Here, but not wanting to be!

   Good day to You. Are You ready to get told something that is sure to make You sick? Here it is. America! Really, it is a disgusting place. Are Ya mad now? If not You're gonna be. This is probabaly the only Country on Earth where a Guy can screw Your life up, Rip You off, and then torture You on the television and get away with it. And that is'nt even what I'm mad about. I went to Hollywood yesterday to go to the Guitar Center on Sunset strip, boy what a goofy place that is. In a three mile hike I passed maybe ten Gay Fellas, You can tell, two of Them I know saw Me coming and one turned and acted like He was going to bump into Me acidentally, the look on My face made damn sure He missed Me. I am a serious defender of the hetoralsexual lifes of the World. God did not put Males on the Planet to hold hands with other Males, that My freinds is insanity. Then I get on the bus and head down Santa Monica Blvd., Jesus Christ that place is a zoo. I passed a bar and there is some Fella dancing in His underwear on a table with a bunch of Fools standing around watching, it was practicaly on the sidewalk itself. And the stuff in store front displays is considered normal? I have said before that I am not a violent Person by nature, but I had two Queers pick Me up hitchhiking once in Austin. When They dropped Me off one leaned out the window and said, "We'll be back in a half an hour if You're still here......" was all He got out. I never even got mad about it, it was a complete reaction to kick Him sqaure in the teeth. I know for a fact I hurt Him bad too, ask Bill Rowley how serious I move. I am so disgusted with what I see daily out here, I have made up My mind that when I get My G.R. (money from the state) I am leaving here fast. I was here a few years back trying to get My biograghy written, I came up with the saying, "If You question Your sanity, move to Santa Monica.", really, there are real nuttcases walking the street here People. I am lost in life, not insane. I am what is known as a Person with very little control over His life, No bullshit about it. One case in point is when I was in high school, Bill Rowley was with Me. They probabaly used this one against Me with Hefner and His Cronies. I was told by Shane Longtine that Chris Montoya drew back and was going to hit Laura Chiles while Their brothers were fighting. I never even thought about it until I saw Chris crossing the street on His bike, I lost it and punched the gas pedal. Yes I tried to run Him down, again no thought just reaction. I was at a party years later when Chris and His brother Eddie and freinds showed up, I told Dwayne, His older brother via the Classmates webpage that Chris was a Man about the whole thing when I walked up to Him and appologized to Him. Dwanye always treated Me with respect, and I am sure Chris is as Gentlemanly as His brother, I feel it was a lie just to get Me into a fight by My so called freinds. HEY!!! If We do nothing but let this Country run amuck in the manner it is, We are doomed People. Get a Mother Fucking grip on the situation now. Well that last sentence was a waste of time I know for a fact. Oh yea, still no Fricking dollar, I hoped atleast for one, but nothing? I vent again tommorow. Until then I hope like Hell You start taking a good look at Our wonderful country. Kelly McGill. p.s. God bless Our Troops and good job on hunting down a skunk in Pakistan. Some of You know Me from Fort Hood, I always said, "Welcome Home.", and , "Good luck over there.", when I talked to the Soldiers in My cab. God bless Us all, We Fucking need it.