobody is safe on this Planet. I am glad that My mind has cleared some in the past few years because now I see the reality of it in a way that I never would have in the past. I know that really does'nt make sense to those of You that do not see with My mind, but I do know what it is that I am saying to You. Let Us Please straighten this Bullshit out before We destroy the Planet. I really do think Mars had life on it until They killed Everybody off after becoming the way We are now, if We went to War with all the nuclear weapons on Earth We would become another Mars, seriously. Amen. Hug Your Kids and keep teach Them the proper way to live, Kelly McGill.

Stop Thief!

   You'd think I was used to being ripped off. When I was three I was given a toy gun and holster, My Mom took it and hid it and never gave it back. I was truly spoiled. I got a $900. loan to put a motor in My '71 shortbed Ford, My Sister asked to borrow $500. then said She was'nt going to pay it back. She told Me Mom told Her to do it. That truck would be worth a little now too. I was constantly giving some crackhead money for dope and never saw Them again. Billy Shlattery, Who somehow is wealthy now, ripped Me off over some 'shrooms. Ya know it's peculiar how the crooks make it rich and an honest slob such as Myself fights for His life. I told a Pal of Bill Rowley's after He asked what I had against Bill how I was set up with the drugs that altered My mind, I know it will get back to these People. It's like Dana said, "Why would They ask You to join a band without knowing how to play an instrument?". It's like I have said, I got out of the shower and found Rushes 2112 sitting on top of the stereo, I don't remember it there before I got in the shower either I think They put it there while I bathed, a few days after listening to the cassette Bill told Me Richard wanted Me to join Them in a band. Very interesting? I'm such an unlucky Bastard in life, I fell over a broken drain pipe on a job and put a pretty good scar on My face, I fell hard too, and I never asked for any compensation. Later on another job for this same company They constantly went around telling You to wear Your eye protection, even if You were walking across the parking lot, I made sure Johnny Gonzales took pictures of all the pipe laying where We had to dangerously walk over it. That's when I said the Hell with it and tried to get compensation, too late it was over year after. I lost My job but I bet They don't leave crap lying around anymore, I raised a stink over that one for sure, but I'm still the loser in the deal. Well enough bellyaching for one night, Have a great one Folks, Kelly.

Dammit all anyhow

   What does it take to get a judge to declare that I am able to take these Assholes down? I guess I aint got what it takes. If I were a millionaire I sure as Hell would be drawing attention to this I am positive of that. But no, I am but a poor soul on the face of the Earth without a chance at justice. One cruel Mother of a life is what I am stuck with for sure. I have done nothing but state facts. One week from now I will have to make up My mind on what I am going to do as far as work. I am supposed to be rehired after being laidoff this past winter, I really don't want to work on those damn modular homes, there is very little professionalism involved on these cracker boxes. The one thing I want to do is stay here for hunting season but that is a long ways off still, plus if I do stay here I know for a fact that Bill Rowley will be here for the class reunion. People I do not relish the thought of being here when that happens, Murder is not an option but I know Myself well and know I would lose it on this Boy. These People think it is funny to lie and screw with My life, anger to the point of losing control is what I am speaking of here and I know I would beat this Kid to death. Seriously, They are not worth losing My freedom over. What else can a Guy say Folks? You and I both know there are a lot of People that would have already killed one of these Bastards. I again say that I tell nothing but the whole truth, so help Me Mother Fucking God. I ask the Lord to keep Me in check if and when I see these People, I told You before about the fight in Virginia, I do not remember but parts of that fight, it would be real easy for Me to lose total control and come out of a blackout and see this Asshole beaten to death underneath of Me. I really want to do so too. Kelly.

Cowards !

   I am talking about the S.O.B.s at the Boston marothon yesterday. Those People deserved none of that. As the saying goes stand up and fight like a Man. A great Man comes from My area, His name was Washakie, Chief of the Shoshones. To stop a war between His People and the Crow Indians He challenged Big Robber to a fight, just Them no one else. They crawled ontop of what is now known as crowheart butte. The story non-locals get told is that He carried His heart down on a lance, the local story is that He ate it. A Crow Friend of Mine told Me He cut His pecker off too. That My Friends is how a Man handles it in My opinion. It is documented fact too. I am not as tough as You Bastards I am sure, but I would be proud to kick the living crap out of You, that is a reason to kill Someone for sure. I leave You with that, People are cruel Folks.

I will prevail !

   I sure as Hell hope I prevail at least. What a Loser aye? This life is an absolute wreck Folks, I know I have said that enough. I really cannot believe that I am unable to take these People down for anything that They have done. "Richard Pattison, Killeen Texas!", that right there as I have said before ticks Me off to the point that I really want to walk up to this Pattison fella and shoot Him in the face. As it is now I can say for a fact that I will cause bodily harm to Him. I know, I talk too much about this, again I ask You to put Yourselves in My shoes. If Someone had made damn sure that You were handed the drugs that would screw Your life up and then messed with You on national television how would You feel? Angry is the answer. Again I have to say that this is not a joke of any sort, this is My life.

Something funny?

   I am not laughing about this whole affair. In the first place it is not a laughing matter. I don't even know what to say here tonight, I just felt like saying something. But now that I'm here, what to say? I could tell You about the fourteen inches of new snow here in Wyoming yesterday, that's about as exciting as My life gets. Or I could tell You how I actually felt like taking My life yesterday, but hey that's a feeling I have felt so many times in My life that I just deal with it. I am sorry for the bluntness of this, but I really don't give a shit today, Kelly.

The life of a Kid

   I say Kid, but Folks I am fifty two years old. Man what a Friend I had in My youth, now He messes with My life. I have tried My damdest to quit talking about these People, but then I see something that ticks Me off and I have to continue. Since starting this a few new movies have came out, think like a Man and Snitch just to mention a couple. In the first place You do not think like a Man if You are screwing with My life, and another thing is that if Your mind is a little screwed up due to Thier actions it is impossible to have a Man's mind. And as far as being a Snitch? Wow! You are not normal People to screw with Me to begin with and need to be taken down. A Snitch They say, well I only turn in Somebody that really needs it. I know for a fact that They call Me that for another reason too. I witnessed an attempted armored truck heist on Americas most wanted, I knew all three People involved. The composite drawings were the exact match of some People I know. I never said anything because They never actually stold anything, the gaurd got the jump on Them and They got away. I talked about it around the People that worked for one of Them, I even told Him His face was wanted. I never would have said anything to the F.B.I. but My luggnuts were loosened while working on a job of His. I can't say enough about how Richards Friend Jon Pierson is involved with these characters, He's the one I told to tell Richard to say Eeeah on T.V. so I could prove what it is They are doing to My life. Anything I can do to beat these Assholes I will do, just short of murder. Take care Folks, Kelly.

Another day in My life

   I have said it before, if I had what I need to support a Woman in a proper manner I would be able to live a productive life. I just got back from eating. While there I kept getting a look from a Gal at another table, She was young and pretty too. Me? I have no chance in My mind, even if She's staring with lust in Her eyes I can do nothing, I know from experience. Well maybe I'll hit the lottto, or even P.C.H. aye? I gotta try right? I hate not being in position to arise from My Hell Ya know. If only I had true Friends back when I was truly impressionable and Gullible, instead of the fake Friends I did have. But it's like Mom always said, "If wishes were Horses, We'd all take a ride.". Another saying I like is, "There's a method to My madness!", another, "It's all in Your mind.", that one says it all when it comes to the Kids of today saying their all grown up, Ya right. Well another day with the Kid, that b Me, another day with Bad Karma aye? I had never even heard that word, Karma, until Mr. Pattison made damn sure that I knew what it was about. Most People say it's what comes around goes around, Richard says it's when People think of each other. That Boy really thinks He's a smart one don't He? As far as Karma, I like the version where the Asshole gets it in the end. See Ya in  Hell Richard.

Dumbass Kid

   Hey? If Someone is a Dummy, don't that make Them retarded? Man that Kelly Guy is a retarded dumbfuck aint He? What a joke right? I come from a family of a little bit of slowness in it, what's My crime? I have a question that needs answered, when is Richard Pattison going down? I am real People. If You knew how My life really is in My mind You'd cry.

Man Oh Man

   Bob Pace? You set the music up, either that or gave up a key. Is it Pace? Or Lapoca? You know, I completely forgot about the money up on the cabinet. There was a pitcher up there that We'd throw money at, it was half full I think. You know I sat there for two months barely eating and never knew there was enough up there I could have ate well for a while. After You and Your Friends trashed out the hallway and got Me kicked out of My apartment, You musta been surprised to find that. Another of Bill Rowleys Friends, The Guy was a welder in the uranium mines and needed a place to stay, places were'nt that hard to find back then, Bill was always finding these Strays and bringing Them to Me, Ken Dodson was another.

yesterday & today

    The title explains yesterday, it is also a song of Mine. Feelin' pretty lucky tonight is one verse. Man it's tough for Me to even come up with a topic without reverting back to talking about Richard Pattison. I can say for sure that Richard is the kind of Child that is laughing His ass off at My expense. What a World.

The biggest loser

   Ya I'm the biggest loser. Still gonna be I can tell. It seems like no matter what I do I fall flat on My face. That's alright though, You don't really give a shit about Me. Screw the World.